[ShrinkPatient]

Feeling overwhelmed by separation anxiety from my vacationing T!!!! My adult self says I don't need this "extra crap" and maybe I should use this separation to pull back a bit. Maybe I should take a longer therapy break then missing 4 appointments. My child self says maybe she won't come back. Maybe she'll decide she needs a longer break or that she doesn't want to be my T anymore.

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It has been a hard few days for my husband. Sunday he blacked out and fell twice. He said his pain was so severe that he was blacking out. Today he went to his pain specialist to get his morphine pump adjusted. They did x-rays and discovered he has 26 stress fractures in his right leg below the knee and into the foot. That would explain it. This has happened before, but it has been quite a few years since it was this severe.

Otherwise I'm okay. Had a rehearsal at church after school for a solo I'm singing in a couple of weeks. My son had marching practice in the rain after school. Came home a drowned rat despite that they used their rain panchos. The rain is nice, but it makes marching a bit of a challenge.

[growlycat]

Feeling unmotivated...I should just go...to...the...gym.....ugh....bed...is....calling.....meeeeeeeeeeeee

[Lamplighter]

Feeling anxious, about to head off to have an ultrasound and needle biopsy on my thyroid, it's way too early in the morning for me and I've just about had enough of tests hospitals and incompetent consultants. Bleh

[growlycat]

...."like the smallest doll in a Babushka doll..."

[Lamplighter]

Drunk...

[beth0226]

I'm feeling anxious and a little angry (selfishly). My T was on vacation for the last 3 weeks and I was finally supposed to see her yesterday, but she called in sick. Now I have to wait until Monday to talk to her- I'm frustrated.

[healingme4me]

ready for a good 50min-1hr session of talk therapy. soon..

Can't tell if I feel sick from drinking (3 Kopparbergs), hungry (I didn't eat much today), or if it is anxiety. I'm telling myself it's the anxiety, and that I'll be okay... Shhh, calm... think non sicky thoughts.... Staying at my friend's house after a night out and I had a good time and felt fine, so it's frustrating to now be lying awake at 5am feeling like this. Why couldn't I just drift happily off to sleep? Have listened to a hypnotic induction to try and relax me and send me off into the land of nod - twice over - but it hasn't worked. Bleurgh. Third time's a charm?

[rainbow8]

I'm still feeling good from last session when I gave T her birthday card and she got up to hug me! I'll never forget that! I'm thinking about her a lot, but I'm also busy with my RL and making plans with people. I think my feelings for my T are starting to carry over to RL!

[HealingTimes]

I am feeling pretty good :-)
Haven't seen my T for 2 weeks and am coping fine.

[tealBumblebee]

{Post Session Check In}

Great session today. She called it powerful, i'd call it open & honest. T is an absolutely amazing person that I am so grateful to have met. Today was also the first time that I showed her one of my (old) sh areas/scars - that was a big step and we had a good open and honest conversation about it. We're making some progress people; we're making some progress.

Hanging in there. Actually, I'm fine. It's just dealing with my husband that gets trying. Trying to stay patient and supportive, but it can be a challenge.

Had a nice weekend. Went to one son's choir concert, another son's marching contest. Both were excellent.

Had an absolutely marvelous church service Sunday with the Finnish Lutheran congregation that meets in our church whenever their Finnish pastor comes to town. We sang in Finnish and the pastor, who is an noted Lutheran theologian gave a marvelously educational and insightful sermon. Their pianist happens to be the great (maybe great-great) granddaughter of Sebalius and she played several of his pieces. What a treat! She is a fantastic, classically trained, concert pianist. I was in heaven.

[rainbow8]

Triggered. Sad. Pathetic. Hopeless. Jealous. In love with T. Stupid feelings just because I saw her new FB page. Other than that, life is good.

Sorry rainbow...

This Facebook issue is likely to come up here more often over the coming months - I believe a lot of Ts probably hide their page from search results, but Facebook are actually in the process of phasing that option out... So, any Ts getting searched after having claimed they're not on there may get caught in a lie if their timeline shows they've been on there all along... or maybe they will choose to deactivate their accounts.

I think Ts should probably endeavor to make sure their privacy settings are adequate, and - in this age - perhaps be more aware and up front with clients about social media and their policy on it.

Probably best, tempting as it may be, just not to go there. Not sure any good ever comes of searching these sites or Googling T.


I'm not feeling too great. Struggling on an emotional level and being exhausted with it.

[blur]

Weary as now I have both computer & electrical problems to deal with. It's been a string of these sorts of issues lately that tend to stop everything.

[healingme4me]

Feeling pretty good, after today's session. It sometimes, takes me a good 24-48 hours to fully process the session, but came away, feeling as motivated, as I went in there, as.

My therapist, noticed, that I seem, a lot more relaxed, content, and wondered if it was because of the desire to move, the relationship, or a combination of everything. I mentioned, that it helps not dealing with the exes stuff, on a daily basis.

Though, lets' not forget, with all the garbage I am dealing with, I am, after all, a woman, in love.

[DelusionsDaily]

Raging, hurt, and vengeful with/by T.

[growlycat]

Better...finally did my homework. Will try to follow cbt t's regimen of sleep/wake/exercise/eating better/taking meds/work-life balance. Let's see if I can keep it up for a week.

[Nightlight]

Not great.

My therapist has been the first person I've ever felt attached to. Before meeting her, I really had no concept of asking for help, gaining emotional support, or forming real connections with other people. I'd lived most of my life happy on the outside, but I was really, really struggling to get through almost every single day, from as far back as I can remember.

Four years ago I made a small handmade gift for my therapist. I didn't give it to her because I wasn't sure it was appropriate. So really, I made it for her without the intention of actually giving it to her. A year ago, completely unexpectedly, my therapist started expressing how angry and frustrated she was with me. Some of the things she said and the way she spoke hurt me quite badly. She kept tightening up the boundaries as well and I found that quite tough as I've always been extremely respectful of the boundaries. The small handmade gift came along with me to most of the worst sessions because I was certain it was the end, and I wanted to leave something small behind.

About a month ago, almost a whole year after things first started to go badly, I handed over the small handmade gift. We'd survived a really, really rough patch and I really finally understood—we could make it through anything. She really did mean that she'd be there as long as I needed her. Unless something really bad unexpectedly happened to her (I told her that wasn't allowed to happen), we wouldn't end until I was ready. I finally understood and I gave her the small handmade gift and told her the story behind it. It no longer had to be something I brought along to my sessions each time I was afraid we had reached the end before I was ready. She didn't accept it immediately, she told me she would consider it. That was quite hard on me. It was really small and I'd held onto it for years.

My therapist said something during my last session and I realised my next appointment would probably be my last. I'm not absolutely certain, but I think tomorrow will most likely be the last time I see her. I'm not ready, but it's happening. I wish I hadn't been right all these years, so fearful of being left. I wish my therapist had been right. She was always so sure that the end would be okay, that it just wasn't something I could understand yet because I wasn't ready, but when I was ready it really would be okay.

I will survive it, but it's really not okay.

[Lamplighter]

I couldn't read your post Nightlight without wanting to respond in some way - inadequate as a cyber hug might be, that's all I can offer right now. What you're describing is heartbreaking and I'm so very sorry .

You probably will survive it, I hope so anyway, but you're so right, it really is not ok

((((((((((( Nightlight )))))))))))

I'm tired tonight and the next week and a half is going to be even more exhausting. Next week is the first chorus concert series for the season, so I'll be down at the concert hall every evening starting Monday and going through Sunday Nov. 3. It will be tiring, but so very exciting at the same time.

In the middle of that, my son will be traveling to San Antonio for a major marching competition. Hopefully my husband can handle getting him ready for the trip without me.

This has been a special week for my parents. They celebrated their 61st wedding anniversary, and Dad turned 83. We are so blessed that they are both still in remarkable health at this point. Very special people.

My husband has been falling quite a bit since his right leg has 26 fractures and there just isn't enough strength or support there right now. Getting him up is a challenge as he is a pretty big guy and can't do much to help us lift him. I'm feeling sore from using muscles that just normally don't get used. I try to be careful about how I lift him, but sometimes he is in such an awkward position or place that it is a strain.

[Blue_Bird]

Wish I wasn't sick so I didn't have to cancel my appointment, really need to see my T

The week is almost over. I both love and hate exam weeks. They are pretty boring, but boring can be a good thing I guess. This one has just gone on FOREVER.

Had three students come to me today and ask me to sponsor a Quidditch club for our high school. This should be interesting. I think my reputation for being a Harry Potter nerd is catching up with me.

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