COME GET YOUR KiICKS ON COUCH 66!

Hankster... It's not what you leave behind that matters... Its that you are that matters...

Ugh. I've been fighting this burning pain between my shoulder blades for days now...Ive
been watching my posture and doing barrell hugs but nothing seems to help.

So for those of us who celebrate....what are you doing for Thanksgiving?

Playing with my new laptop.. got one with windows 8, very annoying.. But luckily I figured out pretty quickly how to go back to the regular desktop windows that we all know and love! Woot, woot for finally being able to type on a real keyboard and not on my ipad or iphone!

Having the worst Saturday ever. Feeling so alone and depressed with the situation. I know I need to do something but I don't know what to do. I will break the family apart. I want to end this pain.

(((hugs)) to you.. We are here if you would like to talk with us!

I Googled "barrel hug". There is a kid's drink called Little Hug that comes in plastic barrels. Really!

Ugh.. I am being a chicken about posting a new thread about dual relationships with Ts.. I have touched on it a bit here, but think I will get a broader response if I start a completely new thread.

I can understand your hesitancy....some will take it to extremes... Like tell you to get a new job,etc... As long as you are sure you can let some things work for you and let other things go... Then go for it

I am just going to post about it here because really.. it is a concern not a question. I mentioned that 2 weeks ago, T brought up the fact that we have in his words "kind of a dual relationship." and he wanted me to know that we can talk about it, if I am ok with it. I said yes, I am fine.. BUT- I have always had this fear that T will just up and terminate me out of nowhere, which I am sure a lot of us have worried about on and off. And also the fear that, I will do something that will make him drop me. I know at the time I could not point to anything in specific that makes me feel this way. However, as I have been thinking about mine and T's relationship.. I can see, that my fear that he will terminate me out of the blue, or that I will do something that will ruin our relationship, probably stems from the interweaving of our lives when it comes to my work/and his kids being there.

I thought about it in these terms.. I am helping with coaching the girls b-ball team. T's daughter could have easily signed up for the team, and put me with interacting with her a couple of days of week, and probably interacting with T and his wife more as well. Now, this scenario could play out in any number of ways as our school is small, and I often volunteer in many different areas in the school. I suppose I worry that at some point, it will over step a line and T will decide that we can't work like this and I would be referred else where. Idk.. it is hard for me to tell if I am blowing it all out of proportion or if there is some legitimate concern.

I know, I know... Probably a think T should really talk about. Won't see T next week b/c of the holiday.. Hopefully, I will be able to bring it to him next appointment.

Can you talk about these fears? To T, I mean.

Hopefully I can. For some reason, I have a hard time bringing anything up concerning our T client relationship.

Healed....maybe you and T could talk about.. "What if".... You name different scenarios... And he could tell you whether they would be a problem for him and you could say if it would be a problem for you...

Most of the time our fears are so much worse then real situations and they tend to get bigger when we don't talk about them.

I had a great night with my older son! I'm excited for him.... So many good times ahead for him with his senior year and summer and college

Hi everyone....up in pain.
Speaking of barrel hugs...have you ever typed "do a barrel roll" into Google? Funny

So sorry your in pain Wiki.

Just dropping in before dinner. Ready, is there any chance you could have an ulcer? It sounds weird, but the first sign that my mother had of a bleeding ulcer was severe burning pain between the shoulder blades. The doctor said it was a common referred pain. Who knew? Maybe try something like Maalox, and if the pain goes away, then you'd know to investigate further?

Wiki.. hope your pain is better by now!

I am doing some Sunday morning cleaning, before heading off to church. After church our whole congregation is getting together at a local Fire hall and eating a Thanksgiving dinner together. I am half looking forward to it, half dreading it. I still have not put myself out there socially at this church since we start attending.. So, I am not looking forward to the artificial surface conversations that I have to have. Also, a meal out with a bunch of homemade food is a food allergy kid and parent's worst nightmare! We will make alternative meal for my S, but I know he is going to want some of what everybody else is eating.. and if I am not absolutely sure, that it doesn't have egg, peanuts, tree nuts then he is not getting it.. I am sure there will be lots of fits!

I am also kicking around the idea of sending T an email about my concerns relating to my dual relationship post in this thread from last night. Trying to decide if it is worth an email or if it can wait two weeks, as I won't be seeing him Friday b/c of the holiday. My one thought is that, other things will come a long to talk about and will put this issue on the back burner as it is uncomfortable to talk about.. So, if I send him an email about it, then he knows and he can address it at our next session.. as I am sure he probably won't say too much about it via email.

i need to leave right now i am so completely out of control .i took my Xanax and waiting for it to kick in .my husband and bff thought it would be a great idea to keep the fact that my son got jumped last night or this morning or whenever in Tokyo. he is okjust bruised up a lot but i am beside myself with worry and upset i cant stop sobbing .how could anyone put my hands on my boy in anger . i hate this horrible world .i really do

Granite, I am so glad your son is okay. I hope you are able to calm yourself soon. Big hugs.

Morning couch.

I am sitting at K's bored to death and I have only been here an hour and 15 minutes. Still have about 7 hours to go. This is going to be a long day.

I found a Rorschach test online on Thursday and took it out of boredom. Only one card I saw what most people saw, so I emailed T asking if that was common along with what I saw on each card. She said what I found looked the the Exner or something like that method which is widely used in the US, but that what I saw in some of them was right-on according to European experts. Guess I am not a typical American. She also said not to read into it because ones posted onlinr tend to simplify it for laymen and it is anything but simplistic. I figured that. I just took it for fun.

Then yesterday I got bored again and found a MMPI-2 online. I took it for fun. I don't know if it was the real questions or not, but it wad long. The results it gave me wad a bunch of numbers in diffetent categories. I had no clue what they meant so I googled MMPI-2 results interpertation and found several psychology schools with info on it, so I used it for fun to see if I could see those descriptions in myself. It was scary how close they were to describing me based on what pdoc and T have mentioned. Now I want to take a real MMPI and see what it says.

So sorry Granite, I am glad to hear he is ok, hope you find a way to calm down. Can you talk to him?

Just fed K lunch (soup). Now she is finishing her sandwich. 4.5 hours to go...almost halfway done. It's easy work but boring work.

K will need a snack in about an hour...I'll probably give her a cookie or a couple of prunes...she likes prunes. All she does is eat and sleep poor thing...not a very exciting life.

C's mom texted me a little bit ago asking if I would be available to sit with him for about 3 hours on Wednesday (there is no school Wed-Fri). Yay, more fun hours. I enjoy working with C.

Well enough about me...how is everyone else's day going?

I am trying to add some milk to my diet, so I bought some instant milk and mixed it with some decaf folgers and some mocha latte and caramel latte coffee mixes. I made a little jar of it - it's not bad. Probably hopefully less expensive than cocoa mixes - plus it has actual milk. It seems more satisfying than without the milk. Is this how stopdog started out??

F U C K this world it sucks so bad