Couch 104 - The Couch Without A Catchy Title

growlycat · Dec 13, 2015, 03:36 AM

Please stay Ellahmae!!!

I'm hoping that you don't regret what you texted--hoping that it will be a relief to know T can respond with caring and get you what you need. I get it--I've gone years without asking friends or family for anything. Years before that, I couldn't ask T either. But it is always a nice surprise when you can lean on people.

Dec 13, 2015, 06:45 AM

((((((Ellahmae))))))

Dec 13, 2015, 06:53 AM

Just got back from work. Because I have a pressure sore on my stump I was without prosthetic and on crutches and therefore couldn't do the most anxiety-provoking stuff.

I didn't even once count the minutes until I could go home.
And I got a nice 'tip' from my employer (a third of my normal earnings of today! = as if I had worked an additional 100 minutes) as well as a Christmas gift: a gift card for the biggest electronics store around here.

Next possibility of working is in late January (then is the next time this event is hosted, but the list of who has to work hasn't been posted yet) - it would have been Boxing Day, but the event was cancelled for some reason. I'm glad it's so far away in the future - saves me a lot of pressure.

stopdog · Dec 13, 2015, 09:13 AM

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Originally Posted by Ellahmae

I'm sorry. I'm whining and it's dumb. I'll get over it. Things just keep getting harder and I wish I could find an air pocket to catch my breath but I just keep drowning. I'll stop crying on the couch now. Sorry, all.

I would hope this was a reasonably safe place for that sort of thing

precaryous · Dec 13, 2015, 11:02 AM

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Originally Posted by Ellahmae

I just royally embarrassed myself to my T. hate this. I hate everything. I'm a freaking adult but feel like such a child. So alone. So confused. I need something but don't know what and everything inside hurts. I'm sorry couch I just needed a place to let it out.

I relate to this.

I don't know if this will be helpful...but I have been through a horrid needy week where I've had to hide my anxiety and sadness from family and act "normal." I had to be more active than I am used to being..be more social than I am used to being...confront childhood memories head on...go to a funeral..its been a mess.

I have told T all about it in therapy and on the phone. Omgosh, I've needed comfort. A few nights ago I couldn't stop bursting into tears...and couldn't sleep. I called T at 10:3opm and she was so understanding and patient.

I just let go and hoped that T would catch me. And she did.

You let go, I hope you find that T will catch you.

Dec 13, 2015, 01:10 PM

A friend and fellow chorus member was put at the top of the transplant list for a heart only 4 days ago when they put him on a pump, and this morning he received news that they have found him a heart. If all goes with with procurement and transporting back to Dallas, his transplant should happen later today. Praises and prayers for him and his family.

DelusionsDaily · Dec 13, 2015, 02:15 PM

Just stopping in to say a quick hello. I'm going down for a short nap till 3. Then get ready for and head to Taco Bell til 10...might get off early...did last time I was scheduled past 9. Will be back on after work to see how everyone is doing. Good afternoon/evening(at least in my area) all! Be back soon.

kecanoe · Dec 13, 2015, 02:16 PM

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Originally Posted by growlycat

People are kissing cats again? LOL couch. I admit to being a person who has given a cat a belly raspberry just to see the look of shock and indignity on kitty's face.

I had a terrible week at work like a bad nightmare. I found some old citalopram that I had squirreled away and took about 40mgs. Feeling spacey now. Kind of pissed at my medical team--my MD never has time for an appointment and the young psychiatrist I met with was expensive and useless. I feel like I'm becoming medically depressed again. I'm much more open right now to the idea of medication because every day I cry and the crying doesn't make me feel better. Work just makes me feel constantly angry.

Even for those of us w/a decent salary and health insurance, psychiatric care and options really really suck. Hospital care for a crisis is horrible and traumatizing. Yes I feel like I am heading towards needing crisis help. Any ideas?

Maybe a new MD or pdoc? If you need meds, please get them. In my experience it is better to get the meds as an outpatient.

What about community mental health? Not a great option, but around here they will happily put you on meds. Then see your MD or pdoc for follow-up?

Sorry to hear you feel a crisis looming. Hang in there.

Ellahmae · Dec 13, 2015, 02:50 PM

It was. Thanks. She always is there, I just feel like such a needy nusciene.

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Originally Posted by precaryous

I relate to this.

I don't know if this will be helpful...but I have been through a horrid needy week where I've had to hide my anxiety and sadness from family and act "normal." I had to be more active than I am used to being..be more social than I am used to being...confront childhood memories head on...go to a funeral..its been a mess.

I have told T all about it in therapy and on the phone. Omgosh, I've needed comfort. A few nights ago I couldn't stop bursting into tears...and couldn't sleep. I called T at 10:3opm and she was so understanding and patient.

I just let go and hoped that T would catch me. And she did.

You let go, I hope you find that T will catch you.

I wish I could accept her response she gave but I desperately feel like I needed more than she gave. Guess I should figure out why.. It feels so strange to lean on or need another person. It was never allowed. I was never allowed needs. Feels so foreign and wrong.

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Originally Posted by growlycat

Please stay Ellahmae!!!

I'm hoping that you don't regret what you texted--hoping that it will be a relief to know T can respond with caring and get you what you need. I get it--I've gone years without asking friends or family for anything. Years before that, I couldn't ask T either. But it is always a nice surprise when you can lean on people.

Thanks, SD. I feel like all I do is just complain lately.

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I would hope this was a reasonably safe place for that sort of thing

Dec 13, 2015, 04:14 PM

All the couchies who manage to juggle many jobs as well their own issues. Brave people.

Dec 13, 2015, 04:17 PM

I was thinking the puppy was so intellignet but now I realise he gets his toy bear whenever you say any word beginning with 'b' like breakfast.

Dec 13, 2015, 05:20 PM

Just sending out hugs to whoever needs/wants them. I've been busy cooking and doing laundry today! I made some cookies, a humongus meatloaf, (real) mashed potatoes, steamed fresh green beans, it smells so yummy in here. And clothes are put away, towels folded/put away, I feel so accomplished ha ha. One more week and a day of training, then I go back to being on the phones, then it will be Christmas which I'm working cuz it's double time and a half, then it will be January and I will be working Jan 1 for double time and a half again and lots of overtime the rest of January!

Dec 13, 2015, 05:26 PM

Hey all, just popping into the couch to say I'm having a bit of a break from PC.
Best wishes to everyone and wishing you all happy and peaceful holidays if I haven't returned before then

stopdog · Dec 13, 2015, 07:12 PM

EM - happy holidays to you also.

This time of year brings out all sorts -often the hostile and the batshit crazy- everywhere, even on forums. Sometimes I wonder how the myth of it being a super happy time ever got started.

Dec 13, 2015, 07:21 PM

My cat, Psychopuss, used to stealth hug you. She'd sit on your lap til you forgot about her then she'd jump up put he r paws around your neck and headbutt you. She was especially delighted if your nose bled.

unaluna · Dec 13, 2015, 08:21 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

EM - happy holidays to you also.

This time of year brings out all sorts -often the hostile and the batshit crazy- everywhere, even on forums. Sometimes I wonder how the myth of it being a super happy time ever got started.

Remembering that history is one of my worst subjects - arent we just pretending to be cheerful to ward off the evil spirits who are stealing the sun? Stg like that? Whistling in the dark so to speak?

Eta - there is something joyful in this recovering perfectionist's purposefully posting possum poop on the internet!

JaneTennison1 · Dec 13, 2015, 08:25 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

EM - happy holidays to you also.

This time of year brings out all sorts -often the hostile and the batshit crazy- everywhere, even on forums. Sometimes I wonder how the myth of it being a super happy time ever got started.

Not to mention, it's going to be a full moon!! Double crazy trouble.

atisketatasket · Dec 13, 2015, 08:28 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

EM - happy holidays to you also.

This time of year brings out all sorts -often the hostile and the batshit crazy- everywhere, even on forums. Sometimes I wonder how the myth of it being a super happy time ever got started.

And on the Couch it has brought out those who bite pets or kiss them on the mouth or nibble their ears.

I'm pretty sure Hell froze over when you nibbled your puppy's ears.

atisketatasket · Dec 13, 2015, 08:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

My cat, Psychopuss, used to stealth hug you. She'd sit on your lap til you forgot about her then she'd jump up put he r paws around your neck and headbutt you. She was especially delighted if your nose bled.

Psychopuss sounds like a real handful, but I have to say, I admire her spirit.

healed84 · Dec 13, 2015, 08:35 PM

Bark my kitty decided to plop herself right where I was wrapping presents! Silly kitty!

Couch 104 - The Couch Without A Catchy Title

precaryous · Dec 13, 2015, 08:38 PM

Catwoman :

Dec 13, 2015, 09:03 PM

My cats love to pounce on wrapping paper and poke little holes all through it with their claws. I usually close them out of the room whilst I wrap presents....

JaneTennison1 · Dec 13, 2015, 09:10 PM

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Originally Posted by artemis-within

My cats love to pounce on wrapping paper and poke little holes all through it with their claws. I usually close them out of the room whilst I wrap presents....

Speed holes....helpful

StressedMess · Dec 13, 2015, 09:17 PM

My cats like to perforate electric cables, and furniture. Hence the newest, most inappropriate member of our household:

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The luxurious leather couch covered in a light colored slipcover. What exactly made me think this was a good idea? Well, it is ever so washable, unlike the leather. And I love the cottage-esque look.

Didn't love the time spent designing, cutting, and sewing; but it did beat the alternative (lying around like a slug!)

Happy thoughts for my couchies!

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