Couch 52 - Are you being served?

Sweet...

Just got a text from C's mom asking if I wanted to pick him on Wednesdays in addition to Mondays because the Wed. girl has a conflict with her schedule. Yay! 2.5 more hours a week.

Just did some number crunching. I'll have to spend a little more for the extra gas (another tank full), but I will also be making more. Now...I am only 50 short of what I will need to survive this summer. And I will probably get that when I work with my dad on Friday (T and I talked through it and decided the money was worth any crap he gave me).

Yes, I am happy now.

I keep losing my posts!!! I think it's a sign...I've been pretty quiet for awhile and maybe I should stay that way. I just lost another one I was going to post here about self compassion and looking like the mother and wanting to beat the crap out of my "inner child", and it disappeared again. And I feel horrible today and I don't want to wrote it again...so just know, I feel the same way, and I have no ideas on how to change that, but if anyone figures it out let me know lol.

I have T in an hour and a half. It's going to be horrible...but hopefully it will help. I have been physically sick to my stomach constantly for weeks now because something that happened with my exH got triggered. I did a group a few years ago where I was supposed to "tell my story" about this particular thing, and it was a disaster. I left absolutely devastated and decided I would never ever ever talk about this again. But I think I am going to have to. I can't function feeling this sick all the time. So today, I'm supposed to go into T and tell her what happened. I hope I can do it without vomiting on her floor. Not sure at this point.

Sorry...I dont usually post whiney posts. And I just reread mine and it is whiney.

It's not whiny, Ellie. Not at all.

Good luck in T, EllieBear.

Also, what critterlady said.

No it isn't.

Thanks guys. I really need to get out of bed and go get ready. I'll come back and let you know how it goes. Hope you all have a good day!

20 seconds of courage EllieBear.. maybe you will feel a huge relief just getting it out there between you and T. I'll be thinking of you.

could you tell form the video it was actually me? LOL

8pm... may I go to bed soon? I got almost no sleep last night. And I have to get up in 12 hours' time to go to T. I don't know how I feel about tomorrow's T appointment. I was terrified before the last one and it went really well, so now I'm worried this one will go badly to make up for that. But mostly I feel numb. Not just about T, but in general. There's so much pain and hurting in the world, and I can't help even those people I love the most.

(((((Mast))))))

Question for critter lady: why do baby crows smell so damn awful? Is that normal? Gads...I can't wait until the tidal wave of baby birds ends! Icky!

ewwww....

speaking of smell, I bought that ear wax vacuum, as seen on TV..... guess what I'm doing tonight?

hi peeps .was working on my boys room when farther asked if i wanted to go to lunch. oh ya fee food . and now am going out again tonight to listen to the mariachi band again with friend Lil lets hope i am not so drunk as i was last time lol. but they do make the best fresh patron margaritas .

Repeat after me....

Glass o Water
Food
Margarita

repeat.....

maybe ill get that little granite drunk and maybe she will just kick back and enjoy the ride .

you are too funny girl

remember little Granite is a light weight.

and I am sorry to be a party pooper but (Granite) please be careful with alcohol and your blood sugar....sorry, just don't want anything bad to happen

Murray you are right, I forgot about her blood sugar... Granite have you checked it today?

Hi! 2 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL!!!

Goodnight....

((( EllieBear ))) - I hope you're able to get some much needed relief.

((( Mastodon ))) - Try to be kind to yourself!

Just got back from my assignment. I survived. Yippee! The client was a major handful towards the end of my assignment. I was supposed to work til 2 PM (started at 4 AM). They needed another interpreter to relieve me - and I told them the latest I could stay was 3:30 PM. They said the earliest one could arrive was 4 PM...so I agreed to 4 PM....She didn't arrive til around 4:15 PM. GRR. But, 12 hours of pay! AND I was asked to work there tomorrow 6 AM til Noon - I confirmed it - then it got cancelled cuz the patient is being transferred. But since it was a late cancellation, I get paid for the full 6 hours anyway!

I am utterly exhausted - but this week, I made about 80% of what I would've made if I was working full time. A decent pay week. Finally.

I really need to catch up on some zzzz's, but I gotta get my daughter to an event tonight and get this house cleaned up....2 more days to bust my butt on it.

EllieBear...if you are up to it...let us know how your session went...Been thinking about you.

Well, the niece finally got picked up. Long dang day. Long. I am shot. Thankfully, my car will be in for service most of the day tomorrow, so I get to stay home, no way I can go out. Of course I am working a rather complicated audit, so I will probably be doing that all day, but at least I can stay in my jammies.