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(((lola))) I hate that you're going thru this. I feel so helpless and non-supportive. I just know nothing I say can make it better, and that sux. All I can tell you is hang on...and it gets better. That's not much help, I know.

((( HUGS )))

I wish things were better for you.

yet another mother comparison. We woke up to pouring rain. Kind of dark, cold and damp. When MIL woke up she came down and looked out the sliders and said, "God's watering our plants, isn't it kind that He's doing it today instead of on the weekend?" I had to call my mother this morning, her first words were "What a crappy day, I have had it with all the rain, my bones hurt and I am just so depressed."

Which mother would you rather have?

Wikid - this is just a thought I had when reading about the rain. Could you, or have you tried, looking at your own mother like your MIL would do, just to see how it felt to you? It sometimes seems, and this is just an idea and I know you have good reason for how you feel about your mother, that you respond to your mother like your mother does to rain, or the other stuff. I am not sure if it would work, but it might be worth a try.

Lash back...2 can play this game!

LC - what is going on?

Respond to a negative stimulus as if it were a positive stimulus? How do you think we survived this long? It's like weeds coming up thru the cracks in the sidewalk, pushing their way up. But it's nice to be growing up on a lush golf course.

It just makes you crazy after a while, when you have the nice possibility at hand. I didn't think anything of it either til I stayed at a gf's house and her mother put three meals on a SET table every day! She was our state's mother of the year for her volunteer work, but I would have given it to her for the placemats And fruitcups.

nothing is going on....same old same old.....i'm stuck in the movie groundhog day

Its cool y'all I'm just numb... Guns and roses comes to mind, "loaded like a freight train flying like an aeor plane one feeling like a space brain one more time tonight!" I appreciate y'all remember me and acknowledge me existence.

Lola... can you call your T you broke up with? just till you find something else?

I wish I could do this with my mom. I've tried before, but our relationship always seems to get back to her directly telling me all the ways I'm a sub-par human.

Lola - Sorry things are so hard right now. I'm not sure if you have already mentioned this, but have you found a place yet? Is there a way you could try to move out quicker? It has to be difficult to be in the same house having to hide out.

I have to get ready for t. I really feel like I'm in a bad place right now, but I don't even know how to express what is wrong.

no , my mentioning of seduction, has freaked him out

Hmmm.... I don't remember you mentioning this before...

So you told him about wanting to do that and it freaked him out?

I'm sorry things are so difficult right now for you, Lola, and that your T isn't available to help you through it. I believe things will get better, but I know that sometimes the light at the end of the tunnel looks like an oncoming train.

I'm starting to taper off the Zoloft. My pdoc is having me do it really, really slowly. I'm on 200 mg and she's having me drop to 150 for one day the first week, two days the second week and so on, until I'm on 150 all the time. Then, I'll do the same thing to drop to 100, eventually to 0, I hope. It'll take months to get off it completely, but at least this way, my T and I will be able to see if things are still okay as I drop the dose. If I end up needing to be on it for longer, at least I'll know what dose is the right one.

I stopped my final med last week... 80 mg prozac...

((( Lola )))

Please don't self-destruct. You are cared for here. And I think of you often.

Ended up falling asleep and just woke up about 20 minutes ago with a nap hangover. Blech. I hate that feeling of listlessness. My daughter just called from the school and left me a voicemail asking me to bring her cough medicine to school because she really needs it. I have no energy at all to do it, but I have to...actually, I think I'm going to just pick her up from school and bring her home.

I have a T session tomorrow at 9 AM that I really wanted to cancel but didn't. And now with my daughter not feeling well, I'd imagine she may be staying home tomorrow. So I might have to cancel anyway - but it leaves me responsible for paying the full fee. This sux.

LC - I think self destructing is not going to make you feel better nor will it teach anyone else a lesson. Taking care of yourself will be the best response both for you and whoever it is you are railing at.

no truer words have ever been spoken Lola. none of this is making you feel any better. and it is not helping you at all.

The best revenge is a life well lived.

I went ahead and added a trigger warning. I have come back to this several times and wanted you to know I am not ignoring you, and I feel for you deeply. I am more sorry than I can say. I just do not know what to say other than I'm sorry.

Thank you MKAC and everyone else who replied. This may be a weird thing to say but I've often heard others comment on it as well...that the children who are very ill often have the most amazing spirits. Now, I am not religious at all (and if I was I'd be doing some serious railing at someone) so I mean "spirit" in a non religious way. There is just this light within him and he is a joy to be around. He's the funniest, warmest, most loving little guy...anyway, sorry to be a downer on the couch. We are actually so very lucky as he has already been gifted with years more than the doctors ever imagined.

I wonder if these report cards are really such a good idea.