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btw, could I ask for pocket riders for tomorrow? I know I am not as supportive of others as I would like to be. But I really need some support if I am to manage to talk to T tomorrow, and I do need to do that.

LOL, xgrpcoT....At first, I was like ...but then I was like......and then I was like...

Hopping in your pocket, Mastodon! Remember, 20 seconds of courage!

You can do it, Mastodon. You are in my thoughts.

Apparently my dog doesn't want anybody to wear sandles in this house.. I have lost count of how many he has chewed through, and it is not even officially summer yet!! GRRRR!

Apt- hopping in! Murray ((((hugs))))) Granite- sounds like a great day you had, I am jealous of bff time and nails being done!! Lola- hope you are having fun with your Grandma and staying out of trouble! Howdy, to MUE, Wiki, anybody else hanging out the couch this afternoon!

Howdy, healed! Looks like you're going barefoot this summer!

There are probably ways you can train your dog not to chew sandals....but I have no idea since I've never owned a dog.

And now the panic starts up again....

xgrpcoT (Thanks, Mastodon! LOL) emailed back saying she'd be happy to meet with me to help me sort this out...and asked if I wanted my T not to know. I really should have thought this through better. Her office is DIRECTLY NEXT to my T.

Now, I'd imagine there's no harm in my T knowing that I am consulting with another T about something specific....but considering it seems to be a sensitive topic for him, I have no idea how he would take it.

I told her that I wasn't sure how I felt about it. I told her that I didn't want to keep it from him but am cautious because I'm not sure how he'd feel about it. ACK.

I asked if I could see her tonight or tomorrow before group T....so I can try to have a final decision by then. It's not fair to the group to have this linger on. I either need to stay firm in my position or commit to continuing with group. It has to be one or the other, as it's not fair to anybody for me to be in limbo about it.

I think my dog needs doggie boot camp this summer- he is naughty, naughty, naughty. My dad is a dog trainer, used to train them for military and civilian police officers.. I suppose I should have him come over, lol!

MUE- I have no advice! I just hope you get it all figured out!

Thanks, healed.

I am working on jotting all of my thoughts/feelings down so that I can make this a productive session. It's hard to cover everything in a single 40 minute session.

Well it was a rough go but I finally broke thru. Its been a year or more since I've had earrings in. I did it this afternoon.

Blah. Had a hard time not crying in my pdoc appt. Having a hard time avoiding crying at work.

Therapy should be a real joy tomorrow.

Aww, pbutton. ((( HUGS )))

Can I just say that xgrpcoT is awesome? She offered to do a phone session with me tonight for free.

She has always been so great to me. I really hope she can help me work through this issue.

I asked my mom if she could keep my daughter for a couple hours tonight so that I can make the call privately and work through whatever feelings I have without having my daughter around. Of course, I didn't tell her why. I'm sure she'll want to know and I'll have to come up with something to say. I wish people would mind their own business. It's so hard to have a private life as a single mom.

I told my daughter that she was going to my mom's tonight. She asked me why. I said that I had some things to do. She asked me what. I told her that I had to make a private call. She asked me if it was my boyfriend. I told her no, it's with a woman. She said, "You're a lesbian?".....LOL. Gotta love that kid, but damn, no privacy.

Mue, I'm a single mom too so I get the whole privacy thing. Its hard to come up with explanations for kids that they won't ask more about lol...but that made me laugh

I'm sitting at my son's first high school baseball practice...(discreetly watching from the car so I'm not the only mom there lol...that was his suggestion). He's so nervous. Its cute, but I'd never tell him that

Slow evening for the couch!

it's been super slow at times lately. Otoh, the psych forum in general is much busier. But maybe the couch is slow cuz it's nicer out? Now that spring has finally sprung.

i be here working on my crafts and keeping calm and so on . who has T tomorrow with me

hi ellie glad to see ya around here

boing boing boing boing

Thanks granite! I've been hanging around but not saying much. I've been working on stuff in T that causes huge anxiety so I've been pretty quiet everywhere.

I had T today so none tomorrow for me though! Its was a calmer session and we talked some about all the ways I've changed in the last 5 years. I like sessions like that every once in awhile.

Hopefully T goes well for everyone who has it tomorrow! Are you going to take the letter?

Me me me!

I'm watching one of my favorite Rifleman episodes - where the train comes to North Fork for the first time, and a couple of Japanese samurai kick some cowboy butt! Too funny!

ELLIE i am going to bring it with me but for freal i have a huge pile of them in my T bag that i have not given her over time .it sux i wish i was not such a whimp. i think it is so awsome of those who accually give the letters to there T's. who knows maybe ill talk about why i dont.

i am glad you had a calm session .the las few i have had were calm .i think because she was going on vacation and didn't want anything big in the air. kind of glad about that .it gave me a bit of space to think about what is going on

got any plans for T tomorrow hank or are you a lets see what happens kind of girl

I hate stirring stuff up before T goes on vacation too so I'm glad that's given you some time to think about things. And its awesome that you even wrote the letter, and that you are taking it. And I think even talking about why you haven't given them is a big step. I always talk about doing something like this many times before I actually do it, and its all a helpful part of the process.