Couch 97: Prime Pyramids

I want to scream and stomp my feet and throw myself on the floor....This is stupid!Therapy is stupid! this is the most ridiculous relationship I think it should be made illegal!

Oh my gosh, I had that hissy fit today too, sent a message to T to that effect: for better or worse, she seems to have chalked it up to the respiratory illness that took me to Urgent Care, ha.

Morning, couch.

Woke up earlym today, despite being up so late. Oh well, I am not tired, so I guess my body just said "I have enough sleep".

I just got a call about 15 minutes ago from a local emelentary school I applied to for a special needs position requesting that I come in for an interview. I accepted and have an interview for 12:30pm on Monday. I had to reschedule pdoc due to it, but they understood. I now see pdoc on Tuesday. Even if I took the 2nd time they offered me for the interview, I would still have to reschedule pdoc, but it wouldn't work with what time I have to be at CVS. Now to decide what I want to wear to my interview that will also work for CVS, sinceI will be going directly to work after the interview. I threw my make-up out when I moved in November because it was pretty nasty (I rarely wear it and it was years old). I usually wear make-up to interviews, but I don't know if I want to buy more. I guess I could.

Now to print out a copy of my resume (even though I emailed it), just in case she needs another copy. Maybe I will get this job.

That's great you got an interview--good luck! I'd get a little makeup, just because it will probably make you feel more confident. Do you get a CVS discount? Could get some there. As for what to wear, maybe dress pants and a fairly nice top you could also wear to CVS, then put a cardigan or suit jacket, something like that, over it for the interview, then just take it off for CVS.

AND, we pay for it, to boot!! I have felt that way many a time and I sympathize.

Has anyone seen this Pixar movie, Inside Out? I haven't. Looks interesting, just don't know if it would be annoying after awhile.

Hey couch.

Squirrel, congrats to the interview! If you don't normally wear makeup, won't it make you feel selfconscious and weird? (Just going by myself here, you might react differently.)

Belated Happy Birthday, healed! I hope you had a good day.

BPA, all relationships that involve any kind of emotional vulnerability are potentially harmful, I think.

Theres a small discussion of it in the books and movies forum. And i think somebody here said they saw it but i forget who. I would guess healed? Or lolagrace.

I'm a fan of Pixar but that clip did not appeal to me. Looks like it might be another Incredibles in terms of tired, clichéd stereotypes. (Or Up!. Gaah. I did not like that movie.)

Thanks H - I found two discussions on it there.

I really liked the Incredibles. I am not that interested in seeing the emotion one.

T said I should not see it..... :/

I'm already animation movied-out. My better half loves Despicable Me and is clamoring to see Minions. I don't get the appeal but then I like my movies dark and scary.

I took the kids to see Minions. They seemed to like it but I thought it was just ok. I liked Despicable Me better.

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I liked Inside Out!

Wasn't me, but my son loved it. I've heard mixed things from people. Some loved it; others didn't. It is not a kids movie really from what I understand. It is more a movie older teenagers and adults will get.

Good morning couch. I feel better this morning. I think... the storm of my latest round of trauma work is finally calming, I had some helpful dreams again last night, and while I couldn't get my Rx yet (hey, Squirrel, Artemis.... help? lol) because I hadn't updated my ins. info yet, I will this morning, and just knowing it's asthma helped. Haven't had that in..... probably about 25 years, will hopefully resolve soon.

I hope I get to talk to T today, I think we do have a short session planned, and I'm feeling more grateful for my opportunities now than I have for a while.

Along with my regular 55 h a week job that let's me work from home and be here for my daughter, I have regular work, if part time, in a profession that was only a dream to me two years ago. Meaningful, intriguing work, and I'm getting to the "I have so much to learn" stage! But.... I also have everything I need to excel, and not to boast, but excelling is my norm, so.... maybe bright days ahead if I am conscientious and grounded.

Hope that all are well or at least enjoying the couch.

My T. suggested taking dd to that Inside Out movie, on which grounds, I probably won't lol.

I like my movies happy or witty. I do like dark comedies. I don't like being scared at all.

I loved it. Was good to tell the kids, see this is what happens when your emotions are out of whack!

3am. Cold, tired, hungry. Sorry kids, mum needs the milk for a hot drink to get back to sleep. Lucky we got another bottle of milk. Sweet dreams everyone.

I love all movies. Tim Burton is my favourite director though.

(Excuse me while I work on motivating myself to get up off my butt). It's Friday and I'm completely in lazy mode. I suppose I should get up and start the laundry, but even that isn't particularly a pressing issue today. I will have to start moving though. Youngest son has a voice lesson to get to in a few hours. Definitely need to get some groceries; the cupboard is bare. I guess actually getting out of my pajamas and into some semblance of actual attire would be a plan. I love my summers and the luxury to have these lazy days . . .

Okay! Here I go!

Well that appointment I was looking forward to didn't happen. I thought we had one, T thought we didn't and it's ringing those abandonment bells that were starting to quiet. It's fine, will be fine, but it hurts. She cancelled a crisis one last week too as her neighbor had an emergency.

Afternoon couch. I fell back asleep after my last post and just woke up. Whoops! I guess my body is resting up for tomorrow's long day of work.

I think I will get a little make-up for my interview. At least just the basics to give me a little color. I do get a discount at CVS, so maybe I should get some there after work tomorrow. Yes, they are generally more expensive than Walmart, but with my discount is works out to be about the same, so why take a trip to Walmart which is crazy on the weekends.

About to storm here. Hopefully it will not last too long.

Couch, goodness, I am not in my right mind. Have to shake this funk!

After our missed session confusion this morning, T just wrote me of a family emergency and said she hoped I would understand she needed time for herself.

The quiet, rational, caring part of me does, but... I can't make myself say it. I'm mad at her, I'm confused about our missed session, and even irritated that she'd throw in the line about 'hoping I would understand' as if it wouldn't be blatant from the emergency she described to me.

I can't seem to clear my head lately, at least not for long. I know better, don't I?!

Can I blame being sick and less than five hours of sleep, and family stress and opening up to her last week about abandonment with a depth and emotion I haven't before for these feelings. Can I blame the unfortunate coincidence of missing two sessions? We did probably make up the time, but.... T seems a bit shaky. Perhaps my shakiness on abandonment exacerbates my perception of it now, sigh.

I am miserable, a little miserable. Maybe I need a nap. Some way to fuel myself up again to be kind. I must be feeling very short on care to be so unkind.

I did not say anything unkind to her though. I did say I was sorry to hear about the emergency. Later I can say maybe that of course I understand her needing time, but right now.... well, my silence won't disturb her I hope.