Couch 92 Found my shoe

I fist-pumped when I read this.

That sounds awesome in all the right ways.

Can I hire you Stopdog? I'll pay you in back and neck massage and lawn maintenance

Sorry! Didn't mean to offend just was using the words that t used.

I am rocking the heck out to The Moody Blues' "Tuesday Afternoon" right now. LOL. I don't think I know any other song by them.

I also promise this isn't related to today's date.

Whoa, there's a tornado watch for my city until midnight. I'm not sure we even have tornado sirens around here?

That's OK. I'm used to it.

Nights in White Satin?

There ought to be a movie called Knights in White Satin. A Jedi movie, I guess.

Time for another library.

Mmmm Bookcake. Omnomnom. It would go nicely with my wine. I have Gewurtztraminer again. I love that stuff.
Has Artemis come back from her break yet? I had a dream about her last week...

growly eat chocolate ladder! nom nom

I sometimes wish I were not such a complete freak of nature.

Sorry, non sequitur. Carry on with the discussion.

You could use a curly wurly as a ladder. Yum

Mast are you ok? You never sound freakish in any way--where is that coming from?

What's so freakish?

Well, I'm not sure I can phrase it coherently, but I'll try. I read a lot of threads on these boards where people make assertions that appear to be accepted as some kind of general truths. About relationships, and what relationships should be like, and what to expect from a partner, and so on. And I don't think I have ever really recognised any of those things - though that's probably a case of selective memory. I can say that there are many such things that I do not recognise. Note that I am not talking about what I might want from a r/s, or what might make me happy, or anything like that - that's a different kettle of frogs. I just don't live in a world where those things are possible or part of real life outside the realm of fiction.

I know that there is a real cultural difference here - in English (at least in Britain and the US) it is as a general rule much more acceptable to express oneself in absolutes, and to say things like "we want x, y and z from our lives" without actually meaning anything other than "I and my two best friends want x, y, and z from our lives, and I assume that some other people do, too". In Swedish, if you say "we want x", then you mean "people want x" and there is a very strong implication that if you don't want x, there is something wrong with you. (My best friend is driven crazy by this - he is from the US, and even after many years in Sweden he can't get used to the way Swedes tend to look at all sides equally, and avoid saying anything absolute. His therapist, who is English, has told him that it's a very common source of frustration for British and American expats in Sweden.)

There was a former member of PC who kept claiming that everybody in the world except for him had some kind of secret knowledge, and who kept asking and asking how he could acquire that knowledge... sometimes, I feel a little like that, too. I mean, I know that there is no conspiracy to keep me out of the loop, and in fact there is no loop, but it does feel, at times, like I'm missing some kind of essential organ.

Wall of text. Sorry.

I dislike emotions and thoughts that contradict one another.

And bad dreams too. Bleh.

*hides in the couch*

I can relate. I actually had a "work friend" say that if you aren't married or in a committed relationship by 40, something is wrong with you. That blanket statement blew me away. It is strange the unwritten "rules" and expectations that others have.

If your relationship makes you happy, forget what anyone else says. People like to think "normal" exists.

Well, I tried to say that I'm not talking about what makes me happy or not, that's completely separate from this.

And I know that "normal" doesn't exist, and even if it did, it's not something I would want. I'm sorry I am so bad at explaining myself...

What your workmate said would throw me completely off balance. Talk about narrowminded view of the world!

I had a psychiatrist going on about him knowing what was normal last week. I won, but I ****ing hate doctors with their god complex.

so im off to start my day with mixing with people and T. got some hard stuff to talk about and that doesn't help. don't know if I will do it . I am on a huge down swing and have been for a while it is getting pretty bad . im getting pretty depressed . bad thoughts and all . such a feeling of just wanting things to crash and all already . it would be a relief

Yes, I agree the crash can be a relief.

Truth is subjective. I used to make a point of avoiding people who think in absolutes, because it would drive me nuts, but now that my boundaries have improved I find I'm much more comfortable around people with vastly different opinions from mine. It's just as well really, I was avoiding the whole world for fear of being triggered.

I wish I had been there to see you throw that one in his face Stopdog! What kind of quack pshrink talks about normalcy anyway? There's no such thing as 'normal' (per my T)

How's your neck doing Stopdog? Did it finally loosen up?