The Couch 146 : The Untouchable, Nontotient, Octahedral, Composite Couch.

How is 146 an octahedral number? I don't see it.

My T texted me that he missed me on 2 vacations of his.. One year I texted him Happy Thanksgiving. He said you too! I am thankful for you

I will admit I had thought briefly at the time that it must have been for someone else.

CE, according to my friend Google, 146 is an octahedral number. Would you mind explaining to me in layman's terms, just exactly what the hell that means?

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cent...ahedral_number

As I suspected, 146 is not on that list.

Okay, i hear that.

I wanted to change from 4 days a week to 1 (eventually went up to 2) because it felt like t was consuming my whole week. The hardest thing about that was claiming my right to say that about myself.

It sounds like rapprochement phase work to me? Im always stuck here, in so many ways.

Thats what ive thought. Yeah my t has his hooks in me.

My t asked me why i decided against it this past weekend. I said well if you can help someone else you should. He goes thats not a very good reason to live. I said i thought i was doing you a favor, keeping you alive, by keeping me alive? He shifted in his seat.

I'm going to read about that, new term for me. But yes it was very hard for me to stick to my guns so to speak and because of that, I can see now after the fact that I became more than a little combative. Maybe because we've been 'together' so long she lets her professional guard down sometimes and says things she should, as the professional, keep to herself. Even more of a reason to take a break now and get some distance from the intensity of stuff.

Mammogram results came--no sign of cancer and no need for rescan now! Now I just have the pelvic ultrasound Tuesday (which my doc is using as an ovarian cancer screening, since my mom had it). At least I can relax for a couple days...

You know what sucks about having therapy Friday late afternoons? I process stuff from appointment, want to email t. But by the time I process it's Friday evening.. and I can expect him to deal with work stuff during weekend. So, I just sit and wait.

And I am so not over our issue from the last week.. and I avoided talking about it today and that was so stupid. He leaves the country for 2 weeks after my appointment next week.. and I am not sure I can keep that appointment. I may not be able to work through this until August. today I don't like therapy.

And today's just seemed rushed.. and like we didn't connect. Ugh.

I'm sorry, Healed...

146 octahedral numberhttps://archive.lib.msu.edu/crcmath/...ath/o/o021.htm

(((Healed))))

But what is the dumbed-down definition of octahedral? I read several sites but it all sounds like Charlie Brown's teacher to me.

Still at the ex place. He has a cupboard filled with benzos and opiates it is very tempting

Sick of healthy coping.. just planned a night of heavy drinking. Tomorrow night will be fun!

When I leave i may take a card of Valium and some endone

Going at billion miles an hour but not moving at all.

It looks like there are two different kinds of octahedral numbers.

How many in a card? It sounds like too much!

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Numbers confuse me esp when you get to things like natural numbers.

I don't like numbers either I'm a words and feeeeeelings person

Numbers are not my friends

As for composite numbers and all that malarkey I can't even begin to get my head around them