why is it like this nowadays

why does it seem like more years pass.. the more it becomes about the therapist, what happened to good old therapy where you go in talk, come out feeling like you released all your stress, therapist can handle it.. all is well.

why does it seem like now therapist are having more feelings towards there clients, i mean is it because training and all of that has changed, and making them believe it can happen.. i am starting to think its a way to get rid of a patient they don't want
i want therapy, i mean why is so hard, my therapist acted like she didn't even want to see me or therapy today, looking at me with no expressions. barley saying anything.. makes me not want to go back. what in the heck ... this makes a person feel badly. whatever i didn't do anything to her so..

mylifeheart, you know this is not about you right? This is about your t and how she conducts herself in the therapy room. She was not with it today, is she usually like this?
Please don't feel like this is your fault, you did nothing. Your t is supposed to be able to keep her feelings out of the room and hold a space for you. She is also supposed to treat you with respect and be interested in what you are saying, ts can have bad days too and it's a shame that these days affect their clients. I am sorry your t behaved like she did today x

I'd imagine it'd be an important thing to address with your T.

There have been times when I've felt similarly about T, and he will take ownership of it during times when he wasn't feeling well or whatnot. I told T today that I wasn't sure which T I was going to get - the frustrated, adamant, defensive T from 2 sessions ago or the caring and understanding T from last session. He admitted that some of his frustration came out because of how I was behaving towards him.

I sometimes have the mindset that he's the T, he's the one getting paid for it...and he sometimes has to remind me that he's human, has faults, bad days, etc. just like the rest of us.

But we've learned that we have been able to hold onto the strength and trust of the relationship that we built together to be able to work through things. In the thick of it though - again - difficult to grasp.

yeah I am tired of being thrown around because of there problems like I got disease or something

I am goin to write her a letter, I cannot express that to her face to face.. I have had unprofessional reltionships with therapist before and they say its not my fault.

I just get really wrapped in that I did something wrong, or I am to much for her.. but I didn't do anything, and I don't have no feelings for this one , I mean what goes on in therapy stays there... she is doing that thing where she makes me feel bad when I leave and there is nothing I can do.. its feels cruel to me.

Yeah I can understand what you're saying. That's what it was like with my first therapist. I was so attached but we weren't really working anymore cause I wouldn't talk and was so concerned about not not overloading him. It got all turned around.