Couch 43 ... 1 year !! Thanks for the memories

Morning...T canceled...snowed yesterday and last night, about 8 inches here.

(((trdleblue)))
(((karebear)))
(((BPA)))

Here's another snow on the beach photo:

Morning all. Good luck today Granite. Wiki sorry T cancelled and BP get ya some tp, now! Im packing up today and headed home!

i hope your travels are event free lola and you feel better,but mostly that wife is welcoming when you get home

((( Lola ))) - I hope you're feeling better and have a safe trip home!!

((( Granite ))) - No worries. What you're going through is bound to produce a roller coaster of emotions. We're here to support you during the ride.

((( Wiki ))) - UGH. Sorry that T canceled. I hope you can reschedule soon.

I am exhausted this morning. I really hate nightmares. I wish I knew how to stop them from happening. The minute I close my eyes, it starts...so you would think it would be easy to stop them. Nope. It's pure torture. *sigh* I end up taking klonopin just to get to sleep at night. Not good.

Taking my mom in for a mammogram this morning. I haven't seen her since Tuesday, and I'm not looking forward to seeing her. UGH. I wish I didn't feel that way. Hope she doesn't plan to hang out after the appt.

I've been working on cleaning up my house and made some real progress yesterday! Woot woot! Well, 90% of the house is still a disaster...but that 10% really does help get me motivated. Hoping to accomplish more today.

RS - I have had many of those kinds of sessions and they are so very frustrating for me.

Hi couch friends-

I have this complete calm feeling today. It is odd. There is absolute chaos about to erupt at work, and I am no longer freaking out. Yesterday in session I told t stuff I had been holding back for months... and it's okay. I felt safe. I think I have therapy high instead of therapy hangover.... is that possible?

hey so the more i am looking at this center for psychological trauma is looking good and he also takes my insurance i have now and the insurance i will be switching to. i just have to figure out what i want to put in the e-mail so i dont sound so stupid.and also hope he is still taking on clients . he seems young and only been working for 8 years but seems well trained in dealing with adults suffering from prolonged childhood trauma. etc.. BUT HE IS A GUY. do i say i am already in T in my e-mail and do i say what the problems are etc.. i don't want him to think i hate my T or that she is bad just because we dont seem to connect. i know he will ask about it

I would write out an email and save it. Go over it several times. Remember, it's Friday, so he may not get back to you until next week. Most of them won't cover a lot of stuff in email, but still the same..it's good to lay it all out. You don't have to give out current t's name, but maybe mention you have difficulty communicating? Maybe even say its a HUGE main issue? Ask how he can help a non talker talk? I was really up front about this issue, and it helped me find T that could help with that.

(((sconnie))) that's so awesome.
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Guess what? Les Mis is out on blue ray today! I guess I am gonna be using this Best Buy gift card I got for Christmas. How does one spend $100 at Best Buy? I never buy anything there! Maybe a new phone case? They have cd's too, right? Hmmmmm.

Granite, I think I would keep the initial email pretty simple. What issues I'd like to address and asking to make an appointment to discuss.

Sconnie, I've had that same feeling of a therapy high. Not often, but it's wonderful when it happens.

BPA, I'm glad assistance has arrived.

Safe travels, Lola.

hey readytostop: Good morning!!

i think whoever i go see needs to know that i am seeing a T. i don't want them to think that i think bad of my T or that she is bad .so i think what i will say is that i am currently seeing an amazing T but that i am incredably stuck right now and think i need to try something else. what do you think????

OK MORNING READY!!!!!! don't know how to make it bigger

i believe she usually has her lunch with us

Good night all!

((( granite )))

I would try to be as honest and clear as possible....that you WERE seeing a T but struggled so much with verbal communication and need a T who with diverse non-verbal strategies.

I think that's a great idea. I also think Wiki's idea about mentioning how hard it is for you to talk is important as well.

I'm impressed you're following through with this granite. Good on ya!

Good morning all.

I slept last night despite the fact the my hubby wasn't here. I have T today- so that should help tremendously and then I have a session of Reiki after T. Just started with the Reiki, but it's interesting and seems to help me some.

Has anyone else here done Reiki???

most definately need to get in there about how hard it is for me to communicate. that goes without saying LOL LOL LOL

Hi, everyone.

granite: does this potential T do other than "talk therapy"? I would be sure the T is open to other ways of reaching you, like reading your emails and looking at your drawings. Sorry to keep harping on this, but you don't have to struggle so much like you have with your current T. You can finger-paint and make collages in your session with some Ts! But you do need someone who can help with the stuff in your past too, of course. I'll shut up now. I don't know if it's necessary to write in the email that you're seeing someone else. He may say to wait until you're done. Just my opinion of course. Go with your gut feeling about it.

wiki, I'm sorry the snow is making you miss your session.But I LOVE that photo. I want to paint it!!!

lola, have a safe trip back!!

karebear, I never did Reiki but I used to have a pen pal who did. I hope it goes well for you!

BPA: I'm glad you're getting some assistance. Hang in there!

Hi, critterlady.

MUE: I hope you get through the mammogram with your Mom okay.

ReadToStop: Sometimes what comes out in T is not what you meant to say, but what you needed to say, but do you mean you just couldn't say what you needed to? That happens to me too, and it's frustrating, I agree. I hope next session is better. Can you write it down first?

sconnie: I've had post T highs too, and I've been on one for the last few weeks. I think it happens when we share those hard things we never thought we could talk about!

I've evil. Sigh. I was on facebook this morning, and one of my high school friends posted a photo of a woman who was the BIGGEST bully to me in high school. Let's call her, oh, EW. (for Evil Woman). EW was so mean to me in high school: called me fat, thunder thighs, etc. Made fun of me in gym class when we had to do gymnastics. Made fun of me for breathing too hard when we ran, etc. Rolling her eyes whenever I said something in class she thought was nerdy. You get the picture. ANYWAY, I am totally gleeful this morning because she is gigantically FAT. I mean, FAT fat. I am overweight still, but she is freaking huge. She was a size ZERO in high school and looks to be well over 200 pounds now. It's mean that I am so happy about that, right? Someone talk me down here. LOL.

Mkac - so what does it mean to you that she is fat? Is it proof that she is unhappy? Or that you win? I'm serious. Cuz I don't see weight as a competitive sport. More as a personal best thing. But after having my family rag on me about my weight when I wasn't fat until I finally did become fat, really what is the glee about? Not that I haven't felt it myself at high school reunions. It's like, you tortured me but now you know. That's how I felt when I found out Jane Fonda was puking.

I guess on some level, hankster, I am hoping that she recognizes now that nobody CHOOSES to be heavy. That she is less of a big meanie about it. That she's finally sorry that she tortured other people and has some idea about the pain she caused. I KNOW it's mean that I am hoping she feels some pain about her weight, and shame that she tortured others about theirs. I guess I never really talk to people who are or have been bullies because I am so repelled by them. So I am meanly glad that she has now become the kind of person she used to torture.

i think i would be also MKAC .right or not. i would be glad that that person has to feel some of the pain i felt at her hands