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Therapy hangover here, too. And H and daughter will be home in about 5 minutes...

That's great that you asked for the extra time and were able to get it though! And meant to comment on your earlier post about how well your son handled the contact from his ex. You clearly did a great job raising him!

I wish there were a cure for this neediness.

i know its not so important to anyone but i just want to say again it felt really nice that my T called me this morning .she doesnt ever do this often. it actually helped with my stress level some .i didnt feel quite so alone . like someone other then my husband was thinking about all this . am i stupid or setting my self up for disappointment that she might be thinking about all that is going on with me . i think it is a set up if i do . but maybe just for a little bit for today .

((Artemis))

The cure for neediness is lots and lots of hugs.

It's important to me, because it brought you feelings of well-being and peace. I think it's lovely that she called to check on you and I don't blame you for doubting her. I live in constant watchfulness waiting for the other shoe to drop. (What the heck does that even mean?) also I understand not wanting people to see you while you're feeling helpless, I do that too. (((Granite)))

It is important granite, I'm so glad you were able to let her care about you, to allow yourself to feel cared about. And I'm so glad she called. You are not stupid at all.

It's the last baseball game of the year!

Thanks CE! I'm wishing I had gotten one from t before I left! But this deep work that we were doing man it makes me feel all spacey and out of it. I need to get it together though cuz we're taking our son out to dinner to celebrate his 18th birthday today and he'll be home from work anytime now.

T said something really nice to me as I was leaving her office today - I just remembered it - she said "Thank you for being you." We were doing some really deep work today, and well there was no way for me to even try to be anything else but me... no pretending possible when we go there... I'm still trying to swim my way back up... this work is really hard right now, but it was a good session even so. So very glad I asked to go for a full session instead of the half one we had planned.

update on my son's ex girlfriend so he did a very very good thing last night. I am glad she's getting help.

For all our complaining about them, sometimes they really do come thru when the going gets really tough. Like delusions daily's t gave her a longer session this week. I think, hey smoke em if you got em. Why not.

Yes, it is important! How sweet of your T. I'm very glad T is showing she cares and is thinking about you. And I'm glad you are letting her caring "in."

I can relate because when I was in the hospital with a small stroke -my T called me at least once a day. She would especially call me in the evening before bedtime. She sounded encouraging and caring. It was the best way to close out the evening.

You take good care, granite.

This game is going to give me a heart attack.

There you all go, speaking mandarin again. (and yes I am talking about both baseball talk and the art/exhankster therapy/therapist discussion)

Granite, thinking of you and I'm so happy that your T thought of you and was concerned for you. That is a major comfort to me when someone shows they care for me and my wellbeing (physically or heartfelt) it makes all the difference!

I'm hoping it goes 15 innings. Minimum.

Yes! No bedtime for me then. Already to late for me to take my sleepy pills.

I'll leave off baseball for a minute to speak in your language. Today my psychiatrist gave me an ultimatum: her way on treatment or the highway. I picked the highway. So I'm very anti-mental health professional just now.

I say good job. Those guys can get very high handed.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh

May lengthen the season!

I just got home and turned on the tv to catch up on all the baseball excitement. All I see is a tarp on the field, so it's looking like a whole lot of nothing going on. It's hard to tell the difference between this and when the players are on the field.

Don't laugh (at least, not too loudly) but has anyone ever expressed yourself through something like interpretive dance during a therapy session? I sorta did something like that today. Because talking wasn't coming out right. It actually helped me go deeper, and connect with that place inside me that is the truest me. And we ended up doing some really good work today. I don't know what came over me, must have been the drum (t was drumming at the time). But it worked.

And I think I should get bonus points for when she started to sign her emails Dr. X, I started to sign mine Dr. Y.

I threw that "sometimes" in there especially for you, my heart throb smiley face.