Couch 82: If you're happy and you know it, be a number!

Yawn... well I tossed and turned last night... it was raining pretty hard and I was just sure the power would go out and the alarm wouldn't go off and I would oversleep - they told us at work last week that if were were even LATE today, even a couple of minutes late, we would not get paid for the holiday yesterday. Bah humbug. So I'm up extra early and heading out now. That was the only negative that will come from me today, I am taking my frown and turning it upside down. Corny, I know, but maybe it will help. Have a good day couchies!

insomnia and depression have come back full-force: YAY! WOW AM SO HAPPY PARTICULARLY AS I HAVE PMS TOO

sigh

I saw The Imitation Game yesterday. Good movie, but man...life really sucks. And by life, I guess I mean people.

Im planning to see it next week. It is horrifying isnt it to think, they put people in jail for who they kiss. Adults.

Yes. Humanity FAIL.

I only watch happy movies or comedies. I can handle dark comedies - but I do not watch tragedy (ok - I do shakespeare) or violence. Uplifting ones are right out.
I do watch all opera except very modern (I just don't like the music).

Well. Christmas is over. The kids got plenty of toys. I got a few things I liked.

I didn't feel much like celebrating. That being said, I then got hit with what I think was the flu (all the symptoms), but I'd had my flu shot so after about 48 hours I was feeling much better (but without having been checked idk if it was the flu). Then I discovered an infection in my lady bits (this happened to me post-labor with my last baby). So happy my doc friend was on call at my clinic (I don't regularly see her but I knew my regular doc wasn't on call). She called in an antibiotic and now I'm waiting for things to... er... resolve. Neither she nor my regular doc are in today so I'm taking the antibiotic and some left over pain pills from a year ago to get through. If it hasn't resolved by Monday, I'll go in.

Sorry if that's TMI. It's just really depressing and not something one can broadcast *sigh*

Well its about the inventor of computing AND he is played by Benedict Cumberbatch ie the most recent and amazing Sherlock Holmes so its kinda irresistable in spite of. Id say its prolly like acknowledging or sharing the tragedy now? Idk. Theater is meant to be transformative.

Oh. Speaking of Shakespeare, I just watched Joss Whedon's Much Ado about Nothing and really liked it

I didn't appreciate Shakespeare until I married my husband. Then I determined it was because they were keeping the good Shakespeare stories for those who took a Shakespeare class. :P

Its amazing how he stuffed 3 or 4 thoughts into a single line. Like almost every word carried so much meaning. Like he didnt say like every other word

Sigh. This couch looks fun. I don't know how to fit in. Story of my life.

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The story of your life will do just fine! or your story of the day. We're easy

i love lana del ray's music <3

Had to get away from my family for a bit.. Went out and did some returns, and bought myself an outfit and perfume. Tomorrow will be cleaning day.. between toys, packaging for toys and the general lived in messiness of the house it is a disaster here. Why didn't I ask for a cleaning lady for Christmas?

The story of my life is boring. Socially awkward and generally never feel like I fit in. Which is fine really since I am so used to it.

Unfortunately, my reason for starting therapy is too identifiable for anyone who knows me. So I can't share that... Though I'd love to. I'd probably feel better... Especially if anyone else is in a similar boat. I feel very alone.

I just can't get over thinking that someone I know is on here and will figure out that it's me.

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...and even posting that I feel like I could be figured out. Paranoid much.

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I rarely know what's going on around here I just sort of jump in and assume that either I'll figure it out or not.

I will try. I'm just so needy. I easily feel ignored. That doesn't help things. I do realize that most of the time I don't write anything that requires a response and that causes me to feel more alone.

I haven't decided whether being on here is good for me or not.

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I've been binge watching The Borgias, so The Imitation Game felt light in comparison. I did not know the ending going in, though. It's tough in a different way than watching murder, debauchery and religious corruption.

It helps to have no expectations, although I know that's hard for some people. There are more people who read that can't comment because they're not signed in as members, so just imagine that they are listening and answering you, if that helps any.

holy molly the Duracell bunny is on the couch ain't he lively

Thanks. I'll try to keep that in mind.

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The couch is a lot like parallel play in my opinion. And it can move fast. If you really want responses to something - it is best to start a thread and/or be really direct in asking for what you want from people

Thanks. If I feel like I need a response I will try to be more direct. I guess I never realized that I am very passive and indirect. Gosh, I learn new things about myself every day it seems.

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To echo what SD said - if you need/want a response, a thread is the best way to go. I post stuff here if I just want to post it somewhere but don't necessarily need a response (like my health stuff because I was like, yes, I will write it here under the anonymity of the interwebz).

And I'm needy too.

I think it also helps to remember that not everyone *knows* what to say either.