Pretty content and mellowed out right now. Resting up from getting chemo yesterday.

[Patagonia]

Agitated about upcoming T session tomorrow. If I hear another d@m word about "safety contract" I'm going to get up & leave. I don't need this constant nagging! 90% sure that's where the conversation will start....& i'll end it.

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[RTerroni]

Originally Posted by Mastodon

I have a thangover.

I hear ya, I get them sometimes

[pmbm]

Had therapy today. Worked on a difficult memory.it was so hard and I was so tired I had to take.a nap in the car before I could drive home. I haven't felt well for the rest.of the day,and finally figured out that this memory triggered lots of my parts. going to sleep soon. Hopefully tomorrow will be a little better.

[RTerroni]

Originally Posted by Rzay4

Anxious about family therapy.

I hear ya, I had some real bad experiances with Family Therapy before but hopefully you'll be OK.

[growlycat]

craving ginger tea.

[healingme4me]

Man oh man, have I got stuff to talk about. Glad, it's two days away.

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[Lamplighter]

Originally Posted by Mastodon

I have a thangover.

Snap! (only it's a day later).

I seem to have gotten into the habit of going to the pub for a drink or two in the evening after therapy, and I really really really should not drink anymore, two drinks and I get uber merry and then end up with a vile hangover

At least the session went well, that's three in a row, some kind of record

[pmbm]

I am struggling today. Parts of me are triggered by the memory I worked on yesterday in therapy. I have been feeling physically awful today. I left a message for my therapist and she called me back and told me that all of the things I have tried today to help myself...listening to music, swimming, going for a walk, sucking on Altoids, writing were all of the things she would have told me to do. She also said that I cannot expect total relief, just minutes here and there, and that she would call me to come in for an extra appointment if she gets a cancellation. I'm pretty proud that I was doing the things she would have recommended. My day got a little better when my friend, also my priest, dropped by unexpectedly for a visit.

[Patagonia]

Both my DD told me I yell too much & that it would be better if I left.....for good

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[healingme4me]

Does meeting with a Psychologist, next week, as an initial intake for my children, count as a third T?( if we count pdoc as a T?)

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[Patagonia]

Healingme4me,
I'm w/ you except we're @ 4 T's. Ugh!

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[growlycat]

feeling ok. Getting amped up for my trip cross country home 4 the holidays.

[healingme4me]

Ready, sort of, for todays session.

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[Patagonia]

I need to turn my brain off today. I'm thinking too much. So I'm going to throw myself into housecleaning. Poor little one has to watch. I'm not a very entertaining mother today

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[neutrino]

Not great. I think my relationship with my boyfriend is falling apart due to my mental illness (and because of my introversion). We had a very serious conversation a few minutes ago and I don't even know what to do right now. What am I supposed to do with all these thoughts and emotions I'm experiencing right now?! I didn't choose this disease. I didn't wake up one morning, all those years ago, feeling like I wanted to become mentally ill. **** this ****. What kind of life is this anyway? **** all of it.

[Bluenosette]

Great thread.

I don't know what I am feeling right now. I have always been numb, and never had to deal with feelings. After intense therapy over last weekend something got stirred up. Not sure what it is, or how to deal with it. I just know I don't like it!

[~EnlightenMe~]

Unsettled, miserable, just overwhelmed.

[healingme4me]

Had a good session, today. One last appointment, before, the new year. Ended up, bouncing how I'm feeling, he brought it up, too. Productive session.

Had to chuckle, er, um, more like agree, to the point of my neuro being a good looking man.
Seems, some wish they had him, for their dr. i said, yeah, I've been with him for years.
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[healingme4me]

Oh gosh, while we were at it, in therapy, it was also agreed upon, my neuro is very, very intelligent!!!

Shout out to my neuro, today

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We're covered in 3-4 inches of ice this morning. Nothing like the weather in Texas: air conditioner a day or so ago; heater today. No school, so we're just going to hang and eat brownies and maybe start decorating for Christmas later.

I saw my pdoc Wednesday and he moved around one of my meds to see if we can get the digestive symptoms to be more tolerable. Otherwise he left things the same. I'm still not great, but I'm not in danger either. Just kind of miserably depressed now.

Had to miss dress rehearsal last night and will miss performance tonight. Can't get there on the ice. Hopefully the roads will be safe for the matinee on Sunday.

[Aloneandafraid]

Can't stop thinking about T. Want to be with her. Wondering what it would be like to be in her home, just chatting/doing normal things. Wish I could see her in RL and get to know her as a person, not my T as I know nothing about her. Feel sad as I am just her work. Feel abandoned by everyone. My friends are fed up with me. My H can't look at me. He despises me. I don't really know how I feel but I don't link it.

[healingme4me]

I am thankful my t, brought up, a topic, that I wasn't sure, I'd get to talk about, by virtue of so many other things. And in, doing so, I was able to bounce what I was feeling off of him.

Which, T?! Guess what?! I brought it up!! It was 'vulnerable' for me, yet, met with, 'I agree'. And a few other words. I didn't even bring it up, the way I brought it up, in therapy. Not even close, to how I presented it, yet, the underlying topic was addressed.

I didn't table the topic. Which, is a good thing. No tears, no whining, either, which was certainly not how I brought it up, in session.

"I don't want you to one moment say, 'whoa, this isn't what I signed up for.'"
..."baby, I think it's going to be ok...." ((in agreement, that what I addressed, does, indeed need to happen, in that rough ballpark, frame of time, by virtue of all that is going on))

[~EnlightenMe~]

depressed, depressed, and more depressed. I slept all day. I am angry that this is the way I am. I am sad, nothing is enjoyable, although I am trying.

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