Couch 140: Knocking pans

Good lord of course one cannot just hope and expect it to work out. One must take proactive measures to ensure.
That would be a fortunate result indeed.

We seem to have lost some people from the forum. Just wanted to wish them well and thank them for what they brought to the community.

Luc-- I hope no one ever one-ups your flamingo dress, but I did acquire a turtle and snail dress and I hope it will bring me similar luck.

And mine's out of town this week. Darn.

Oh SD you know you secretly luv us.

In emoji/blinky, that would be:

Erm. Guess who didn't get anything done with the spreadsheet. I have to leave for rehearsal soon so that ship has sailed.

But I did lots of other stuff! And I got started on some fire escape gardening too.

Made it to the beach

It has been raining non stop for 3 days now. It is not doing my mood any good. The 14 year old and the puppy have cabin fever and are driving me spare, my yard is flooded. I appreciate the rain I hope a lot of it falls the dam, it's just so depressing that's all.

That blinky is labelled hissy fit - which is not my response - mine is more detached haughty disdain.

I think I am not meant to have this phone. I have been given another PayPal address I have waited for the last transaction to cancel and now PayPal "are experiencing problems" the seller has been extremely patient not like the one I tried to buy a text book off.

Blinky is not a very nuanced or vocabulary-rich language. I had to make do.

Survived the lunch and the home visit! Had a beer, she didn't say anything. Went relatively well. Though I don't think I gave her any useful advice on the family stuff she wanted input on...Ready for a nap now.. And having another beer!

Thanks for all the support!

Turns out I can't pay this seller because the PayPal security is throwing alert about them. I won't pursue this any further.

I know one was Echos, as she was trying to get her account deleted. I recall someone else saying they were going to leave, and they commented on a thread as recently as yesterday, but now I'm blanking on who it was. (Hope we're allowed to talk about this!) Whoever it was, they'll be missed!

I have these louvr Windows which are really great in the heat not so much in the cold

And Stopdog would see the value, I'm sure!

"There is no Kevlar vest. Only in the mind." -- Stopdog San.

"I cannot see the answer. I think you will find it, in time."

By the way, I've been watching reruns of Kung Fu. Can you tell?

An ex once told me that I give very zen advice. Perhaps I could be some sort of Buddhist T?

I think those two would be a good mix, Buddhism and therapy. Isn't one of the primary tenets of Buddhism that life is suffering? I know that I'm at a place right now where accepting that would be tremendously helpful.

My t has various Buddhist paraphinalia around the place, like prayer flags etc

I've dabbled in Buddhism but mindfulness makes a lot more sense after working on it with my T.

Had a couple margaritas with dinner and now I am going to bed early. I am exhausted. H just reminded me while we were waiting for dinner that I had a nightmare last night and I screamed louder than he has ever heard me scream in our almost 20 years of marriage and screaming nightmares. I don't remember it at all. Son is home safe and sound, and I am taking some amount of comfort in t telling me numerous times that when we dream of another person, it's usually not about that person, but an aspect of ourselves. And my son has represented my young animus in more than one dream so perhaps that's all this is. That I don't need my young animus anymore because I have an older version of him now (the Carlos dream I still have to share with y'all) but for now I am going to bed early. Night couchies.

I love mindfulness stuff and I loved when I was in dbt. It's not for everyone but it worked for me when I was actively doing it.

Off topic: I have an appt with my old Pdoc in June. I'm going back on meds. I'm honestly just a better person when I'm in them vs when I'm not on them. So yep, I put myself through the torture of withdrawal off Effexor with no medical intervention, only to decide a few months later that I should really be on it. I feel like a loser now. I stayed off meds for a few months, but every little thing bothers me, I'm snappy at everyone around me and I can't tolerate some things without it.