[Lothlorien]

Well this post is going to be a bit of a tearful rant, I like you guys so I'll try to be brief.

My pdoc of the last 6 months seems ok and was recommended by my T (whom I am very happy with) so I've been keeping all of my appointments with pdoc etc...

I've been looking forward to seeing pdoc today because when you're as depressed as I am even paying someone to be kind to you for 15 minutes is a highlight of the week.

So I went today and I was pretty sure he was going to up my meds another notch so I'll be closer to the target doses which gives me a tiny ray of hope to hold onto.

Well he knows lack of money has been the theme of my life for the past 4 years since my ex checked-out of our life and works under the table to avoid child support. So what does my pdod say to me today..... He reveals to me that he pays his ex-wife $4,000 a month in child support and alimony and it gets better, she just bought a new house in one of the wealthiest communities in our state. Oh, and did I mention she's a shrink too????? I have to budget to pay this doc and it's nice to know where my money goes, aaargh!

So out of MY 15 minute appointment I had to spend 4 minutes listening to him and how generous he is with his ex and kids. How idiotic and clueless can a person be?

At the end of the appointment he tells me that he's not upping my meds HE wants to give it a little more time. There goes my ray of hope.

I have a very hard time speaking up for myself in front of men when I'm so depressed so I just took it (What a wimp). I managed to get out the front door before I burst into tears.

Needless to say I have a message into my T for new referrals.

Love you guys, thanks for listening.

Loth

[WinterRose]

((((Lothlorien))))

[Caramee]

OH MY!

I am totally angry for you. What a complete failure of basic human empathy let alone professional attunement.

What a jerk.

Would you consider writing a letter letting him know what he did and how it made you feel? It might make you feel better and he obviously needs a lesson in basic decent human interactions. In a similar situation, I have even asked for my money back and gotten it.

I am sorry this happened to you especially in a place where we go to seek help and expect to see people who are trained to understand our feelings and life situations.

WHAT A JERK!!!!

[Lothlorien]

((((Winter)))) Thanks

[Lothlorien]

I think I will write him once I've calmed down a bit. I'm just so anrgy and disappointed right now.

Thank you Caramee. *hugs*

[sunrise]

That was very unprofessional of him to tell you that. The subtext is that he has issues with paying his wife so much. Otherwise, why would he ever tell you? Very unprofessional.

Your money is going to pay your pdoc, not his ex-wife. It is up to him to pay his bills out of his salary. The divorce settlement is simply one of his bills. At least he is paying his bills (unlike your ex---I'm so sorry). Even though she is buying a new house, he may have got other property in the settlement, such as their primary residence, which may be worth a bundle, but that's not a part of the story he is choosing to tell you. Keep in mind that you are being manipulated to think what he wants by his choosing only certain pieces to tell you. His unprofessionalism really boggles the mind.

Hang in there, Lothlorien, and try not to think about your Pdoc's personal problems.

[Lothlorien]

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Indeed it does.

My T returned my call tonight and I told her all about it. She gave me a couple of referrals and I'll see her on Thurs at the regular time. I'm feeling better after talking with her. ((T))

Lothlorien

I once told a therapist that if he wanted to talk about him.....

... he could pay ME!!

That must have been very hard to hear him talk about. I hope you were able to tell him how you felt.