Couch 47.0 (we finally debugged)

LOL... no its her Granite

I met her when I was 25 , she helped raise me... ya know

((Lola)) my heart is breaking for you. I wish there was some way to fix it and make it all better for you because I don't want you to be in pain. I am so sorry that you are going through this. Please know that whatever happens, you are a strong, beautiful person and you can get through this.

I need a MOM..... unconditional love and support, someone to run to when life becomes overwhelming.

Thank you all, for all your support and I'm sitting here once again BAWLING.... omg..... I'm a giant leaky bag of salt water.... eeeeewwwww

I cant decide if I should go to work this afternoon or tomorrow or Wednesday....

Oh yeah...a loving supportive mom would be so nice

Sorry to say but I don't think that being a "leaky bag of salt water" is all bad. Tears can be very healing... although I hate to cry and hate to admit that sometimes I need to do just that.

oh i'm sorry i misunderstood. i bet it feels like that. none of this is easy for you.it is one of those hurts that starts in your stomach and heart and seems to never go away with every thought .i am so sorry you are going through this .

i think you should... it might help some to have something to do .some sort of normalcy. i'm not saying to go ,be happy dont worry kind of thing .i doubt that would be possable .but to see as miserable as things are you can move on and keep going.

Yup.... mine comes in waves and literally makes me want to vomit. I'm ok for awhile and then BAM (Hot Mess), then back to ok...rinse repeat

i think going to work may slow that down a bit. don't you think ?maybe

Yeah I agree Granite...sometimes keeping busy and distracted is helpful.

I am kinda working on a spreadsheet..... I just cant sit in a room with 10 people all working in silence at a table....

This is where the Couchsters come in.

Ugh! That does sound torturous.

Thinking of you, Lola.

Hi to my couch peeps. Some of you may remember me as Apteryx.

They are your friends...they have hard fast rules , that make sense...

Lola, NO self destructing.

My daughter is still ill. I called the doctor AGAIN and they did not re-test for Lyme disease this last time, so the nurse is talking to the doctor about getting the test ordered.

MKAC I'm sorry about your daughter , that is awful.

I have no intention of self destructing, I may just dabble...

im just playing around

i would say bring an i pod and listen to music

some buildings have a "no headphone" policy... LOL Sounds stupid, but true... they are allowed for conference calls only... LOL

lol feel free to babble away lola

hey coucheroos. i'm fighting some negative aftereffects from my visit with FOO. yeah i handled it fine, and i made it through without going back on meds or calling t. but i sure as heck didn't know it was going to make me feel this bad after the fact. All I want to do right now is go sob in t's arms. But since that would require a plane flight, I'll wait until my appt on Wednesday to talk to her about it and sob on the couch instead. I put down a towel so I won't leave behind a puddle of tears. ha. Seriously I don't know why this is affecting me so. Has anyone else experienced this, an overall decent visit with FOO and then after the fact feeling like crap?! My H says I'm acting like I have no self-esteem again. Lovely. Well I have to go to work now anyway.

Artemis, although you survived the storm of the FOO ... you are still going to feel the rain. I am sorry you are down, if you wanna chat...hit me up

Just got back from my mom's appt....It was so irritating having to wait forever for the dr to arrive, watching my mom yap and yap about nothing of significance, while I was miserably impatient with a migraine. *sigh*

My mom was going to invite herself in to my house because she had a survey that she wanted me to review with her and some other paperwork. I told her "not today". She was not happy about that AT ALL. She said she NEEDED me to help her understand one particular document. I told her to let me see it before I got out of the car. I did and it took all of 3 seconds to figure it out for her....Buh-bye.

I am a rotten daughter. Oh well. I am not in the mood to deal with her right now, especially when I have a migraine. AND especially knowing that she now has 4 more of my days booked with appointments cuz she needs to go for 2 different procedures, a test and follow-up. Man, I wish my sister would buck up and help out with this stuff sometimes. I know she has a full time job and I don't....but for each day I tell the agency I am not available to work, it's an opportunity lost for work.

Irritable.

Lola, I understand the urge to hide...and it's certainly ok to do, as long as it's a temporary thing. Set aside time for you to do anything you want, or nothing at all....and then maybe try to set aside some time to journal your thoughts and feelings about your current situation. It might pave the wave to some important discoveries and help you figure out how you want to move forward.

Hi couch! Had staff development day, all of the teacher got iPads and we learned how to use them in conjunction with the classroom! Then went on a bike ride with a coworker. Now.. I must work on cleaning my house.

MKAC- I really hope you and your daughter find answers really soon!

Lola- still thinking about you!

RS I'm telling you all instead of W, cause W wont listen and I have no real friends...