The Couch - 109: CIX-Reintroduction

Artie - back when relationships were still an option for me (not sure when that ship sailed) i called it buying into another persons lifeview and or their version of crazy. Now after all of ts unconditional positive regard - idk. How do you keep the negative from eventually outweighing the positive?

I don't really know. I guess that is the question of the day! She also asked me if I did leave him, would I want to be with another man? or with a woman? I didn't even have to think about it, immediately answered honestly "I would want to be be alone". And for long enough to figure out exactly what I do want. And I said that's what I can't tell my h - I can't tell him that I think about wanting to be alone, because I don't want to hurt him, because I feel so responsible for him, meh.

(I think that when I fell and hit my head awhile back, it knocked something into place because I have been talking to t more unabashedly than ever since then. I mean I've always been open and honest with her, but it's insanely easy lately!!)

(((granite)))

Why does having a fever equal horrible joint pain and back pain? And why do my children get on my nerves 1000 times more when I'm sick, versus when they are sick? I think they are lacking empathy, and I am lacking patience.

Here's to waking up miraculously healed tomorrow so the entire weekend won't be a bust.

Hugs (from a germ free distance) for granite and those couchies who are hurting. High-five Art, both on the car and the epiphany!

(((Granite)))

T responded to my email saying "Thank you, Art, you have great depth and insight." That made me feel good. I'm still going to take a break, ha ha, but it made me feel good!

my mistake was to think that any of them were actually my friends. i have corrected this

I'm sorry this happened, granite.

thanks art im kind of tired of things right now

*checks out @@'s butt...*

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Reminds me, I really need to start doing squats again...I loathe squats.

I starting the 21 day fix in a week.. Shakeology, clean eating and 30min workouts a day.. I think squats are in my near future

Remember, to have any effect, a squat needs to have your butt go below your thighs when they're parallel to the ground, if not to the ground itself. Which is why I hate them - my knees feel like they'll pop.

Eeek! Maybe I have never done a real squat in my life. Lol

I get that. Thisis why I actively repel what I see as overly-friendly advances irl. ((granite))

Hi, checking in, Couchies.

Surgery done Thursday. Came home Friday. Next visit with ENT is this coming Thursday for biopsy results. I think everything's going to be fine. ENT said specimen was not "nasty-looking." It was pretty large, though. The best place for it is in a specimen jar. :-)

Hmm. I have been trying to lose weight- maybe I'll get my neck back after all.

So so tired. It is only 9PM and I took a 2 hour nap earlier. Hap this super sweet pie as a snack and cant get the super sweet taste outta my mouth despite having brushed twice. Ugh! I'm so tired! Cant go to bed this early though.

I feel your hurt!

((( big hug )))

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Dont forget we lose an hour. So its really ten oclock. I hate this day!!

In Arizona we don't change our time, but you know what's stupid? My schedule is changing to an hour earlier because the rest of the country DOES! ppppbbbbbbttttt at the powers that be at work!

Im gonna try slanty lunges and squats to start. Some things just dont bend, im afraid they will break!

Now that you mention it - did you guys ever start doing MLK Day? Bad state! (Hey if trump can say "bad people"...!)

i LOVE squats...don't like lunges as much, mainly because it hurts my wonky knee.

Got any tips for how to love squats? They would be appreciated.

WONKY another word I love.