The Couch 146 : The Untouchable, Nontotient, Octahedral, Composite Couch.

*hands over lolly*

I'd say something about how parenting affects children, but since I hate to hear that myself...

I had another PT appointment afterwards with a jaw-specialist something. She put her finger into my mouth to loosen some muscles or something. It was awful. I haven't been to the dentist for so long for a reason

Luco, that could be a vasovagal reaction to having blood drawn. Basically a sudden drop in your blood pressure that's more of a psychological reaction. That happens to me, too, where I usually feel all shaky and sick afterward. I agree that we should get a lollipop!

I spent much of the last 24 hours freaking out that the pelvic ultrasound I had yesterday found something bad, like cancer. I really hope my doctor gets back to me today. I guess I'll try calling if I don't hear something by mid-afternoon. I hope she's not on vacation. I have a ton of work to do today but just want to curl up in a ball. And wish I could talk to MC--sent him an "I'm freaking out--any suggestions on how to chill?" text yesterday evening, but don't even know if he's read it. T's on vacation, so I don't want to bother her. And H hasn't been acting particularly supportive, snapping at me about something minor this morning... In other words, I might be bugging the couch a bit today.

Bug the couch. There's so much I want to write here but afraid the subject (Don't think they're on PC but I really aren't sure) would find out

Write it out anyway... You don't have to send it, but just writing it down might be some more relieve...

I'm dreading my next session and wondering if I shouldn't print out (to give to T) my usual journal which I write in extensively between sessions.

Someone dear to me said I could lose my therapist.

(Demunie) I think I've had that same thing done by my chiropractor for a jaw condition too. I would put that up there in the top three most painful experiences of my life (though thankfully the procedure is very short...)

My chiropractor is no gosling certainly

best.response.ever! I think I need somebody to post it to me, too if I don't stop whining about my current t situation.

I don't think so at all. (((jDNA)))

thanks ruh roh. i guess deep inside i'm still that scared little girl and i guess that is never going to change and i am still afraid that t hates me now and it's going to be so hard to go in there this afternoon i am expecting her to say get out and never come back. at the same time suspecting that part of me wants her to. ugh.

i think that's a lovely idea, elio!! and happy early birthday!

I won't yell at you either, but sounds like you should go to the doctor.

{hands a roll of stickers to luco and a lolly too!}

In other news. Yesterday evening I was showing h a haircut I'm thinking about, it's pretty short and spiky, and he said something like "Oh. Ewww. I hate it. But it's your hair." It was 6pm, i closed my laptop, got up and went to bed without saying another word to him. I slept for 11 hours, I guess I needed it. He's entitled to his opinion, so I don't know why I let it hurt me so much. Probably because i'm so nervous about seeing t later today. Navajo Rabbit.

Art that was such a multiquote I assumed you were velcro posting...

1. I'm hungry but.....
2. Pdoc yesterday wasn't pleasant.
3. My ear hurts and it's making me nauseous and dizzy.
4. Duchess today, and I don't wanna.

My friend snuck into my home and cleaned it yesterday for me whilst I was away. I haven't been able to do anything but work (kinda), sleep, and cry for the past while so it wasn't up to where I wanted it to be to feel 'safe' (if things are dirty then they aren't safe), I literally cried when I got home. I want to repay her somehow but not quite sure how. She won't take money so I'm thinking of nabbing her one day when her husband can stay with the kids and treat her to a pedi.

QM - feel free to PM me anything you want to get off your chest. Sometimes we do need to just say it. It's ok.

Is Informatino the tree nymph? I picture her jumping out from the woods in a nano-nano dress.

That's her. But having seen her, she is at the age where she should be wearing as much clothing as possible.

Daisy - Nyquil gives me nightmares too. I can't take it multiple nights in a row.

Art - isn't the important thing that your husband said "it's your hair"? Trust me, not all husbands would recognize that.

Hi couch.
Is it lunch time yet?
I want to eat all the food that exists.

Wait wait wait. Informatino is the tree nymph?
I kind of want her as my T. Does she accept insurance? I'm willing to travel.

im SEEING T IN A LITTLE OVER AN HOUR AND I AM SO NERVOUS.

i keep thinking to cancel it!!!!!!!

WHY AM I SO INSANE I BEGGED HIM TO SEE ME NOW I WANT TO NOT GO

No insurance, sorry.

Maybe you could Google wood nymph therapy or some such?

I now feel compelled to help you appreciate pulchritude across the decades.

Don't cancel! It will be OK. Plus, you could always leave if you feel the need to.

I'm so afraid it's gonna go real bad and I'm gonna end up feeling upset again

(((Jdna))) I hope your appt goes well.

I am at the chiropractor for the third day in a row for a migraine.

After taking Imitrex about 5 times, apparently I have developed a tolerance (which is ridiculous). Meh.

ADVICE: Start with that line. Tell him when you walk in the door that this is where you are at.

Yes, this is really good advice. Also maybe talk about what to do if you leave session feeling bad again--like can you contact him--and have him respond--if you're in a crisis? I think someone (Ruh Roh maybe?) earlier mentioned having a code word to let him know it's serious.

Dry Needling. I promise. I swear by it. It's not acupuncture, it's called "dry needling". And they have to be certified. I do it and it has been a miracle worker. For migraines they do the neck and back of the head/shoulders. I have a huge fear/phobia/trigger of needles but this is okay.

Ok I'm at Ts. My heart is racing

Everyone jump in my pocket NOW PLZ!!!!

I hope it goes well, junkDNA.