Couch 122 - Doin' what we do!

SD i hope you feel ok this morning

Thanks. I am okay. I drank a lot of pedialyte before I went to sleep.
I seem to do better at dictating rather than typing on an ipad when inebriated.

I love pedialyte. I always have some pops in the freezer.

We keep it around for my person when the mouth sores get bad. I think it tastes/smells bad, but it can be useful.

My T made me promise not to hurt myself in anyway until he's back from vacation (which is in an eternity)

Feeling awful. I can't stand this, but don't want to disappoint him... Any suggestions? Sorry for bothering you with this

stopdog: Did you enjoy your evening?

Yes - it was just a small quiet group. The last time I had hard liquor was probably when I reported the gin and dubonnet earlier this summer. I really do not drink very much. So it was not that I had all that much - just that it was more than I usually have and I am a lightweight in general when it comes to alcohol.

Welcome to the Couch, Purple Dog!

Sometimes the couch moves fast...feel free to jump on in...

Thanks so much! I've always been a little quiet, so this is kind of new to me!

SD glad you are ok

Purple dog welcome!!!!

Hey all,
How is everyone? I hope things are ok at least. Sorry I don't post more. I have been reading and keeping up.

Anger and anxiety are difficult to control right now. Really don't want to go on meds. I feel like they dulled my emotions and that's why they are so strong right now. Although if I don't find a way to contain/work through(or whatever you wanna call it) I might have to try something. I see T but not until October 12 at 2pm. I don't even know what to tell her or how much. No depression or mania so that's good which would have been my Nurse Practitioners primary concern when going off the meds. I don't see her anymore she just did my meds so I had her close my case.

Thanks you!

Exhaustion + Wine + Unethical Former Therapist =

I am all bundled up in sweat pants and sweat shirt. We went from 95 degrees to 59 degrees with almost nothing in between

I hear alcohol warms the insides.

Especially Scotch. And probably port.

Someone tell me that I shouldn't e-mail my T whilst under the influence of alcohol. I have written (and spoke with her on the phone!) while inebriated and its been okay...but still, I may have regretted it a bit.

She just cancelled monday's session today bc she needs to go out of town (family emergency i am guessing?), so I don't want to bother her. That would be the adult thing to do, right?

Yeah...i am close to making that decision, except it is bourbon, and my T so far has not been unethical.
FALL. I WANT IT HERE NOW. I opened my windows tonight and turned off the AC and it is GLORIOUS. I do not expect it to last. There is always more warm days in the future, but at least fall is slowly creeping in.

One should not drink and contact the therapist. It generally seems to lead to undue self-flagellation, embarrassment, fear of therapist response, and so on.

My second public service announcement for the evening: dill pickle popcorn is not a delicious popcorny treat.

I have to say - sober contact with the therapist often seems to lead to the same result.

Eta: maybe you should send the woman some dill pickle popcorn as a get-well present.

Indeed - any contact with a therapist is fraught with peril. But inebriated contact seems to enhance it, there is embarrassment both over the contact and the revelations and one has only one's self to blame.

Um...then who's to blame for sober contact?

(I am speaking theoretically - not criticizing anyone.)

When sober, one's inhibitions are not chemically altered by external means. The blame is for self induced lowered inhibitions and contact in a fashion one would not have engaged in but for the outside factors - not the same as chosen contact when sober. But if you see no difference, then okay.

Wow a therapy book written for therapists where they tell the therapist to apologise genuinely.

I should send No. 1 a copy...

The example was like when the first one mocked me and then blamed me
"I thought our relationship had evolved to where I could say such things to you. I guess I was wrong"