Yesterday I had an app. with my Pdoc of 2 years she called me a liar basicly,...she gave me my new prescription of some A word "OCD" med....its insane she thinks I"m OCD she has since I've been to her I keeptelling mom I'm not, I wwish I where because the meds I've taken might have helped. I'm depresesed, I have clinical depression whats so hard......well I broke down in tears ran out and tore it up, cussed my dad.......it was horrible I have no idea who I am anymore.......my mom went in and got a new prescription I wonder what my Pdoc said when my mom told her.......I'm so alone.....not even the mental health world likes me........

[(JD)]

I'm so sorry you are feeling so poorly.

Ok now, did you tell the PDoc your level of education so he could consider your self-diagnosis?

I'm sorry you were so upset and acted out in frustration. What if you do suffer with some OCD and the medicine helps you? Wouldn't that be a good thing?

Did the PDoc tell you all the reasons why she says you are OCD?

What did she say that you say she called you a liar? I think these things are good to air out, personally.

(((moonkin)))

Ok sry I wasn't clear I sorda threw that post together outta of frustration. My Pdoc who I've been seeing for 2 years almost says I"m OCD because I dwell on my depression ....I almost laughed and cried at the sametime beacuse I think its silly I mean of course I dwell on depression, its stress, everyone does. She thinks treating the dwelling is the key, my opinion is clearing up the depression then I won't have any "dwelling or obessing", as far as that I have no other OCD symtoms I even read a book about OCD its totally different to me. As far as the meds go she's given me OCD meds before they DON'T WORK nor do the "depression" meds, I'm sorry If I seem upset I'm just so tired right now I'm sry (((Sky))) thanks for posting. She called me a liar beacuse I said "yes Ed( my old T) said cymbalta wasn't much to worry if you missed a dos(talkling about missing dosases) She looked at me saying with a very harsh look " huh no anti depressent will hurt to miss and got all rude" calling me basicly a liar that my T said that. Anyawy.....I'm so far out......I just wonna die almost......

[tranquility]

Moonkin,

I'm sorry you're upset. Try to relax and when you see the pdoc again, talk about this and tell her that you don't feel you are OCD. But, more importantly, the diagnosis is not the most important thing. The most important thing is to find a medication that will help no matter what the diagnosis is.

I looked at your bio and saw that you were born on 3/2 and that you are 17 - I was born on 3/2 only 25 years before you. So, you are a beautiful, emotional, and intelligent Pices just like me so you will persevere just like I have.

((((((Moonkin))))))

Tranquility

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Moonkin,

I'm sorry you're upset. Try to relax and when you see the pdoc again, talk about this and tell her that you don't feel you are OCD. But, more importantly, the diagnosis is not the most important thing. The most important thing is to find a medication that will help no matter what the diagnosis is.

I looked at your bio and saw that you were born on 3/2 and that you are 17 - I was born on 3/2 only 25 years before you. So, you are a beautiful, emotional, and intelligent Pices just like me so you will persevere just like I have.

((((((Moonkin))))))

Tranquility

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(((tranquility)))

(( Moonkin ))

Fears and nerves flare up when we first start treatment or return to it. It is stressful.

I hope you state your opinions pro and con about your treatment including meds to your pdoc.

Meds may help you feel better so you can take advantage of therapy to get to the underlying issues contributing to your depression. That is where the help is that will last.

Are you wondering if the pdoc has judged you because you were upset about the Rx and tore it up? I think instead she might have been surprised or curious about what you were thinking, feeling, and fearing. Keep at it, stay with it, and you'll find the mental health field has some of the most caring and supportive people who have no desire to judge, just to help.

We all do things we wish we hadn't. Feeling the embarrassment or regret is so normal, even if it is hard. Luckily we can acnowledge it and talk abuot it and go on. As you stay with therapy you'll get used to things like this and your emotional reactions will begin to even out and feel better instead of spiking, roller coastering which is so nerve-wracking.

You're doing good, Moonkin! Stay with it! Learn all you can!

hugs