Couch 97: Prime Pyramids

Now that you've revised your post, I surmise you're saying that you do things to reduce the amount of stress in your life.

Well.... certainly, I do that too. I figure most people do, as best as possible.

However, as I imagine is the case with most of us, things don't all line up perfectly so that we can get to a place of zero stress.

There is choice and then there is circumstance, and between them... we navigate. Free will in a vacuum might be lovely, but of course we all have constraints of one type or another, if not several. Financial, temporal, physical, etc.

In my case, I don't have time to do pre-site visits to the two new sites I have to find every week. I wish I did. I envied the poster who said they would, but of course, it's just one of those 'grass seems greener moments.'

Literally speaking, I could neglect other obligations and do that, but of course, we all have priorties that outrank others, food more important than magazines, etc. in so many permutations, but it isn't at all sensible for me to drop what I need to be doing for the site visits... I can't choose it without problematic consequences.

I've already given up dusting and a million other things lol.

Maybe if I could figure out how to walk in like yesterday never happened.....

I do work to actively arrange my life so that I can do things in a way that causes me less stress. If I did not, I would accept I had made something else a priority and that the extra anxiety was something I had made a choice about. Avoiding incompetence is a high priority of mine because of how I feel when I am if it could have been avoided.

I think I might just have overwhelmed my T with the avalanche of emotional crap related to divorce papers that I brought to therapy yesterday:/
Upon reflection I think I'm overreacting a bit and he sorta got sucked in...
Ts are human too... Sigh...

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Just weighing in here about the stress of logistics: I travel to new locations a few times a week for work. Some are in high density urban areas that I've never been to before, with one way streets and all sorts of crap that I can't know without being there. I can't be late because I'm the reason for the meeting or event, so what I do is use google earth to actually see the streets and parking situation. I also have navigation in my car, which helps. Traffic is horrible, and I cannot predict that, so I just make sure to leave an extra hour early.

I also have to deal with locations where there's always a chance of being kicked out without a permit to be there, but I've learned to enjoy that part.

Anyway, google earth works pretty well and takes a huge stress off me.

Thanks, yes. I'm kind of a new driver in some of these environments and also new to this work, so I'm adjusting to the novelty, it's an exciting challenge sometimes and a stressor others. I've had to buy some equipment for my new profession and I might have to think about paying for GPS or something, ugh, right after my daughter's $5k braces lol, just found out about those a couple weeks ago, and her appt.'s next week.

I try and map things out before I go, but as you mentioned, it's an imperfect science and hard to find enough time to allow for every potential mishap. I am hoping to have more time in the future.... been working on it.

On a random topic... I told my therapist today about the first diagnosis I ever received and she said no one should have even tried to diagnose me for at least two years because of having just come out of a series of traumas spanning several years. It's a huge relief because I've carried that crappy dx with me for a looong time. She said it's not even accurate.

So I guess I'm hating therapy as a profession right now, but really liking my therapist. Better late than never. I'm glad I hung in there.

I wonder how my t would react if after all this time i asked her not to talk one session and just let me talk. Hmmm.

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Try Canada.

Congratulations!

((MKAC))

Is there something specific, or is this good old fashioned "no reason" depression? (I particularly hate that kind.)

((Granite))

Welcome back, Granite!

Yes! And they should wear their house colours so we know who is who!

It's not as much fun as it sounds. My organisation comes from fear.

Please don't be glib. This is a very painful subject.

omg what did I ever do and why is posting on this forum a form of punishment for me .im sorry so delegated

Sorry! I did reconsider but I wasn't quick enough deleting it.

What's going on Granite? Are you okay?

it is nothing . how is your mom doing . they gave tpa tp my farther and it did wonders

These seem incongruous. But I am uncertain if you want people to ask you - or let it go. Particularly when paired with the one you erased. Is there something you could say you want here that would be supportive for you? I think people would want to be supportive - but this would seem a much more difficult way to get it. Or maybe others get how - and I just don't. I am kind of literal in this respect.

She's well. Thanks for asking. They should be moving her out of ICU this evening once she passes the 24 hr mark and they allow her up and moving. She sounds like her usual spunky self. They did some testing today but we don't have results yet.

im sorry I really just wanted to know how your mom was doing .I went through this with my farther and it is scary . my farther for a bit couldn't even figure answers to simple problems . that was all.

We were very fortunate. They called this an extremely mild stroke event. Still very scary, but other than some residual numbness that seems to be improving, there were no other effects.

as far as the other post I keep doing stupid things like posting on here. im not so far gone that I knoe people are tired of me and really that is ok but I stupidly keep posting and get my feelings hurt . I care about all of you and want to be supportive . I gust get out of hand with my stuff and I am so sorry . I have been a bit of an emotional basket case with no outlet and it runs over and I have pretty much pushed or scared away anyone in real life away and seem to do the same stupid thing here . im so sorry to all