Absence at the wrong time

I usually have session on Thursdays, but my shrink is away of course since it's a holiday. It is not just that. We aren't seeing each other for two weeks because he is visiting family. I usually see him twice a week. A little while ago I started slipping into a major depressive episode and now am waiting for the new meds to start working.

In other words, the timing is terrible. I really need the support right now because the meds won't work for a while. It just feels awful and like it's getting worse. I am so tempted to text him, just to have some contact and support, but I don't want to bother him during his vacation.

I have texted him about the dose of meds and he was good about responding, but it's not the same as talking about how I'm feeling.

Is there anyone else you can go to even for a temporary visit? Does your T have someone he can refer you too?

He is covering for himself, he said. Sometimes he has someone cover for him, but not this time. No one would be working the rest of the week anyway. I wish I had scheduled in someone for early next week, but all of this has happened with a rush because the emphasis switched to dealing with new meds and monitoring them. I do see him next Thursday so I guess it's just another week more. I'm just having trouble, and the temptation to make contact with him is growing.

My therapist is gone for a week and right now I'm in a crisis mode so it's extremely difficult to know I won't see him until next Friday and probably won't see my crisis therapist until Wednesday. I still have the option of calling the crisis line that they have but I would be talking to a completely different therapist and that freaks me out.

I know the feeling, my T and I use to see each other once a week and without discussing or talking to me about it she suddenly just began scheduling me every two weeks for the last two months. So the wait for me is horrendous too and I hate it.

Cause I feel i need more support in the week. Maybe a few texts wouldn't be harmful even though I understand your hesitation. I hope you stay on here to get what support you can on here, though it's hardly the same!

Your T is a pdoc too?
If you really are struggling than contacting him is stg he would appreciate (if that's how he works- some Ts won't allow it).

Yes, I guess my situation is not typical, but it is common here to see a psychiatrist for intensive therapy since the ones here do psychoanalysis. He does therapy without meds as well as do other psychiatrist here who are also analysts. Since I haven't need lots of meds until recently, I just think of him as my therapist. (Well, I call him my analyst technically or shrink for short.)

I actually think he wouldn't mind if I reached out to him, but I am trying not to bother him. He gave me a lot before he left. I feel like I overstepped even though I was in crisis so it wasn't really my fault.

Perhaps I'll just try to leave him alone for today since it's a holiday. And if I'm really not doing better on Friday, I'll try getting in touch and see how that goes. I know he is concerned and really cares and he also is quite aware that the timing is really bad.

I was looking at his picture, just to remind myself that he's really there, kinda inside somewhere, and then I got a text from him, wishing me a happy thanksgiving. He knows I'm struggling and also not doing anything for the holiday so it was meaningful. I just wished him the same, checked in about upping the dose which I did today, and let it go.

I still have another week of absence to deal with. I'm a bit worried since stuff is due in courses and I can't really concentrate. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through without his support.

I completely understand how you feel. My T went out of the country last week, and won't be back until next week (and I too will be able to see my T next Thursday) BUT it literally felt like the world knew she was leaving, and then threw a bunch of crises at me.

I've been in crisis mode since the night she left, because that night a traumatic experience happened, and then so did 3 more unpleasant experiences in the same week. I wish I could contact her but she has no access to messages as she's out of the country.

Please know you are NOT alone and we will get through this together.

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Can you write to him? Don't mail it to him or anything but when I would have breaks I would write and it would make me feel close to my T

This has sort of happened to my since the Psychologist who is scheduled to meet with me to discuss my future in regards to Therapy is away all next week so I can't meet with her until the following Monday.

I found a tape of my therapist. We have done hypnotic inductions so I had relaxation tapes on my phone. I listened to one and it was so soothing that I don't feel the strong desire to contact him. I'm still depressed and need support and am worried about next week, but at least for now I feel okay and will be able to rest.