I need some advice

I for sure do. I have none in real life, my best friend is who is out of the country for 3 weeks is it for me but her and I only talk via text as she lives in another state, so as far as support here where I can talk in real time, just him and I hate that. I don't wanna rely on him but we are working on my issues with people and such so maybe someday I can meet new ppl to "Replace" him with.

I will for sure see his thoughts on the two days thing when I am there Tuesday. Thanks for your reply

It sounds like you have a plan in place that will work for your appointments.

I'm not sure why you think that you aren't as important as his other clients, or why you would be wasting his time. The bottom line, do your sessions with him help you? That's what's important. Discuss your concerns about not having a support system outside of him and your friend. Maybe he can suggest a group (I know not for everyone), that you might be able to take part in that will give you some extra support.

If there is a Mental Health Association near you, (there is an awesome one in my area), reach out and see what they have to offer. They are non-profit and generally run on donations/funding. The one in our area has lots of resources, and provides volunteer opportunities too. Try to build up your support network. I know, it's hard, and honestly I need to take some of my own advice.

Firstly, I have struggled with always feel unimportant/not good enough my whole life. It's one of my issues, heck I wont even buy myself a new pair of shoes unless they are actually falling apart. I always buy on sale too. It's one of the issues I am sure I have to work on but I made this post in hopes of actual advice on how to work through this fear and keep committing to going, which I didn't get. None the less...I will go tomorrow and discuss it there with him.

Secondly....that is a great idea but I also struggle with bad trust issues and meeting new people. We are also working on that. I don't think I can get much new support in my life until I learn to become more trusting of others

Thanks for your nice reply though I'll see how things go tomorrow

Best of luck. I understand. I have trust issues too. I really have a hard time meeting new people and also just with communicating with people I know. It used to bother me a lot, but I've gotten used to it over the years. Don't give up, continue trying.

You are welcome
I understand that the "his job" and "being nice" is confusing. My T asked if I needed an extra session because I was a mess and to me that was because they knew what I am going through and offered extra help. It is their job to see me once a week but they cared enough to ask me if I needed another session without me suggesting it or anything.
Hope Tuesday session goes well for you

Thanks, I am nervous about tomorrow but I'm sure it will be ok. I have no reasons to believe someone can't be nice just because they are doing their job. Some people are doing jobs and are jerks, some are netural and some are actually nice, decent human beings. I think offering extra is a great nice thing to do, on top of the many nice things he has already done for me in 6 weeks.

Besides him moving, retiring, or dying; what if he doesn't leave you?

That's what my T is doing with me. I saw her for 15 months once a week, then 9 months every other week, and now we're at every 4 weeks. The goal is to not have consistent sessions, but to come in only when I need her. She will be my T unless she moves, retires, or dies. When something comes up, she's there for me.

We're at once every 4 weeks because technically I don't "need" her. When I first saw her, I needed her and that's why we went every week. But can you imagine at some point, not needing your T all the time, but knowing he's still there for you when you do need him?

Interesting thought. Well, he has told me something similar ...someday I wont need/want to see him and that I struggle to believe but its been less than 2 months I've gone so far

He also has told me though that he has no plans to move in the next 10 years and anytime I need to come back, I am welcome to. One of his clients has seen him 3 yrs and he goes monthly now and sometimes every other month I guess. so in a way.... it makese sense what your saying, I just struggle to believe I wont need/want to see him someday but we will see i guess