The Couch 146 : The Untouchable, Nontotient, Octahedral, Composite Couch.

captgut · Jul 09, 2017, 03:24 AM

She always told she cares.
People always told me they care.
But they need me only when I'm happy (never).
Everything is a lie.

Possible trigger:

I should be brave and kill myself finally.

I live for others. Why? They don't like me and don't care

healed84 · Jul 09, 2017, 07:09 AM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

Healed, what are you doing at college?

Bachelors in Social Work.. will hopefully find a job doing some kind of social work with the BA and work on masters... with goals of being a medical social worker, working in either a hospital or residential type place.

LonesomeTonight · Jul 09, 2017, 07:25 AM

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Originally Posted by captgut

I was so happy that I brought myself to tell T I love him.
I wanted to share my happiness and texted my friend.
But she shamed me and told not to tell her so "intimate" things.

Now I hate myself and almost crying

I'm sorry, Capt. I think it was very brave of you to tell your T. I think many people don't understand how intense our feelings for our T can be and what those relationships can be like. I'm guessing your friend probably just doesn't understand. But that's still no excuse for her shaming you for sharing something important and meaningful to you with her.

DodgersMom · Jul 09, 2017, 09:23 AM

my stupid renter is STILL avoiding me, she is 9 days late now. ARGH

88Butterfly88 · Jul 09, 2017, 09:41 AM

((((captgut))))

unaluna · Jul 09, 2017, 09:51 AM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

I am still very unclear on who Steve Perry is.

Katy Perry's dad

awkwardlyyours · Jul 09, 2017, 09:58 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Katy Perry's dad

I actually believed you and looked it up

unaluna · Jul 09, 2017, 10:01 AM

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Originally Posted by awkwardlyyours

I actually believed you and looked it up

Oh im sorry. I should have added more blinky things. In my defense, my friends woke me up messaging me at like 10 this morning. Who gets up that early??

Again. I am sorry.

awkwardlyyours · Jul 09, 2017, 10:04 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Oh im sorry. I should have added more blinky things. In my defense, my friends woke me up messaging me at like 10 this morning. Who gets up that early??

Again. I am sorry.

I'm sorry too! I was kidding (I did look it up though -- I am now duly enlightened about Ms.Perry's Pentecostal origins).

Yeah, 10 is just uncivilized. A true gentleman does not wake up before noon or venture out before 5 (I get my manners entirely from Wodehouse's Bertie Wooster).

unaluna · Jul 09, 2017, 10:06 AM

I love Bertie! Eta - frye and laurie did a good job of it.

anais_anais · Jul 09, 2017, 10:10 AM

Gainfully employed normal guest lady has vanished. Only an unplugged fan and a crooked blind remain. I'll never know if she was really normal

Jul 09, 2017, 10:29 AM

To add to wake up times: I never woke up as late as 10 in my life. Latest for me is 8am, but I shoot for 7am on weekends and 6:30 on work days. Speaking of which...it's 11:30am and I still have to finish cleaning. Why am I not done already?!

awkwardlyyours · Jul 09, 2017, 10:48 AM

Saw this after my nth cancellation.

velcro003 · Jul 09, 2017, 10:50 AM

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Originally Posted by awkwardlyyours

Also, to be totally honest, it would've been near impossible for me to resist asking them, "And, how is that cake?".

Repeatedly.

After every couple of bites that they took.

While bestowing them with my best beatific smile.

And, potentially adding "I'm so glad you're enjoying it so much. Bless your rosy heart".

LOL.

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

I'm going to go to the hospital tomorrow. I'm really scared but just telling my self it's not an option. Everyone I've told has basically freaked out and I guess I don't really see the severity. Also I know I will end up dying from it and yeah I guess I want to be alive. I'm going IP instead of rehab because my drug use comes from my maladaptive coping skills for my mental illness. So I'm looking for a safe place that's not gonna shove NA down my throat. I hope this is the last time I will ever go IP although I said that in 2012 I really do not want to be a drug addict and I know it ****s up EVERYTHING in one's life. I've been sober for long periods before so I just wana get that again.

I'm sorry for the drama i have caused and for worrying others

Good for you JDNA! I think the hospital is the right place to be. Please focus on getting better. Heroin is a SERIOUS drug, which I know you know.

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I was like the Tin Man, perfectly content until that evil wizard went and gave him a heart.

Sheldon

yep, that about sums you up

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Originally Posted by artemis-within

I'm picdturing her in her lawyerly side-chair looking all stately and then using a sippy cup. With a little cartoon face on it. And mouse ears.

hahahaha

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Originally Posted by StressedMess

My kitty just crawled up on my pillow and snuggled up behind my head with her head in my ear. The purr machine has been activated. I think I better lie very still for quite a long time!

aww! I am currently in hte middle of a kitty sandwich. I told myself I had to go rund errands over an hour ago...

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Originally Posted by captgut

I was so happy that I brought myself to tell T I love him.
I wanted to share my happiness and texted my friend.
But she shamed me and told not to tell her so "intimate" things.

Now I hate myself and almost crying

Nope, don't listen to your "friend." She clearly doesn't understand therapy at all. Nor should any friend shame you for sharing your feelings anyway! Ugh. I don't talk to any of my friends (or anyone, except here) about therapy, bc they wouldn't understand.

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Originally Posted by healed84

Bachelors in Social Work.. will hopefully find a job doing some kind of social work with the BA and work on masters... with goals of being a medical social worker, working in either a hospital or residential type place.

Wow, that sounds awesome! I know you aren't doing well right now, but this seems like a good future goal to keep you going? maybe?

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Originally Posted by Jersey 2.0

To add to wake up times: I never woke up as late as 10 in my life. Latest for me is 8am, but I shoot for 7am on weekends and 6:30 on work days. Speaking of which...it's 11:30am and I still have to finish cleaning. Why am I not done already?!

omg, i don't understand people like you! There are MANY reasons why I don't have kids (even though i am a preschool teacher), but one of them is i might be slightly resentful at never being able to sleep in.

edit: that came off as harsh, and is not meant to be.

Jul 09, 2017, 11:07 AM

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Originally Posted by awkwardlyyours

Saw this after my nth cancellation.

LOL

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More characters

Jul 09, 2017, 11:25 AM

Out to breakfast w h. Ordered from the 55+ menu for the first time.

I'm over yesterday's cake incident and back to perseverating on the t thing. Joy to the world. Ha.

StressedMess · Jul 09, 2017, 11:27 AM

My coworker's daughter had a baby. Last night and this morning I got group text notifications and responses at odd hours. She was born and my day started much earlier than is civilized. I'm tempted to mute text notifications but I'm afraid I'm going to miss an emergency!

LonesomeTonight · Jul 09, 2017, 11:33 AM

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Originally Posted by StressedMess

My coworker's daughter had a baby. Last night and this morning I got group text notifications and responses at odd hours. She was born and my day started much earlier than is civilized. I'm tempted to mute text notifications but I'm afraid I'm going to miss an emergency!

If you have an iPhone, you can put specific people on do not disturb so you don't get notifications from them. You'd still get their messages, there just wouldn't be a buzz or sound.

unaluna · Jul 09, 2017, 11:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Jersey 2.0

To add to wake up times: I never woke up as late as 10 in my life. Latest for me is 8am, but I shoot for 7am on weekends and 6:30 on work days. Speaking of which...it's 11:30am and I still have to finish cleaning. Why am I not done already?!

Lol! Two kinds of people in the world! Actually my mom trained me to sleep late! So i have her to blame for my being a sluggard (slug plus laggard?). Because she worked 6pm-2am she wanted me quiet in the mornings. Pretty much all my life at home, age 2 on.

So i wonder if my brain really got trained that way?

unaluna · Jul 09, 2017, 11:43 AM

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Originally Posted by artemis-within

Out to breakfast w h. Ordered from the 55+ menu for the first time.

I'm over yesterday's cake incident and back to perseverating on the t thing. Joy to the world. Ha.

Egg beaters for you! Oat bran! Decaf coffee! Turkey bacon!

StressedMess · Jul 09, 2017, 11:47 AM

Wait now I want turkey bacon!

anais_anais · Jul 09, 2017, 11:52 AM

Those goblets in the park yesterday looked mighty tasty

Eta- by yesterday I mean last week, I guess

Eta eta- what the heck does eta stand for anyway