The Couch - Cent Dix (110): A Little Bit of Everything, A Whole Lotta Nothing

I'm in nap-hangover phase right now, went to sleep with a headache and woke up worse. Probably need to put some protein and fluids in my stomach and get on with my day. Spring!

Hey couch!! Got home from t a little bit ago, had a really good session as usual lately. We talked a little about my son wanting to start therapy. She said from what she's learned about him through me, we might want to look into an art therapist for him, like a sand play therapist, because he is an artistic person with his love of music. For awhile I had my own sand tray at home with a small assortment of miniatures, and my son created scenes in it a couple of times. He said he's not opposed to the idea, but that he thinks he would prefer to just do talk therapy. I'm glad he's got an opinion, I sure didn't have an opinion before I started with current t. I just totally lucked into the perfect situation for what I need. I'm feeling SO much better about it all after your guys's thoughts, and after talking it over with t. I've been able to pretty darn quickly get over my panic and think rationally.

And also thanks to y'all I have written a new affirmation for myself:

"I, Artie, am the ONLY person on this entire planet who I need to be okay with who I am." I told that to t this morning, that while I'm not there yet that's where I'm working to get to, and she absolutely beamed at me and said "I am so happy for you." I'm all settle down, I'm not there yet.... but I think that's been the goal of my therapy all along and I just didn't know it. At one point neither one of us was talking I was just kinda looking out the window reflecting on something and then I looked at her and she was grinning at me again. I'm like "WHAT?!" And she said "nothing, I'm just smiling at you." I said "Well quit it." I'm not sure why she does that... but yes. I love this relationship. How can I not.

Had non-stop dreams about T last night. Can't remember a thing about any of them. Feel quite flat this morning.

Why does my t have to be so sensible!? I emailed him yesterday after my appointment commenting on how the session felt off.. And he responded by apologizing saying it was probably him he hasn't been sleeping very well and was exhausted by the time my appointment came around. I was feeling annoyed with him, and even scheduled an appointment at 8am knowing he is not a fan of early morning appointments because I was annoyed he cancelled my appointment last week and then this week told me that he is taking Friday this up coming week off too! Now I just feel bad for being annoyed with him!

You're allowed to be annoyed even if people have a good explanation and are sensible people. It still impacted you, you're still allowed to feel the feelz.

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Have to go to my sister's tomorrow for a combination Easter and birthday party for my youngest nephew. I'm already preparing for the multiple panic attacks I'm about to receive. It's just not natural for that many people to be inside her house at one time. Ah, well, here's to playing in the rain if things get tough. Good night couch.

Well with recent events/frustrations with medicaid I'm weaning off slowly first one 8 more days the other will take 2-3 months. I'M DONE! I give up. Hopefully it all works out. It will I'm confident. It has to be.

Wow, a few days away and the couchies come out to play. Too behind to catch up now.

I will just jump back in here. Just got home from meeting the children's home house parent to pass of the Easter baskets I made the kids in the house. They are just starting out, so there are only 4 kids right now until they expand. We always meet late as I work and she can't get away from home till her husband gets home to be with the kids. I also passed off some needed house items (like toilet paper and band-aids). I am sponsoring the next birthday coming up in May. I already sponsored 2 birthdays earlier this year (when they had 6 kids, but 2 kids (the two with birthdays) went back to live with their bio parents) and have fun, so this one should be a blast too. This time is it a little boy instead of girls like before. The little boy who wanted a life-size lion from Toys-R-Us for Christmas. Which I got him. He loves lions and the zoo, so I should start thinking of special things related to that to get to add to what he'll request. I like helping children in need. I have no kids of my own (and don't want any), so I have to find someone to spoil. I used to spoil the kids in the autistic class I worked in, but I am no longer in that room, so I had to find someone else to get my spoiling fix on.

I have to work CVS tomorrow. I did not volunteer, nor was I asked if I would work Easter, but I was scheduled. I guess since I volunteered to work July 4th and Thanksgiving (we were closed Chrisrtmas), the pharm manager just assumed I wouldn't mind. And I really don't. I get time and a half. I'll just have to deal with being called a heathen by my dad and his wife.

Come share it with me! We could have lots of books and booze in there

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(((Squirrel))) you are NOT a heathen! Somebody has to pull the ***** out of the ditch!

The birthday party sounds neat. You are totally sweet.

That sounds amazing!! Easter was a disaster with my mom. Tried to talk with my h about what happened. To him, it's a burden and hardship for his family. REALLY!!!

I shared a moment that made an impact on my life. That was his response. No compassion. No empathy. No emotion except for it was an inconvenience to him and his boys because of the way I reacted to it.

So... KLove playing, Mikes's margarita and a pack of cigarettes. I'd love to hang and talk in that place!!

That response was really reactive. Please forgive me. My heart just wants a safe place so badly.

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Trail Runner,

Please don't feel sorry. The couch is a safe space <3

Does anyone here like Rick Springfield? I ask because guess what? He gave me a hug tonight!! H and I went to his concert here at a local casino, and during the song "Human Touch" he came down off the stage and was winding his way through the first like half of the audience shaking hands with people, I was standing up dancing of course and put my hand out to try to shake his hand like everybody else around me was, and instead of shaking my hand, he came over and put his arm around me and hugged me!! I grabbed his arm and hugged it I'm still tickled to pieces. Hubby had gone to the bathroom just before this happened.

OH! MY! G WHATEVER!!! He is one of my favorite memory singers!!

I have been on quite the emotional roller coaster this week...

Bless you!! Went to my moms today thinking and expecting the same thing.

As usual, I got laid out there belly up, for whatever reason... I don't understand. My brother even jumped on the train this time.

Excused myself and went to plant the flowers I brought to her for Easter/Mothers day. Thinking in my mind, I could go back in there and explain to them, what they were just throwing me under the bus and laughing about was completely terrifying and scary to me. They don't understand that it demoralizes me when they do that to me.

WOW! Lucky you. My claim to fame is my Aunt lived around the corner from Rick Springfield when he was a kid. She said he was a delightful young man.

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happy easter everyone

Thanks, granite, happy Easter yourself!

Well...just popping in before leaving for CVS. Here's hoping that the holiday keeps people home and we are not crazy busy. The stupid corporate scheduler would only allow the pharm manager to schedule 2 techs today. That means we will each be running 2 stations. We can do it as long as we are not slammed. Hopefully the holiday will keep people away.

Happy Easter everyone!

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wow my son cant even acknowledge that i said happy easter to him on FB to heck with him and family im hiding in my craft room for the day and to heck with everyone else

Maybe he has not seen it yet, Granite. I pretty often don't respond to things on Facebook. It does weird things to me.