Couch 28

BashfulBear - (( HUGS )) - I can relate to the idea that physical health issues (heck, emotional/mental ones too) impact the ability to be fully engaged with others. It's hard to give of myself when I'm in conservation mode.

Bashful, your posts, when you don't delete them, don't sound contrived. I like reading your posts. I wish you felt better.

Thanks MUE and MKAC, I really do appreciate it... Just having a particularly bad day today, I guess.

Why? I don't feel amazing.

Thanks Lola. Doesn't mater; T is at a conference and I have meetings Tuesday. I'm keeping my Thursday appointment. I'm going to pull out my DBT skills and use them. Wise mind distracts today. One day at a time.

Hey couchanistas! I'm sending out good, positive vibes to everyone today. I've got plenty to go around right now! I'm working on my novel every day now - mostly at work on my lunch break. The story is beginning to tell itself and I'm having fun with it trying to keep up with the scenes I see in my head. LOL I can't believe I never wrote fiction before - in the past I stuck to poetry - but I bought a couple of books on writing fiction and studied them, worked on developing my characters to the point where they feel like actual people I know, and now when I sit down to write I think about my characters interacting with each other and boom I'm off and running. Between my writing, doing Active Imaginations a couple times a week, and my dream work my creative fires are burning hot right now and you know what, that seems to be when I am the hap-hap-happiest!! So I'm taking the opportunity to spread it around!

So happy for you Artemis!

It's been the worst week ever. I am so shut down and numb. Its so much better than feeling the pain... I tried being me...not safe...going back to being invisible...

I just read a tweet that said, "My life is a constant panic attack, occasionally interrupted by a sandwich"....I totally LOL'd.....

Readystop, we should all be genuine and those that don't like it , maybe they need to become invisible . I struggle with this too, ((((RS)))

Hey couch... Sitting at subway eating lunch with my kiddos. Hope everyone is enjoying their day!

So I decided tonight is my last T session with new T.... I can't afford to go anymore...since I pay out of pocket...

My son wants his driving permit and that is $375 for driver training... I owe on credit cards and behind on bills... and so its time to just accept that its time to stop.

Oopps its after 1pm...back to work.

RTS - I can relate to that struggle....I am in the same boat, and it is painful. I may be having that same talk with T today, even though deep down I don't want to. I have to face reality at some point, right? *sigh*

I just checked my bank account online. Probably wasn't a good idea. The only activity was that the check I sent to T on Monday afternoon hit my account yesterday. That was quick. It's hard seeing the bank account go down, knowing that there's very little coming in to replenish it.

Blech.

Welp, I better get showered. My session is in an hour. I really don't want to go.

I'm showered. So, now at least I won't stink. You're welcome, T.

I'm sorry for the couchkateers who are struggling today. I think this time of year doesn't help anyone, with all the forced jocularity and dealing with the FOO.

MUE, I love that tweet! I hope your session is a good one.

I have T in 90 minutes. Not a clue what we're going to talk about. I hate those sessions, but T loves them. We always seem to work on the hardest stuff when I don't have an agenda.

Heading out to my session with T.....I sure hope I can work towards making this session productive...Wish me luck!

At work? Socially? On the internet?

((Chopin))

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You are so too, amazing, so there!

All of the above, but now I am at work and staff are kissing my behind, so feel a bit better.

Thank you, (((CantExplain)))!

I'm still trying to figure out what Apteryx means.

I can't speak for Apterix, of course, but what I find amazing is your ability to bounce back and carry on.

Well, you might not be an unbiased judge on this matter
I am very impressed with how you stayed throughout the session and how you are able to reason around it.

Oh, and I get that you are perhaps hurting much more than you are expressing, and that it's easier to sound rational than to feel it... but I still think you are amazing. So there.

Er. I really did not mean to say that a person who is hurting a lot cannot be amazing. I am NOT expressing myself very well.

Apt was the movie awesome?

It wasn't as bad as I'd thought! Def not awesome, but I had been expecting awful

2000 posts! Is this where I get to choose a title?