my therapist hates me

This is only a test. I want to check if my new name works before I post anything else.

Yep it works I hope the subject of the post is a test too, as that is a horrible feeling to have. TC!

Hi sky, unfortunately it does not work yet, so I cannot say anything else now, but it is kind of true. He said something extremely hurtful to me (it is not the first time, but it is the worst). If he does not hate me, he does not like me! I gave up everything after what he told me yesterday. He does enjoy to see me hurt.

Hmmm well, if that's true, then you need to have a heart to heart talk with him about it, and if you don't get the support and explanation you need, find another. I would indeed air it out with him first, he deserves that much, imo...and so do you! If it's something he uses to get someplace in your therapy, you wouldn't want to abandon the whole experience and all would you? But if it irks you that much, then yes, discuss it with him for sure!!! TC

Yep it works, but ha ha ha that would be interesting, I mean you pay them sometimes 3 hundred dollars to talk for 40 min.!

This is what he told me a couple days ago.
I quote my therapist almost exactly; "You do have something that makes people to feel uncomfortable in your presence. I do not blame you. It is not your fault. It is like children who were born disfigured and everyone avoids them, even their parents cannot deal with them and avoid them or get divorced. It is not the child's fault that was born disfigured, but it is not the people's fault that they avoid them either. That happens because the human capacity for dealing with children and issues like that is limited; it is natural for people to react that way."
Maybe hate is a hard word, but he definitely does not like me. It is not the first time he says something hurtful.

He just does not like me.

OK, I'm sorry that you feel hated and are hurt by what he said...however I don't see the hate in that. In fact, I see a T trying to help you realize that what you are struggling with (your DX?) is evident in your life, but isn't your fault. That's rather good to hear, imo... it's a good place to start (over) if you need a spot.

Sometimes hearing the truth is difficult. But if we are strong and accept the opinion of an objective caring voice, we can begin to heal.

I know that after my injury all the bad sides to me which I had worked on and conquered over the years, returned. (From the anger? The pain? The PTSD? I don't know.) I had to realize the effect it had on my life and how other ppl reacted to what I was going through...before I could seek out solutions to noticing when I was overreacting, and then counter it before I offended someone.

Please do share with your T how you feel T hates you... and in the future if he says something that hurts you...tell him right then. Say something like, that makes me feel bad, or ouch... that made me feel like you hate me. Then let the T help you work through it. It will also help the T learn how to say things so you are able to really hear what he's trying to help you with.

OK? ((((hugs))) Therapy is not easy. It's hard work and you are wonderful for trying to heal!

Sky thank you, but what DX stands for?
I hope you are right, but I cannot see it that way.
I see that he thinks it is not my fault that I am that bad that people need to avoid me. I was born that way -- according to him -- so it is not my fault, but it is true that I am bad and I have something wrong in me that people cannot feel comfortable to like me. I am so deeply hurt. I do have PTSD, Dissociation (not DID), depersonalization, depression, chronic pain.

Hi hurt,

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. But from reading what your T said, I don't get the impression that he set out to hurt you or that he hates / dislikes you. I think he was trying to help. It seemed rather like an objective appraisal...

But as you were clearly hurt by this, the best would be to tell him face to face how you felt. And hopefully sort this out.

DX = diagnosis (what ails your mind)

We pay the T to have an objective viewpoint, to meet us where WE ARE and to guide us to where WE WANT and NEED to be.