It's complicated..

It's okay, it happens. At least you know now and you are talking to professionals. I'm so proud of you for being completely honest.

Hmm, sounds like a tricky situation indeed. . .
If it were me, I'd maybe keep everything underwraps for now to get the Adderall for ADHD and then once that was undercontrol, start treading lightly in opening up about the rest . . .

Good job on the honesty!

That would be quite a shock to figure out that someone actually isn't real. I remember you posting about her - I'm pretty sure I told you to talk to an actual psychiatrist and not to judge things based on your friend!

I'd tell your T that you haven't been able to figure out any more indications that she's a real person.

And hey, at least you were trying to help yourself out, right?

I would be very, very skeptical of a friend who felt so at ease diagnosing her friends. That's both bad medicine and bad friendship IMHO. Also, a psychiatrist is an MD (a psychologist is a PhD--although I guess you could have both.)

It sounds like you need to sit down with a good practitioner and spend a long time discussing your history including your propensity to abuse drugs/prescription meds. You need someone who won't be played (otherwise you will play them and be no further ahead) and really that's probably someone with skills/specialization in addiction. It may be that the best path to your wellness isn't a pharmacological one.

I have no addictions at all. I have enough problems. I think I will let my lady friend rest a bit until I get evaluated for ADHD.

Not saying that you do. But the impulse not to fully disclose all the substances you use plus your special fondness for using street drugs (or prescription drugs in a way other than how they were prescribed) suggests to me that the expertise of someone who gets addiction could be very helpful.

where are you getting all this from? What street drugs?

From your OP:

"I do like to drink alcohol and never plan on stopping. I will also use opiates for recreational purposes when available, but never benzos. The reason never benzos? Because they do not provide a euphoria and is a waste of time to abuse them. I have severe mood swings, anger issues, and drive recklessly."

I don't know where you get your opiates, which ones you use and by what route but if you're using them recreationally does it really matter where you buy them?

ok, so I like come across opiates may be once or twice every other year. I've never gone out of my way looking for any. Also, I've never bought any opiates ever! Some one I know will let me have a few. Usually vicodin and once in a blue moon some oxycons. Yea what a big time drug abuser I am lol.

The only addition I ever had was for nicotine. I don't have a addicting personality at all. Just saying. But I do like to drink

Man I wish I had some vodka now. Just came back from my T. He's pretty cool and all no issues with him. I was expecting to talk about my ADHD and instead all he wanted to talk about was my past. I asked what about my adhd? Oh I finished my report, I think you have adhd now it's up to the pdoc to decide what meds. I said but isn't there a test? He said there are tests but he can tell just by talking to him because I zone out a lot. And then back to the past we went. I hate talking about my past. He asked me some more recent stuff too like how I been doing. I said great! Wasn't lying. He asked when was the last time I heard voices, I said I dunno, may be a month. I lied a little there, prolly closer to 2 weeks. Visuals? I can't remember when. He did NOT bring up my "friend" and I was glad. I asked him where he's going here. He said no worries he was just trying to determine if I may possibly be schizoaffective with bipolar. I said I don't want another label. He said no no no, there will be no additional label, it takes a long time to determine schizoaffective any way and besides he assured me I was highly functional so it won't matter and besides the treatment and meds are the same any way. SO like 3/4 of our hour was spent on him questioning me about what kind of delusions I had, last time, about and trama as a child, thank god the time went by fast but he wants to continue in 3 weeks where we left off!

I asked again what about the adhd, he said don't worry about it, the pdoc will come up with a treatment and med right for you. Let's concentrate on some other areas in the mean time.

So I don't know what to make of all that. If I tell him too much I might regret it. I'm starting to think I need to back off being totally honest. I don't care if I'm schizoaffective and or bipolar. I just wanted to get treated for adhd. Already I'm on a new freaking med seroquel. I dunno. I feel uneasy about all this.