Couch 54, Where Are You?

AGREED.

It would be most calamitous if we impeded your will to speak your mind.

And SD, I do appreciate you adding some perspective. I wouldn't want to treat someone poorly if they didn't do anything to me to deserve it - as long as I could protect myself and my child in the meantime.

THe ducks are in the shade outside my kitchen window...they are peeping sweet little young duck chirping quacks. Sadie is trying so hard to smell where the sound is coming from...it's a riot. Lex just perks her ears, sighs and lays back down. Sweet Lex wouldn't hurt a fly.

Aww, cute little ducks.

ok can i have ducks in my bathtub? PLEASE

Ugh. I JUST had my T on the phone to talk to him about a scheduling matter, and totally chickened out of talking to him about the stupid horrible panic thing yesterday, or about my anxiety about him thinking I'm just a weird insane person after the session this week. ****. Now if I call him back, I really DO look like a crazy person.

Okay. I am fine. I talked myself out of the panic thing yesterday, and the fact that I could not think clearly while panicking is normal, right? He does not think I'm weird. He already said that at the end of the session. I am fine. I am fine. Fine. fine. totally fine. sigh.

God...they are cute. So big though, I watched them go from hatchlings to this. Wild. They grow so damn fast. They run so damn fast too...you should have seen me trying to catch them to take them home. The Exec. Dir. and most of the ex-terns were laughing their heads off. Not helping me you see...laughing at me. lol.

OH...one extern is from Scandinavia...i wanted to tell Apt...but she's probably asleep. I'll tell her in the AM.

Goodnight all. It has been a good day, but I'm in a bit of pain after the bike excursion that H and I went on. We went for a picnic in a nearby nature reserve... about 25 minutes' bike ride either way and now I can neither sit nor stand. The picnic was really pleasant, though. We sat on a warm, shady slope and ate and read and just relaxed for a couple of hours.
T has suggested physiotherapy for my chronic back pain. Yeah, like I am going to let anybody look at my body and judge me for not taking better care of it. That being said, it would be nice to be able to do these everyday things like making short bike trips without being punished for it.

I miss my T

((( MKAC )))

You're ok. Really. I understand your frustration, though. Resistance is such a difficult thing to deal with.

I'm here! Not sleeping! It's only 11pm! Tell me

(((MKAC))) you are fine, and of course he doesn't think you are weird. Seriously, you cannot be the strangest person he's ever met anyways. (I know that to be FACT, because I have met a lot of people and you don't even register in the top threshold for strange)

My aunt's roommate in college had several baby ducks in her bathtub. Cutest things ever, but MAN did they poop a lot! My cousin also has ducks and chickens in her backyard. They were super adorable when they were tiny - but they grew way too fast. I still wanna love on them though. They just don't let me. LOL.

Ah your still up, Apt...she's a gorgeous young girl from Norway, who speaks English quite well. Except she uses the word RARE for Raw, which was a bit funny at rounds. (put rare eggs in the food...what kind of eggs? What constitutes rare? Oh, uncooked...I see)
She put us all in our place when she informed us that English was a strange language. Very cute, and we enjoyed a good laugh.

She graduated from Veterinary School out there, and is with us for 8 weeks.

I thought you already knew!

Hey Apt...I honestly want to fix her up with my son, I liked her that much, and he loves foreign women. (and Norwegian Wood is his favorite song. lol)
I know she isn't interested in our strange young men though.

Under law, you can't be punished for being a criminal, only for committing a crime.

Yeah, as CE said, you can be punished for what you do, not what you WILL do, or who you are.

English IS a strange language! So many inconsistencies in the grammar and sound system and idioms... you can tell her from me that she's right

What if we gave them injections that dyed their skin green? Then teach our kids that people with green skin are dangerous? I need to run for president
(Just the LEVEL OMGTPID offenders)

One can never be free from pain. When you banish big pains, you become more sensitive to small ones.

A small leak in the laundry is making me really upset. It's on a weekend and I can't get a plumber for two whole days! Arrrrrrgh!

So true, CE, that pain is inevitable. I'm wondering if the goal is to learn how to better tolerate pain...and if the smaller things are getting to us, that maybe we are not addressing something important that causes the effect of smaller things to be amplified.

Had a lot of alone time today. Not sure if that's good or bad. I think it was good, but I know that my alone time tends to be spent allowing myself to feel down. Just finished making fresh salsa and spinach dip for a get-together tomorrow with a friend and her family for her stepmom's bday after we spend a few hours at a zoo with them.

Heading out to pick up my daughter soon and will get to meet my sister's new puppy....they got a new dog a few weeks ago who I met last weekend and then they just got another puppy the other day. Can't wait to meet him, although I'm a bit anxious because it's the same breed as the one they had to put down a month or so ago.

Currently sitting waiting for graduation to start at our school.. Talked about some heavy stuff with t today... Feeling yucky about myself! I am trying not to take it out on myself!

I made a quinoa salad for dinner. Wikid and stopdog would be proud. Fresh cucumbers, tomatoes, onions and garlic chives out of my friend's garden.