Couch 104 - The Couch Without A Catchy Title

Dec 14, 2015, 02:17 PM

I know that I'm really spamming the couch now which is a bit rude of me, but might I ask for some pocket riders for T tomorrow? It's been very, very hard recently and I don't think tomorrow is going to be any easier. (About two weeks ago, T implied that he finds me boring. I can not stop obsessing about that, and I think I need to mention it to him - no idea how to do it though.)

Ellahmae · Dec 14, 2015, 02:20 PM

I'll def hop in, Mast. I hope you can mention it to him - just blurt it out, usually the best way for me to get stuff out that needs to be discussed. If it's any consolation I don't find you boring, and you're not spamming the couch - I'll keep that title for now

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Originally Posted by Mastodon

I know that I'm really spamming the couch now which is a bit rude of me, but might I ask for some pocket riders for T tomorrow? It's been very, very hard recently and I don't think tomorrow is going to be any easier. (About two weeks ago, T implied that he finds me boring. I can not stop obsessing about that, and I think I need to mention it to him - no idea how to do it though.)

Dec 14, 2015, 02:23 PM

Hopping in. What time?

Dec 14, 2015, 02:26 PM

It's at 10am, Central European time.

BayBrony · Dec 14, 2015, 03:04 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I am a bit of a holiday bust. I am not into decorating (never understood the point of putting stuff out for a holiday just to have to pack it all back up again in a very short period of time) - I am not all that visual of a person and mostly I don't notice decorations in other people's houses or offices or wherever. I am also not a baker so I don't make mince pies myself - but I would very much like it if someone was a baker and gave me a mince pie.

I LOVE Christmas decorations but with a small house, 4 dogs , 2 giant parrot cages, a saltwater aquarium and my yoga area all in the main combo living/dining room area and no way to rearrange that ( parrots need to be out where we are and stuff is going on, baseboard heating so only a few places with nice walls for yoga)...we haven't had a Christmas tree in years. I miss it but I just can't find a place to put it....
I also love Christmas sweets etc but. With the unusually warm weather work.is so busy that I am not getting any unless I just go buy them ready made

NowhereUSA · Dec 14, 2015, 03:17 PM

I always think I'd like to do really classy decorations. I want a tree with white LED lights and done all in gold and red with matching ornaments and ribbon. Then I'd want pretty lights very neatly done around the house. I'd do some green wreaths...

But alas, I have children and so my tree, while I have the white lights, is covered in every from Perry the Platypus (Phineas and Ferb) to a few of the gold classy ornaments I'd want LOL.

I'm sure there's a mommy-blog somewhere shaming me for not seeing the "magic" of a hodge-podge tree. Because there is always a mommy-blog ready to shame. This is why I don't read mommy-blogs.

Moreta · Dec 14, 2015, 03:26 PM

Went to pdoc today and he kept all my meds the same and gave me a prescription for 5 mg of Saphris for agitation and anxiety. I have a call with my t on thursday to make a game plan for Christmas. I'm going to FL to see inlaws and I know they're going to ask me if I've been working. I'm also seeing my shaman this week to do some biofeedback for some bipolar symptoms I've been having. Oh yeah, I also see my back dr tomorrow. Busy week.

Ellahmae · Dec 14, 2015, 03:34 PM

Session soon with T after my emotional texting episodes this weekend. I just want to scream at her, "I hurt, why can you not see that? Why can you not fix it?" :/ Don't want to go but desire so badly to be there that I feel stuck. Of course I feel stuck about everything anyway. Does anything really matter? Does it? Whatever.

NowhereUSA · Dec 14, 2015, 03:37 PM

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Originally Posted by Ellahmae

Session soon with T after my emotional texting episodes this weekend. I just want to scream at her, "I hurt, why can you not see that? Why can you not fix it?" :/ Don't want to go but desire so badly to be there that I feel stuck. Of course I feel stuck about everything anyway. Does anything really matter? Does it? Whatever.

I'm sorry Ellah

Dec 14, 2015, 03:46 PM

(((Ellahmae)))

unaluna · Dec 14, 2015, 03:50 PM

I love those little nutty round powdered sugar covered cookies - no idea what theyre called - but i just got some brazil nuts instead. Nuttiness without the sugar. Hey just like me!

Eta - fyi, i had no idea i was gonna end up there! I was tryin to contribute to the holiday theme! :

healed84 · Dec 14, 2015, 04:15 PM

So, I was just offered the job I interviewed for in Friday!!! Going in tomorrow to discuss pay and schedule!! Ahhhh! Some much needed good news for me!

Ellahmae · Dec 14, 2015, 04:17 PM

Oh, and the spouse is home until after the first week of January. I haven't lived with him for more than 3 days straight in I don't know how many years - and the parentals and siblings are coming to my house this weekend. Joyful. I need to run away... and takers for letting me crash on your couch/floor/barn/etc...? :/

atisketatasket · Dec 14, 2015, 04:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Ellahmae

Oh, and the spouse is home until after the first week of January. I haven't lived with him for more than 3 days straight in I don't know how many years - and the parentals and siblings are coming to my house this weekend. Joyful. I need to run away... and takers for letting me crash on your couch/floor/barn/etc...? :/

If you do your share of the driving, you can come on a holiday road trip with me.

atisketatasket · Dec 14, 2015, 04:20 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I am a bit of a holiday bust. I am not into decorating (never understood the point of putting stuff out for a holiday just to have to pack it all back up again in a very short period of time) - I am not all that visual of a person and mostly I don't notice decorations in other people's houses or offices or wherever. I am also not a baker so I don't make mince pies myself - but I would very much like it if someone was a baker and gave me a mince pie.

My mother could have written this post, right down to the mince pies.

Ellahmae · Dec 14, 2015, 04:20 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

If you do your share of the driving, you can come on a holiday road trip with me.

Sounds great. When do we leave and where are we going?

, don't think I should be away from T for that long though you might have a mess on your hands... lol

stopdog · Dec 14, 2015, 05:20 PM

The therapist was useless. I am feeling high alert and I should by now know not to go when I am like this. Thankfully there is break coming up and I will cancel some too.

unaluna · Dec 14, 2015, 05:54 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

My mother could have written this post, right down to the mince pies.

Mine three and btw im an excellent driver!

CantExplain · Dec 14, 2015, 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Mastodon

I should not have posted this. It wasn't aimed at you at all (and your thread did not upset me, just some of the later replies in it), but I should have thought before posting.

You made a good point.

I don't think you need to apologise for that.

CantExplain · Dec 14, 2015, 05:56 PM

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Originally Posted by artemis-within

My dream-maker has been on overdrive the last few nights. Last night in my dream I'm joining some kind of club or something called "Sisters of the Moon" and each of us carry flags around, I'm just carrying an empty pole because I am still making my flag, we meet in this building that has these great marble obelisks or something in the lobby, and each of the obelisks is topped with a moonstone.

Obviously a dream about the couch!

CantExplain · Dec 14, 2015, 05:57 PM

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Originally Posted by QuietMind

Sigh ... Why does do much self help and peer support talk about forgiveness as a must?

Right now I can't even express anger at my hurts because I feel I'm horrible for finding the idea of forgiving awful.

Forgiveness happens at the end of the journey, not at the beginning.

CantExplain · Dec 14, 2015, 06:00 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I am a bit of a holiday bust.

Me too! Christmas disrupts my routine.

CantExplain · Dec 14, 2015, 06:04 PM

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Originally Posted by BayBrony

I LOVE Christmas decorations but with a small house, 4 dogs , 2 giant parrot cages, a saltwater aquarium and my yoga area all in the main combo living/dining room area and no way to rearrange that ( parrots need to be out where we are and stuff is going on, baseboard heating so only a few places with nice walls for yoga)...we haven't had a Christmas tree in years. I miss it but I just can't find a place to put it....
I also love Christmas sweets etc but. With the unusually warm weather work.is so busy that I am not getting any unless I just go buy them ready made

Put some holiday floats (or sinkers) in the aquarium.

http://petslady.com/articles/how-dec...arium-holidays

The internet has everything you can imagine.

CantExplain · Dec 14, 2015, 06:08 PM

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Originally Posted by healed84

So, I was just offered the job I interviewed for in Friday!!! Going in tomorrow to discuss pay and schedule!! Ahhhh! Some much needed good news for me!

Hooray! Well done Healed.