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I'm sorry to still be harping on about this but I feel as though this is something I still need to talk about.
As some of you may have read in my last post, I have decided to quit seeing my current T. I found her approach (psychodynamic) was making me feel worse and she was not able to give me what I need (mainly emailing her in-between sessions). I would get so anxious during our sessions that I would shut down and totally disconnect from the conversation which obviously made it very difficult to engage in the therapeutic process. In-between sessions I would have all these emotions left to deal with but my T wouldn't really offer any coping strategies as that isn't really part of her practice. Her whole approach is about gaining a better understanding of your feelings and and greater "sense of self" which will help to reduce any "psychological tension". I knew all this going in and thought it would be helpful to me but after experiencing it I realised it wasn't what I need at this point in time. Anyway, I'm now having second thoughts on all of this. I know that often things can get worse before they get better so maybe I just need to ride this out? I emailed my T telling her want to cancel my next session and take a break from therapy for a while and explained my reasons. I'm now wondering if I should have discussed this with her in person? I became quite attached to this T and experienced some pretty intense transference towards her (both positive and negative feelings). I know this is something I need to work through but I'm not sure I can do it with this T as everything was just way too intense. Also, the thought of being on my own without a T for a while is kind of scary ![]() |
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#2
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No, you did the right thing. Your instincts are the clues to what you need. It may be helpful to hear her out, but it really sounds like she is not right for you. Feeling challenged and uncomfortable can be effective, but only when there is a common feeling of trust. I understand your fear. I am sorry but from what you write, I think you will likely need to look elsewhere.....
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#3
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Have you thought about looking for another t that does allow out of session contact if needed, and, offers coping techniques?
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![]() I think you're right. I can see how this type of therapy could possibly benefit me in the future but not right now. |
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Oh man, I still don't know if this was the right decision. I keep thinking that I should at least talk to my T in person about this. I really don't want to leave her now. In my email I just said I needed to take a break for a while not that I am quitting for good. I just feel so ambivalent about the whole thing and I don't know what to do. I already miss T and I haven't even really left her yet.
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Sounds like you are really struggling with your own conflicting feelings right now. Which is stronger, the urge to leave or to stay?
It sounds like attachment stuff, does your t look at this with you? There has been quite an ambivalent relationship with this t all along. A kind of push pull kinda relationship. Perhaps if you could go back and focus on your relationship with her and what's happening in your interactions with each other could help. Psychodynamic tends to focus on the past too much and yes a lot of our issues and attachment styles are formed in the past but looking at what's happening in the room for you both could be very rewarding. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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When I felt like this, unable to chose between staying and leaving, I opted to take an 'open-ended break' from T1 and see another T in the meantime. Two months after taking the break. I arranged a final 'goodbye session' with T1 and T2 became my permanent therapist.
Those two months gave me some valuable thinking time, as well as a chance to see how I would be with another therapist. It took me the whole two months to decide, and I think that time was vital. |
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It may be that it is not that psychodynamic therapy s not right for you, but it is the specific therapist. Psychodynamic therapy with a different therapist may feel completely different. Personally I think that it may gut be worth discussing your thoughts with this at before you stop, but I also think it is important not to ignore your gut feeling if that is telling you that it just doesn't feel right.
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If nothing else, conflicting feelings themselves need to be investigated and worked with? It is good you are taking a week to do the book club thing, that will give you a little more perspective on "leaving" and standing the tension of being with/not being with this therapist and perhaps help with the email/during the week anxiety?
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Thanks Perna, I agree that is important to try and work through this. I have a tendency to abandon relationships when things aren't going well or I feel disappointed in the other person and this situation with my T could be a good opportunity to change that.
I feel really stupid and annoying for telling her I'm quitting only to email her a few days later saying I want to come back. Although I guess being a therapist she is used to this kind of behavior so I probably shouldn't worry about it. I haven't actually emailed her to say I want to come back yet but I think I will be soon. |
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This is partly why I also felt the need for email contact. It wasn't healthy, to pull on all these different threads, and then have to wait a week to resume. Could you do a tapering process? |
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Instead of email can you write it down and pass it to T to read when you get there?
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My opinion is to trust yourself. I stayed far too long with mine and that was damaging to me in the long run. I could only see that once I was out. You know better than anyone else what you need. I also had the inability to talk during sessions and I did not experience that anymore with the Ts I've had since then.
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