Couch 78: Put your feet up and stay a while

MKAC...it's worth a try if she seemed normal/okay enough to you.

I was listening to the morning show on the radio and it was talking about all the things married cohabitating people miss about living alone and one of the things was never having to close the bathroom door. The one person said she lived in her apt for 3months before realizing the bathroom door didn't stay shut...

I have never since I could use the bathroom alone ever not locked the door...it is always locked not just closed....even when I am alone whether when we lived in apartment or my house...

Is this normal or do people really take showers and use the bathroom without closing and locking the door?

I sense a poll coming on!!

I do lock the bathroom at ts. At home, no. I live alone.

She seems great. Very knowledgeable. Very careful. Funny. Sensitive. All of that makes it very clear to me that this is just about my issues. It is not like she sets off any creep alerts for me or sends off any danger signals. Also she is the only person in a 100 mile radius from where I am with this advanced degree in physical therapy. Everything she said and did today made absolute sense. Also, she did not make a big deal about anything I told her. So I am going to go back and just keep trying to get a grip on myself.

I am not claiming to fall into the normal category, but I rarely close the door unless trying to keep the pets out or in (puppies stay in, dogs who like to jump in shower with me kept out) or if company is over. Sometimes I don't even have my back door to the house shut and locked if the dogs are outside (they have a dog door on the storm door).

I think part of my issues relate to the PTSD... But the other is that we were not allowed to have a door on our bedroom growing up so I value doors with locks.

ETA... Possibly it's due to me being a freakin nut case.. Just typing the one little sentence above and I start tearing up... I must be overly tired.

If other people are around me, I am either right next to the door or in a corner so I can keep my eye on everyone. In restaurants my partner will always move so I can be facing the door.
Just different freaking nut cases.

((Granite)
I'm pretty sure it was manipulative, but it might be subconsciously manipulative.

It is not easy to kill yourself with insulin.
I have heard of a woman who injected three full tubes and lived. She was never the same again, mind you.

"Smithers! Massage my brain!" - Mr Burns.

((RTS))

Crying really does help! You'll stop when you're finished.

Glenn Close in that movie with the Count husband.

Ohhh.. I do that too.. It is funny to go out with my one sister because she is same way. I usually let her pick the seat since she is older than me and has a few more years on me so her hyper vigilance is slightly more perfected than mine.

Thanks CE!

If I could just stop hearing the....Stop crying or I'll give you something to really cry about.

I live alone but if I leave the bathroom door unlocked, kitty thinks that is a perfect time to say "hi".

Yeah - "Why are you so damned unemotional? You obviously don't care about anything" mixed with "I'll give you something to cry about" - I think both were said - often for the same situation - but I also think I must remember it wrong because it sounds so crazy that it can't be true.

My pets all like to come into the bathroom when any human is in there seemingly just to check it out. They wander in and out. But if I shut the door, they cry, whimper, and stare at the door until I come out (They do it for partner too - I wonder what they think is going on in there?)

I get a kitty paw under the door if he is shut out!!

I remember hearing these things as well. Apparently the emotion I actually felt was never the "right" emotion. I got in trouble for laughing if my mother was sad or didn't think something was funny. I got in trouble for smiling too much and for not smiling enough, within minutes of each other. I got in trouble for crying, unless my mother wanted me to cry. Total mind ****.

I think glenn close is really hot. I particularly loved her in Dangerous Liaisons.

Well obviously this kitty needs help getting dressed! He only has one arm in his shirt!

Eta - omg i love this picture so much!! I told t about it, he said his dog recently was sticking his little paws under the door.

She is a very striking... to me she ages beautifully.

Hmmm is it her you loved in Dangerous Liasons or the wardrobe....

John malkovich can write on my back anytime...

Funny what sticks with us!

I wanted to wear j. Malkovich clothes and be with g close

I live alone, and it is quite burdensome to have to close my bathroom door when i have company over

I was sure I'd responded to this... I got those responses as well when I was growing up. My way of protecting myself was to not show emotion and to be as unremarkable as possible. At the same time I knew those were the wrong things to do. The times when I felt safe was when I was in bed and everybody else was asleep, and when I was in the bathroom with the door locked.
So I still lock the bathroom door. When I lock that door behind me, I relax. It's completely irraltional, but that's how it is.

btw, mkac, I wanted to thank you for starting that thread about feeling as if T is getting contaminated by darkness - because of that I have been able to start telling my T that I feel like that. It is a difficult conversation to have, but important, I think. So thank you.