Past and Present~

So amongst the other things that have happened with me the past couple weeks, last week I ended my almost 4 yr therapy relationship with my T. Last Wednesday was a good ending . I had closure, and a satisfying feeling that I am allowed to move on to my new Twhom I see tomorrow.

My old T told me that he was glad to have had me as a client. I was both a joy to know and that I worked hard to get where I am today. He also said that I will always be one of his all time favorite clients. Which I find hard to believe .. but ok.... I had to graciously accept that compliment which is very hard for me to do. I didnt cry which I am so proud of myself for not doing. Even though I did feel it coming on.. lol. I will miss his stories about his little boy and how good of buddies they are. Reminded me so much of how my dad and I used to be. He was a great guy to talk to . I trusted him and I am so glad that I got to have him for my first T.

So tomorrow I move on. Tomorrow I will talk about my new goals I have been writing down for a few weeks now. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new journey to peel back yet more layers of the onion. I am glad tomorrow is coming. I am excited about this.

Sounds like you had a really good relationship with this T, I know how hard it is to say goodbye, but its really good that you had that sense of closure. Best of luck with your new T

Wow... sounds like a wonderful ending. Good luck tomorrow. It's great that you are looking forward to a new chapter.

If you don't mind me asking, how come you are switching Ts?

I hope you have a great session!

SweetSunshine, that sounds like a wonderful ending to a special relationship with your T. You give me hope that maybe I can manage the ending that will come one day for me and my T. I hope it is still a long ways off, but reading your story let me see it can be done, and it need not be the end of the world. ((((hugs)))) Good luck tomorrow.

SweetSunshine - Mind if I ask? How/Why did you decide to switch therapists? I'm just wondering how you knew the time had come.

Winter Rose

Pinksoil and Winter Rose~

Last summer thru early winter my T had some health issues. And he is on some medication now that seems to make him very tired. He also has a heavy workload as he is one of the better T's there. I found that during our sessions that he would doze off a bit. Not always , and I know he didnt mean to. Between that and the fact that we also increasingly had trouble thinking of new goals to work on . Especially ones that I had in my mind that I thought he might not be able to help with as much as I knew my new T would . I increasingly felt more angry when I left our sessions. Mainly because I was feeling jipped of my time and efforts. My husband and I had been to this other T for marraige counceling. And we got along great. So when I put in a request to get a new one... I had asked for him. And he was happy to have me as a client.

I really respect my old T. He brought me thru alot these past years with my sexual abuse issues. And I am glad I had him . But sometimes you grow and the glove no longer fits and you need to find another size glove. Ya know? I'll always be thankful for having done the hard work that T and I did. And now I have wrote up new goals and shared them with my new T yesterday. And boy.. we are both excited to start on them!!! I want to grow into being a better person. And healthier too. I want so bad to be able to function better as a person. And I want to have that self awareness that I have lacked for so long. Gotta peel back the layers of that onion to get to the true person you are. Its hard work .. but so worth it in the end!!! Dont give up !!

Hugz
Bethy
ps.. thanks to the rest of you for your replies!! I appreciate it!!!