Couch 104 - The Couch Without A Catchy Title

No heat in the office this morning so my hands are pretty much blue! Lots of work to do before I leave for T today. I should have asked yesterday for an appt tomorrow but I wasn't in a great mindset when I left so it didn't even cross my mind. I hate how stress/emotions affect ones inner workings. Anyway, hope everyone has a good day. I'm going to snuggle here in the cushions and just pretend to work - maybe fit in a nap, who knows.

I think I would take "wily" as a compliment, but then maybe that's just because I so detest being called "you people". I get called that all day long at work by angry callers, and I hate it!! It also might be because I always liked the cartoon character Wile E Coyote.

The kitten jumped up on my bed last night almost as soon as I laid down, and was doing these huge, great pounces (for her little size!) on my feet and when I moved my hand around under the covers. I'm glad she is finally feeling comfortable enough here to do that! And later she was laying between h and I at least until he realized it and tried to pet her then she bolted. It's hard to leave for work I'd rather play with her all day!

Therapy today things have not been good with therapy these days and after today i wont see her for about 3 weeks . not so sure this wasnt calculated

Granite, it's the holidays. Many people are taking extra time off. Hope your session goes well.

The first one I see is gone for some time too. The he second one, oddly enough is not this year. She will probably then be gone for a month around Feb

chris im so distressed over all that is going on and im stuck in this crap along with her cutting her hours and all the stuff with the holidays there isnt enough time to talk to her and deal with it all .i dont want to deal with any of it .i feel im leaving her office every week like i ive just been through a beating . i dont want that and then not see her for 3 weeks .if she has not already cut her hours

Got T in a few minutes and we're gonna be talking about the stinky x-pdoc. Ugh! Cant believe I still have issues regarding the man. So sickening!

(((granite)))

I think I understand a little. Therapy can be very rough sometimes, the holidays can be very tough as well, and then being left without therapy during the holidays... I really hope you'll have a good session today.

On the road again! Just cant wait to get On the road again!

I can not freaking deal with my family any freaking more. I wish I didn't have to. I wish they would go away. I wish I could disappear or run away or who knows. Hard to get away from your abusers when you can't get away from them.

Ellahmae, it wasn't until after my dad died that I could draw the line and stay away from my mother. It took YEARS of effort in trying to draw safe boundaries and failing, and hankster periodically 'yelling' at me that I just needed to get the **** away from her. If she could stay away from her mother and live through it, so could I. So now I see my mother extremely rarely and generally only when forced to in order to pick up my niece or something. It sucks and people give you fifty million kinds of grief, but it can be done. It is a HUGE relief once you have done it, though.

Thanks, MKAC & FKA: Hankster . Perhaps I need more people to yell at me to just say no. T doesn't yell it at me but you can tell she'd like to bop my mom over the head and tell her to leave me alone, and I'm sure she wishes she could bop me over the head into "just say no" when it comes to her. I'm a mid-thirties woman, with a job, spouse, own my home, cars, 2 furbabies, etc. and I can't say no to my mom and allow her to make me feel like I'm a 10 year old child, terrified every time the phone rings or she texts. It's frustrating and so damn confusing One day I will learn I suppose. Just have to figure out how to get through this weekend alive. Thanks, guys - it feels nice to be heard and understood.

Hey couch. Just found out they cancelled our training and threw us back on the phones and added 12 hrs of overtime to our schedules for the week. Let the games begin...

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I prefer to call it - oh who am i trying to kid? I was yelling. But only because talking nice didnt work on me. Part of it is letting them be who they are and accepting that for what it really is, even if its crappy, instead of always meeting them more than halfway.

by the way, granite... I've ben really furious with my T for the last month or so, because he will be taking three weeks off over Christmas/New Years. Never mind the fact that he actually starts working earlier than I had anticipated (Jan 7 - I'd have thought he'd take that week off, since most people do; Jan 6 is a public holiday). Never mind the fact that he is only taking the minimum leave possible, or that I would not have been able to come to therapy anyway, because H is also off work. I am completely irrational and unfair but I'm still really mad at him... he accepts this and doesn't try to avoid the topic or come up with excuses, but he also doesn't try to do anything to help me (which also pisses me off a bit - but then again, it's not really his job to do that).

No idea if this helps at all - maybe I'm just intruding here. But T holidays are no fun.

i hate my T right now i want to be dead i really do . i cant win in my life i really cant no matter how i try to work things im horrible and there is no way around it . god i wish i was just dead

Okay, okay! You can do ALL the driving while Ellahmae and I relax.

We pick up granite first stop.

You should all take a holiday in Sweden. (Though probably not at this time of year!)

Yes! Granite will come too! PC couch road trip.
My heritage is Swedish. I would love to go!

Some people yelled at me to dump Madame T. But did I listen?

Your H loves you and so do we.

I am totally prepared for my life-or-death presentation on Friday. So all I can do now is worry.

thanks guys