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I'm so sorry, MUE. That sounds so disappointing.

O.m.g. tell me they didn't use those words. The wrath of the couch will be visited upon them to teach them some manners. Omg. Maybe they saw my stupid post. I am so sorry, either way. Still in comedy business you dont want to try too much more than you can do. And you still learned from it and got experience.

Sorry MUE ... That sux.

Where the hell is granite? Chickie! Did that kitty get her?

Ready...you really have to flood your body with the juice.
MUE ... Fresh juice doesn't give me heartburn, but bottled stuff kills me.

Healed...NOV 1...get your produce in order! Lol glad to have you on board!

Thanks, couch peeps. I am disappointed, in a very deep and profound way. I took the risk - put a plan in place to ensure success, built up my confidence - and then was squashed like a bug.

And yes, Hankster, they really did say that.

I am trying to get over it....but I'm struggling. It's like it touched on one of my core issues, and I'm devastated. It'll pass.

In the meantime, though, I am angry. Angry at the agency's "methods" - yet they have me by the nads, so to speak, cuz they're my only source of income at the moment. It helps me see that I need to put a game plan together so that I'm not so dependent on just that one agency.

AND, it teaches me not to get my hopes too high with them....because they've taught me on more than one occasion that they can sweep the rug out from under me at any given time.

Autumn sunset on my deck. Looks like all of my ducks are in a row.

Wow, Wiki....that's an awesome pic - looks like a postcard! What a great view!

Wiki You always know JUST the right thing to say. Thanks.

MUE was that assignment interpreting before an audience? How do they know you aren't qualified? Have done a practice run with you? How are you supposed to get experience with these things if you don't do them.

Peeks in.....

Hey sconnie long time...

Hi Bipolarartist

What's up or down or whatever the kids say these days? Still got that boyfriend? One day I will ahve a real life I hope.

Thanks, BPA. Yes, it was before a very large audience for someone quite famous. I can understand their desire to want to give the assignment to the person who is most qualified. But then they shouldn't have offered it to me - or, at the very least, they could have presented it in a way where they were choosing amongst a group of people....instead, they offered it directly to me, I accepted it, and then they took it away from me.

I don't think they should have offered if they had any doubts but still think they should hav at least given you a dry run with a practice audience to see if you were cappable. Which I am sure you are. More qualified doesn't meann better.

Still got the boyfriend

Today was my last appointment with my t. Feeling very mixed right now. I keep thinking "Oh, I'll tell that to t...." and then I remember I don't have any more appointments scheduled. And I feel like a jerk for not even giving her a card. I wonder if I can send one to her office?

Going to go clean my basement for a while now and be back later when Castle comes on TV

I feel really bad but on another thread I had a great laugh as the English grammar makes perfect sense (once I interpreted it properly) but i'm a bit tired and when read in German it makes a funny sentence.

It must be hard to get to the last session and realise that's it. But it is liberating at the same time to realise you can swim by yourself?

My T and I were talking about boundaries with my daughters. I was saying how because I had an very emotional and physically intrusive mother i wasn't sure whether I was overstepping the boundaries with my daughter. He said imagine I'm in paddock on a sheep station and trying to locate the boundary fence. With my daughter apparently i would have to walk 7 kilometres and I still would be at least 2 kilometres from the boundary. Apparently she will let me know when I am getting too close or crossing them. I have been so afraid of crossing boundaries that I stay so far away from them people think I'm a bit distant and uncaring. This so far from the truth.
I can see my daughters and I am walking towards them and trusting I will read the signs on the way.

Sconnie!!!! I don't think I've seen you since before I left! Nice to see ya!

MUE...Im So sorry that happened and it went down the way it did. I'd like to call them and give them a piece of my mind for the what they said to you. Sounds like they need to work on people skills.

If you are over 45 years old now...how old would you have been when you would have known what this phrase "bedroom eyes" meant? I used age limit because i think its not used often in recent years....

Ready I was probably just pre-teen maybe 10 years old. Is this a comparison thing? Like i was told I was a "floosy" when i was eight.. I don't think most pre=teens back then would understand exactly what it meant. I'm trying to say something here with out being triggering but its not working. But I think I know what you are getting at.

Aww, thanks, Jersey.....Yeah, lessons learned. Sad that it reinforces the old lessons that I've been trying to unlearn - don't trust, don't get your hopes up, because at any moment, someone will come by and crush you. I'm trying to resist re-absorbing the messages. Inner critic is so rough. *sigh*

It was really hard. Didn't really hit me until an hour after I left. T assured me I was ready to go. But I do feel good about how far I've come.