Cancelled appointment - upset

So, I had to cancel my appt tomorrow. Car's going to be in the shop and H didn't want me to go anyway so apparently the best time to get the car fixed is the day of my appt. Wouldn't have killed him to wait another day:-(
Thing is, this may well have been my last appt with T. It's one of the last ones anyway - he's moving across town and I just can't continue seeing him there. I don't want to drive 40 miles each way with therapy-head and I don't have H's support anyway.
I'm really upset now - tomorrow's appointment was 'big' for me. I have no idea how I'm going to move forward with my therapy and I feel like a pass-the-parcel: everyone take a turn taking off a wrapper and pass her on:-(
And of course I have to cancel at the last minute. I hate doing that. I'm afraid that T will not reply to my email... I'll call him in the morning if I don't hear. I hate phone calls. I'm afraid I'll not see him again. Gaah! I'm not that attached to him, I'm not!
Upset girl is upset. Thanks for 'listening'.

Sorry about, I know it can be tough to have to cancel a session.

does your H know this might be the last appointment and how important it is to you? if tomorrow isn't possible and it was the last in the current location maybe you should make the drive at least once so that you can have a final session with your T? I'm sorry ... cancelling sessions at all is hard but with this it sounds so much harder

I was going to drive tomorrow. H wasn't happy about it, hence the timing with getting the car fixed. I got into a fender bender yesterday so it's 'my' fault anyway as far as he's concerned. I may be able to see T a few more times at the old office, but I did want to see him out of that place too. I have a lot of 'stuff' attached to that office. Previous T works/worked there too.
I tried to explain the whole attachment thing and how difficult/painful it is to H, but he just tells me I shouldn't get attached to anyone except him and the kids. Honestly, I think he's jealous, and acting like a 6 year old about it, but knowing that is not making me feel any better.

Would your T maybe be open to doing phone sessions? That's the only kind I've had now for a year and a half since my T moved across the country. They work really well for us. I was a little worried at first that our connection wouldn't carry over to phone-only, but it did and I continue to feel very connected to her when we talk. I just had a phone session this evening, as a matter of fact. Something to think about!

Ditto what Artemis said. Maybe you could connect via phone or Skype?

I was going to ask if he was jealous. When I started therapy I talked to my husband about the relationship because I didn't want him to feel slighted. Thankfully, he understands but it could be because my therapist is a woman. Good thing too because I drive about 40 miles to
get there.

It's hard when you have to battle someone for the right to do something for yourself. Hopefully your T will understand and y'all can work it out.
Maybe you could ask your husband if he would feel differently if your therapist was a woman. it might be something to consider when/if you decide to move on with therapy.

Best of luck.

Well, in good news, T replied to my email, so I feel better about that at least.
He knows I probably won't be able to continue to travel to see him. I've already told him that I don't think I can do it. After the last two weeks and my H's reaction I know I can't. The distance would be hard enough on its own, but with H on me about it, no, just not gonna work.
T knows H - we were in couples' counseling with him and I just continued on my own. H is aware of the nature of the therapeutic relationship. He just refuses to have anything to do with it. Chicken**** :-P
Yeah, H would be happier if I had a female T. Thing is though, I'm happier with a male T. I project a lot with women.
One thing is for sure though: I'm not stopping my therapy over this. It's been hard - both with the miserable negative transference and H acting like an overgrown child, but I still feel much better for doing it. I'm going to ask T to refer me or at least recommend someone and I'm not stopping until I'm done, and I figure that'll take years. It took a lifetime to make me like this, after all. I'm not going to be 'cured' in a few months (like H seems to believe). It's not Lourdes FFS!

I know phone therapy works great for some people, but I hate phone contact. I have stuff with phones...

What's therapy-head?

LOL~ good for you and continuing therapy.

I could never work with a man. There would be too much of a power struggle for me.

Good luck with finding a new therapist.

All spaced out and overthinking everything. Definitely not conducive to driving :-P