[QuietCat]

I'm angry. Three years I've been in T.
If CBT is essentially just "face your fears so you can see they aren't worth being afraid of" why do I spend money paying T to tell me this? I feel like I need to quit T, but if I quit I have no hope of ever improving. But it's been three years!

[Ganymede00]

I just got back from a first appointment with a therapist and now feel super self conscious.

[penguinh]

Originally Posted by QuietCat

I'm angry. Three years I've been in T.
If CBT is essentially just "face your fears so you can see they aren't worth being afraid of" why do I spend money paying T to tell me this? I feel like I need to quit T, but if I quit I have no hope of ever improving. But it's been three years!

Do you know why it's taking you so long? Apparently CBT is supposed to be time limited and seen as a 'quick fix'. I've learned from my experiences so far that it's really on you to change. The therapist isn't going to spoon feed you everything and you really have to put in the efforts to change. If it's the therapist that's the problem maybe look into switching to a new one?

Originally Posted by Ganymede00

I just got back from a first appointment with a therapist and now feel super self conscious.

Don't worry, that's exactly how I felt my first time with my current therapist too! It will pass and I hope you feel better!

[RTerroni]

Frustrated at my family right now because they are not paying any attention to me.

[0w6c379]

[Freewilled]

So horrible. Why does it always seem to come down to this: who I am is not like anyone else. I am alone. I put myself out there and people look at me like I'm a joke - a nothing. Just weird. At least I can say that everything I did was from the heart. Even if I get spit on in return....And just looked at like I'm crazy by the rest.

I'm not crazy though. This I know. There's nothing wrong with caring about people and giving it your all. They are the crazy ones.

[Lamplighter]

Feeling the post-Christmas come down. Depressed, lonely, black - and I know that all the activity of pre Christmas was superficial anyway, a big distraction from what's always going on underground all the time. Now it catches up with me big time

[HealingTimes]

I am reading this thread and thinking that i can relate so much..i want us all to have a group hug. It's Ok though, i know some people don't 'do' hugs.

[Arha]

Originally Posted by QuietCat

I'm angry. Three years I've been in T.
If CBT is essentially just "face your fears so you can see they aren't worth being afraid of" why do I spend money paying T to tell me this? I feel like I need to quit T, but if I quit I have no hope of ever improving. But it's been three years!

If CBT is only helping in a limited way, if at all, then given you are obviously prepared to commit to long term therapy, perhaps some psychoanalytic or similar therapy would be a good idea, to deal with underlying things that CBT doesn't?

[RTerroni]

Counting down the days until I return to Therapy- 10 days until my intake

[always_wondering]

I'm feeling quite confident today. Doing a lot of research on my issues (mainly transference and PTSD) and learning so much! It really is amazing what a mother can do to a child and have no clue the lasting effects. Really hoping I can get even more confident so I can say ADIOS to my T with confidence. That's the bummer in all of this, having to let go to a relationship I love and enjoy so much. Or do I have to let go? Ugh!

I didnt sleep well last night. I am anxious about some financial stresses that are going on right now....but mostly I've been thinking about my last session with my T and his question of what is it going to take to say "i've been abused"... I have a lot of gaps in my memories so I've been trying to place the memories I do have in time by googling when TV shows were on the air and when certain fashions were in style... Its just going round and round in my brain... I will miss my session on Monday cause T is on vacation so its a lot of time to wait to have some way to process all of this.

[Patagonia]

I have to travel to a family function that'll b full of triggers & I feel fragile already. I won't have any of my usual grounding things there (like my bed) & feel lost & frightened. I can't fall apart in front of my kids.
I've shared a tiny bit w/ my oldest sister & can see her taking that info, using it against me & having some type of intervention w/ all my sibs "for my own good...bec we wanto help..."
I will leave forever if that happens. I have no issue then of cutting them all off. They just don't understand anything. Hopefully they all leave me alone, let me fake my way thru it & safely get home again...where it's safe.

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[herethennow]

:/ somehow, I feel different. I don't miss my T; I'm neutral about it.

Otherwise, for the first time in weeks.. I'm sleepy.

[Patagonia]

Definitely not feeling like myself

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Sick as a dog since Christmas Day. Pretty miserable actually.

[~EnlightenMe~]

depressed.

[omofca]

Depressed. Antisocial.

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[healingme4me]

Signs, signs, everywhere there's signs. Or intentional messages....
May be closing a chapter, in my life, first half of this year.

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[omofca]

I'm feeling pretty drunk. Haha.

[growlycat]

Emotionally depleted. I feel like I give and give with my family but they are kind of selfish on the whole. There is a reason I live on the other side of the country!

[neutrino]

You know those moments when you're sitting down, staring out the window and perhaps appearing quite calm while feeling like it's complete and utter chaos on the inside (the sort of chaos that is crippling/paralysing and makes you feel like you don't really know what you're feeling or what to do)? Well, I'm having one of those moments right now.

[DelusionsDaily]

I am doing pretty good. Been pretty much headlong into therapy, mostly DBT, the last almost 2 months. I am dreading T's 4 week maternity leave as it could happen any time now in the next week and a half or so. I don't anticipate any problems. I should be ok while she is gone. I will have my DBT group during that time. So that will help.

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[RTerroni]

Tired since I didn't get to sleep until real late last night.

[BadWolf]

Sad and anxious. What else is new