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#151
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it was more than a disagreement. it was pretty awful and i didn't share everything that was said. frankly i don't even remember half of it anymore except how i just got angrier as it went on. i have never fought with anyone like that in my entire life. ever. not my siblings, not my h, not friends, no one. i have always just took the blame in the very beginning and slunk off and hid.
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#152
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what makes mine feel marginally better is I heat up my rice sock and lay in the dark with it over my eyes. |
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#153
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I can think my way through feelings, and then not actually feel them.
I like thinking and when things are logical and consistent.
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"Take me with you, I don't need shoes to follow, Bare feet running with you, Somewhere the rainbow ends, my dear." - Tori Amos |
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#154
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I've never had one before! Relieved to hear it's a thing
Oooooouuuchhhhh No more screen time pour moi
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#155
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Speaking of feelings, I'm feeling a lot of them at present. Sometimes I wish I was a robot like RoboT is.
I miss that dumb robot. Sigh. |
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#156
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When one just wants a relaxing ball game to end the week with and they have to go and make it all stressful smh...
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**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**
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#157
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(((daisy)))
(((Ellahmae))) and (((anyone else who wants/needs))) |
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#158
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I want to say all of the dumb things that I'm thinking right now, but:
1. I don't want to trigger anyone. 2. No one would care anyway. Oh well. Suffice it to say I'm not OK. I'm taking some NyQuil for this dumb cold and going to bed. |
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#159
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It was a feeling of deep down betrayal. I dont think my current t could betray me that deeply now - maybe ive gotten more cynical in my old age, idk. But there have been hard times between us, just not betrayal per se. I think people can get thru hard times ![]() |
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#161
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i would care, daisy.
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#162
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#163
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Thanks, guys. I'm just...I can't process any of the thoughts or feelings I'm having right now...
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Supposedly it gets better, but I'll be 30 soon and I'm still waiting for the better part. It only ever gets bad like this late at night, when it's quiet. Normally I'd be in bed by now. Can't sleep because of the cold. |
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#164
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I'm sorry Daisy that you are feeling so down. I know when I am physically not well, my mental and emotional state also take a hit. It sounds like the nyquil could be helpful for the cold and sleep would be helpful for the cold.
Do you need some soup or a hot bath? |
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#165
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I second the hot bath idea. Those almost always make me feel better, especially when I allow myself a good cry while I'm in there. (((daisy)))
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Art, I'm proud of you for calling your T. I know you are not happy with yourself about it. You recognized that you were stuck in a thinking pattern and you took action to get out of it and the sounds of it, you didn't take ownership of the disagreements that occurred in your session. I think both of those are positive steps. It's not going to be easy whatever you decide to do. Your T has been a major part of your life for a number of years. I've never done what you are trying to do, trying to learn to do. My guess is that it is part of what I will learn as well. I stuck it out with my T through this rupture and things are still not good between us. They are better. I don't know if they will ever be good for us again. I guess I am holding out the hope that they will be good enough again.
So, maybe what was said at this last session will put a dent in things, will what is left be good enough to learn the lessons still available to you... I don't know. I know it was brave, courageous, and self compassionate to call her today and to talk about such a difficult topic. |
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Sorry Art, her response clearly triggered something in me!
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#170
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It's all good. I post this stuff here because getting other points of view is helpful for me.
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#172
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kdlj lewjueoueocoe oeri o ljlsls
I can't stand being at my ex's I will probably leave tomorrow as he is getting about ok on his crutches, he can make simple meals . The girls are old enough to get there meals. I can't stand it any longer. I want my bed I want my bath I want my routine and I want my food, or lack of. |
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#173
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#174
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BTW - Me too... It seemed odd that she would say that. It might have just been one of those things that slipped out and she's now kicking herself over it - or processing through it to figure out what the heck happened. I do believe that T's can get caught up in stuff too. I think the big sign is if she'll take any ownership in what happened or leave it all at Art's feet.
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#175
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Just checked in on the meetup site for my drumming group and there's a thing tomorrow afternoon called "Radiant Rose Communal Blessing Ceremony". The description sounds like exactly what I need right now:
"Are you longing to receive good energies and to raise your vibration? As Rose, I offer you unconditional love and balanced emotions. I am a mood stabilizer and I embody compassion. Easing and calming stresses is part of my essence. Together we can shift to a more receptive approach in your life. Love, Rose" and "We will invoke Rose through rose flowers, rose flower essence, rose quartz, and rose tea. Our ceremony will include intention setting, cleansing, water ritual, chant, heart activation, rhythm and meditation." Doesn't this sound lovely? I'm soooooo there. |
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