The answer to life, the universe, and everything - Couch 42!

Granite - did you see her today?

yes i did and i will never ever see her again .it was so so hard to ceep myself composed for the las few min .i hate her and i don't give a rats a s s what she thinks of me . my head is crazy i don't know what to do. i hate her

Okay - certainly I understand quitting and never going back. Would it help to tell us about it?

Why do you hate her? That could be important.

I'd write down all of your hate and vitriol. Maybe even give it to her.

Grainte- talk to us please.

i don't remember any of my session i really don't exsept for a few . YOU ARE LIKE YOUR MOTHER. god i hate me and wish i was dead

i don't want to remember what horrible thing i did to make her say that i really don't but i am to ashamed to ever go back

Granite I am sorry you are going through this. I wish I knew what else to say. Keeping hanging out here and getting it all out.

(((( granite ))))

I'm sorry you're in this place. I hope you can make some sense of it all and use the information for some sort of gain and awareness. ((( HUGS )))

Hey couch peeps....sorry I've been MIA. I have been so disconnected from life lately. Still at my mom's, but that should be ending soon. I've become so filled with resentment and frustration that I've detached entirely from my life....no comedy, no job hunting, not very involved in group T - I don't even want to go to T tomorrow. I'm under the weather, too, with a cold - so that isn't helping. I did spend the day with a couple of friends yesterday which was nice...but then BACK TO THAT HOUSE.

I've been getting out of the house - actually, spent all day today sleeping AT HOME which feels good. But I'm still resentful because I'm going back to my moms AND I DON'T WANT TO! I feel badly about feeling this way because she's done absolutely nothing at all wrong. *sigh*

My daughter is on a class trip this week from yesterday til Friday, so I'm super worried about her too - especially since it was raining all day yesterday and her asthma/allergies usually get really bad in that kind of weather...and they were out in it all day. But, I haven't gotten a call yet, so I'm hoping everything is ok.

I wish I would've cancelled my T session. But now it's over the 24 hour mark til my session time, so if I cancel, I'll have to pay the full session price. It just might be worth it considering I feel so crappy physically and don't want to work on anything in T.

Sorry I haven't been around much. And I'm sad to see so many of my peeps struggling. ((( HUGS )))

(((granite)))

M.U.E. - I know the feeling of wanting to disconnect. I hope that you feel better soon and that you can get away from your mom's house. I don' t like being in my mom's house even when she isn't home. A lot of feelings get tossed about when seeing places from our past.

Granite - I'm sorry that you had a bad session.

Hey Granite, Lola, Stopdog, Healed, Fixated, Bashful, Rainbow, MKAC, Wiki, MUE, Nellie, Ike, Cant, Trdle, Hank, BipolarA, etc. (if I forgot you, I still love you)...

Why on earth did your T tell you that Granite? That makes no sense to me. Talk to us, please.

Healed, I'm sorry about the results of your allergy test. As someone who is allergic to almost everything, I understand. I tried doing allergy shots and never could get to the maintenance dose. I am highly allergic to mold and it is in my group home. Every time I go to work there, my eyes turn blood red.

Glad to see you guys back, Wiki and MUE. Nellie and Bashful, good to see you...it's been awhile!

Hope everyone else is doing well. My meeting went pretty well. They just hated how long it was...lol. When I spoke with my boss earlier, he wants me to help him teach the behavioral principles class. I now also want to teach an active treatment and habilitation class. I'm starting to get the teaching bug! I never thought I'd have the confidence to lead and I'm starting to get that confidence. Thanks, T!

I'm glad that your meeting went well Chopin. That's great about the class as well.

This is just a thing therapists say. I doubt that it ever means anything.

chopin i have no idea .there had to be a reason but i honestly cant think of what i did .i feel so so horrible . i can never go back

it isn't something my T says at all

Thanks, Trdle! How are you? Nice to see you too, BTW.

I keep realizing how much progress I've made in my life. In the last two years, I've gone from not being able to look people in the eye and hiding from people to making eye contact and actually succeed at leading. I think it is the combined efforts of my T, my boss, my H and my friends that has made the difference.

Even though I'm still rather selfish at times, I have learned to look outside of myself to make an effort to help others. The theme of my meeting today was "help me help you". I have really good employees.

This pisses me off. It makes my "I wanna go beat your T up" come out.

You just had your session tonight, right? I really think things will look better tomorrow morning, or the morning after, when the anger becomes more manageable.

I agree with the others that your T might not have meant it to come out the way it did or she meant something else. My T has suggested to me that some things I've done in reaction to my pain are similar to what was done to me. She too did not say it in the most tactful manner, but I've realized that she had a point.

It doesn't mean you are bad. Even if you are like your mother in the negative connotation that you are taking, you are still going to therapy to heal/get better. (For the record, I don't think you're like you mother in that way).

i so want to e-mail her and tell her what for. i just cant care what she thinks right now. it hurts .why did she say that .and she said it at the end of our session .why would she do that

granite, I agree with chopin. Maybe if you remember the context in which your T said what she did it would help. I'm sure she didn't mean you're abusive or mean or uncaring. You are TOTALLY the opposite! It must have made sense in the session.

I suggest you CALL your T and ask her what she meant, and tell her that you are very upset about what she said. I know you probably aren't going to do it, but isn't it better than hating her and yourself? None of us were in your session with you, so we can't know what your T meant, but I KNOW she did not mean it in a bad way, and I KNOW she wasn't trying to shame you.

Being angry with your T is not a bad thing. It's a time to clarify what she said and not think horrible lies about yourself.

Well said, Rainbow!

I miss my therapist/therapy. I usually have sessions 2x/week, but only 1x a week the last few weeks. I am wavering b/t wanting to text my T and feeling it would be totally fine if I never went back to therapy.