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Had my session tonight.... In general it was really good...but I said one thing I had promised myself never to say and after 6 months of being careful it just slipped out . Stupid stupid stupid...

It has been a long time since I have watched it, but I can see the creep factor. It just brings back nice memories of my Grandmother. We would watch the shows I mentioned or sometimes Kojak or baseball, and then we would go to A&W or to the convenience store and get rainbow sherbet.

I'm sorry that you surprised yourself and let it slip, but sometimes the things we think we shouldn't say are good to let out. Perhaps some good can come from the loose tongue? You are not, of course, stupid.

Thanks Trdleblue ...it's a long story but I said the first name of my old t to my new t and I know they know each other...

Ah - I can see how that would be stressful. Would it help to remind yourself that they really can not talk about you unless you signed a release? Try not to be to hard on yourself.

Current t knows I just quit via email and never went back... I've complained about him to her and talked about some issues I had...now she knows who it is..ugh

Sorry, Ready. I still hope that this slip will be good for you in the long run.

Trdleblue where is everyone tonight?

Seriously. Cool Whip. Drunken e-mail antics are about to occur. Those are the only couch beacon's I can think of. You may be stuck with me for the evening Ready.

Hi all. How's it going?

Hi Melissa

How are you doing tonite? I can't sleep.

Helloooo Melissa. I took a nap today. There are many reasons I don't do naps. The big one is that I am wide awake at 11:30. Ugh - I have to wake up by 6:30 tomorrow, and I train in a busy section tomorrow. Oh well, I have gone by on no sleep, and I can do it again if need be. What is going on with you this evening?

I can't sleep because I have a new T I'm seeing tomorrow and am extremely nervous.

Hey Melissa!

Did someone say Cool Whip?

I just got off the phone with an employee of mine. We talked for an hour. She said that she wanted me to know that for the first time in a long time, she felt heard at the staff meeting today...that I am a positive source of knowledge, change, and growth. She told me that other staff are realizing that I want to listen to them and I don't want to be negative and hold grudges. I must say that was really satisfying. Apparently treating others the way I want to be treated works. Go golden rule!!

On that note, my meds are kicking in and I hope everyone has a great night!

I hope that it goes well for you.

Yeah I don't know might just back out if my anxiety get any worse

That sounds like a wonderful thing to hear from an employee, Chopin. Sleep well.

Melissa - I'm having those same thought with the group that I am joining. Is there a way you can just convince yourself that you are 100% going? That is what I am doing. I'm kind of letting anything else happen, but I have told myself that I want to get to that first meeting.

Oh I'll go. Just don't know how to bring up what I need to work on?

Gracious - I have been in t for about a year now, with a t that I like, and I still don't know how to bring up things. It might be good just to go and get a read for the t, and see how you like her/ him. I do hope that it is a good fit.

I will add that from memory you are looking for a T that is Christian that will accept your sexuality? That is not an oxymoron, and that T does exist. If that is what you want to work on then please know that those T's are out there. I hope that I am not way off, or out of line for saying this. I just hate to see someone struggling with this topic.

Thanks I'm gonna go and be totally honest with him.

Goodnight Melissa, Ready, Chopin, and anyone else that may see this. (I am glad that at least one person saw my couch signal.) I have to at least try to force myself to sleep. Tomorrow will be a long day.

Goodnight to everyone just leaving.

Hey Apt, if you ever still check in, I miss having you here and I hope you're well. I got the scholarship (from my own university) for the overseas course I applied for. I still need to be accepted by the overseas university. So, as long as I'm accepted, some of my fees are covered (such a relief).