Santa Claus is coming to couch 68!!!!!

i am going to call at 2 last time i called in the snow they said they are always there . ummm not always .anyway i am going to call .it stopped snowing for a bit but now it is snowing again

is driving in 2in of snow to get to T pathetic

No, it is not pathetic. Drive safely and I so much hope you'll have a better session this week.

i am doing way better so far because basically i have all the Christmas stuff i need to get done done. we will se how T goes .i got a lot i am going to try and talk to her about

Granite- roads would have to shut down for me not to drive to a t appointment, you're taking care of yourself and that is a good thing!

Heading to our first bball game of the season!!

I was on Prozac for a long time and 80mg is the max. I was told if I went off them that eventually I could go back at a lower dose. I was taking 40 one day and 60 the next then back to 40..... etc etc
Also if seroquel isn't time released you may be able to do any every other day like Hank suggested.
If you hate the Pdoc that's one thing but don't screw up your head by not taking things that can help just to punish him. I also know from experience the more you scream for anti anxiety meds the less chance you have of getting them. Again from experience sleeping meds are also something they try to keep out of the hands of people with a history of Suicide attempts. I hope you find a way to fix the med issue/Pdoc issue without adamantly just refusing to take things that can help you because of the side effects and try to reason with the man instead.

Also can you not jus admit yourself to the hospital without having to prove a SI attempt? Im confused.

Good luck Granite...and you really are the best Santa ever!

I am home for a few hours, it's snowing and it looks so pretty out my sliders to see the snow falling on the pond. I am slamming out some Christmas cookies. Still haven't heard about my SIL, waiting for a text from my niece. They were hoping to do some kind of robotic surgery. Sheesh...robotic, scares the heck out of me for some reason.

I am making my MIL's favorite cookies first, then it's on to all of the Italian cookies H loves so much. Then the pb ones for my son and d's gingerbread cookies. That should be enough for this year. I really have to kick it into high gear, I am so behind on everything...cookies, shopping, wrapping....YIKES. D's b'day is this weekend too....urg. I told her we'd do a graduation party type think in January after she passes her state boards.

CC boy I believe that one day I was at my appointment with my NP and I never ask for any kind of meds at all . so we were talking about my chest pains and how anxiety is my base line next thing I know she is writing a script for Xanax 3x a day . it is good though lol. but my T knows now that she gave me that and has almost pleaded with me not to take it any more so I don't but wow I guess if you never ask you can get all kinds of meds like that

Wiki good luck with all that.... I think I'm gonna venture out and finish my shopping too... haven't wrapped a thing either. Maybe we should avoid wrapping this year, stay green, save a tree? haha , keep us posted on SIL

Granite hope you have a great appointment!

And for those who care I think I have a lead on a DBT program and possible T, 2014 is gonna be a better year

wiki I love Italian cookies just saying

Lola....you have to be admitted by a doc. You can go voluntarily, but a doc has to sign the admission, just like any other hospital.

So...what's everyone's favorite christmas cookie?

No you can't--not this one anyway and it's the only one around (I've been admitted twice in sept), you have to be admitted after a psych eval, they did one but the final call is up to the pdoc. And at the time I hadn't made the attempt was just thinking strongly of it. I wouldn't just do an attempt to get myself hospitalized. I only go to the hospital when I really am not safe with myself. I made the SUI attempt after I was told to wait to see my T. and it was an attempt to die, not an attempt to gfet into the hospital or I would have gone to the hospital, instead of keeping it quiet until I saw my T and telling her about it. I was up sick the whole night, vomitting, and having really bad time of it. My poor heart, I'll never forget the feeling.

I've tried reasoning with him, etc. I have done so nicely. For the last 4 months. And so I'm just going to find a pdoc who listens, not one who visits his patients in the ward and when he pisses them off he watches as they try to slam the doors and laughs when they can't. Seem him do that many times, not on me cause I don't act like that but on other patients. He really shouldn't be in the profession. I'm not refusing to take them to punish him either, I just hate the side effects. one time I fell asleep in therapy. And unfortunately that's not always true about drugs. I OD'd on my Seroquel so he just upped my dosage of it now, and so now I'm taking ah igher dosage 3x's a day rather than 100mg once a night.

I've just gone off them, I'm not going back and forth b/w them. So I'm back to taking my prozac, and looking for a new pdoc. I am aware of what I'm doing to myself.

really I hope it works out . that would be a great Christmas gift . a t you can work close with. someone IRL who you feel is just for you

Beaches - that is great - i hope the program works out.

Around here, you can voluntarily admit to a psych ward.

oh Lola..that's awesome!
I may be back in T during 2014 too...if my other medical bills slow down.

wiki I also love any filled cookie. surprisingly nothing chocolate .so no chocolate chip

Daeva ... sorry no offense, I apparently misinterpreted the situation. I was also unaware of a PDOC having to ok your admittance, I guess I was unaware of that step in my own admittance.

just wondering if there is no room

Ha, I'll just have to let my OCD go out of control, let my anxiety run me amok, and then when I end up in the hospital, they'll write me something, you know god forbid I ask for an anti-anxiety before I have these issues and end up in the hospital for it. Once in an episode with ocd I shoved a knife down my throat because of the obsession/compulsion I was having. I have hurt myself on accident when doing these compulsions because of it. Had I an anxiety drug it wouldn't get so bad. So I guess I have to hurt myself in my OCD to get an anti-anxiety med. Not ask for it outright to avoid the situation.

I'm not offended or upset at you. Just at the situation. I try to talk it out with my T but she works there so she's almost neutrally defending him in a way and so I just need to rant but you're not offending me or making me mad.

We're okay. I hope I'm not seeming like I'm attacking you because I'm not, I don't mean to come off that way

Now that is crazy.... I OD'd on my meds and they took them all away. This guy sounds like HE is crazy.

no no on the contrary, its hard to fully grasp things with conversation that are typed with people your really don't have a "feel" for yet. No worries, all is well.

Look at us back in T..... go Wiki, Go Lola , Go Wiki , Go Lola.... hahahaha, crazier things have happened I suppose ...look forward to swapping stories of treacherous appointments and overall dissatisfaction of the process of healing HAHAHA

Huh, they never took my meds away. I mean when I was in the ward they give it to you at the times but I always was allowed them outside. Even my T who knows how I tried OD'ing again with alcohol involved this time, didn't ask for my meds or anything. It was ridiculous.

I never said he was smart. Talking to him is like talking to a brick wall, except the wall is more emotional and intelligent.

ok done board hogging gotta get back to work....ugggggg