obsessed with T's words

My T said something very sweet to me quite a few months ago. When I think about those words, I cry. Yet, I find that I'm obsessed with them.
"I helped Minnie. I called 911 to get help in getting her up when she had fallen down in the bedroom. I helped her go to the bathroom at night. I kept her company and helped her to stay out of a nursing home for a little longer than if I'd not been there." This is not an exact quote. But, when I think about the idea that I helped Minnie, I cry sometimes. Does anyone else do that? I keep thinking the guilt is gone. But, if it were gone, then I probably wouldn't still cry at times when I hear/think words like these. How long does it take to get over guilt in relation to a death of a family member? (okey, you can't answer that one because it is different for every person.) Are any of you obsessed with any words that your T has said to you? I seem to crave her words like there chocolate or some really sweet food. Does anyone else seem to crave the words of their T like I do?

((HOPEFULL))) Yes it depend on how long the family member has been gone and the person who is processing the grief so I cannot answer on that part..I bet it also has to do if its healthy grief too

OK on words your T has said and that craving for them..replaying what you HAVE heard from T ..yes, yes ohhh yes I have and do. I think I crave my T's words like you crave yours

Is it really obsession? What you describe here sounds to me like a common reaction in healing from the grieving process. Is your mental rehearsing of your therapist's insights due to an inner struggle as you process your feelings into the acceptance phase?

Illustrated below is the grieving process defined by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross. In the depression stage, self-blame may occur. The process isn't linear as people cycle through these stages. It's normal to move to other stages then find yourself back in the first DENIAL or other phases. The point is, it's a process. It doesn't happen overnight.

Yes about everything because I usually only stay in the room for 50 secouns maximuem. They are just random things but I still am abesses with these words. "I am going to take some notes while we talk." "It really is cold outside today." and "Do you want to play Mancala?"

My T's words keep me alive.

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My T's words keep me alive.

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Sky that is truly a lovly quote!

Sarah: What do you mean when you say that you stay in the room for a maximum of 50 seconds? I hope you can find a way to increase your time in the room over time. T's words can really be a pleasure to hear and re-play in your mind. Well, it takes guts/bravery just to walk into the room at times.

That's one of the nice things about e-mail therapy. I've never walked out of a f2f session, but sometimes something in an email does send me to the other end of the house. Once I found myself standing in the kids' bathtub, which is the as far as I could go without going through a wall. But the message is still there when I get back. That doesn't happen so much anymore, and the messages that did that were just powerful. After getting through them once I could re-read the messages more easily.

If you are regularly walking out on f2f sessions, you might want to work on increasing your tolerance for it so that you can stay in the room.

Oh thanks guys, yes I do not stay there very long you see since my psychiatrist and psychologist are married they have their own private practice www.ccadpa.com when my parent takes me there I usually do not talk or even stay in the room for 3 solid minutes or so. Not sure why, I was put on medicine and I hope they can help me! They offer to play games talk about what is outside the window and even once for some reason said "I am going to take some notes while we talk." I hope I can and will try, what really should I do or say? i wonder when my next session will be. Oh jez and just think if they found this on here! I wonder.................

Oh and I forgot sometimes I just wonder! The first time I went I got Risperdal and what the psychiatrist (jerk) thought was wrong was almost exact! I wonder where they get that info and how they know, do they know what you are thinking? The Q's go on! Plus when I am in the waiting room I wonder what are they saying? What is going on? This is me?! I am so tempted to eavesdrop which I do often. I am good at it! ??????????????? Oh and if not that I sneak to my files whoooooo la la! jackpot!

Sarah, why not just ask them what you want to know? They can explain it to you and help you understand yourself better. You can ask about your meds, what is in your file, your treatment plan, etc.