Are you cautious or dive right in with new T?

Now it is more like 7:3. Go slow is the heavy favorite. I think my impatience plays into this also. My trust is in their ability to maintain confidentiality. An odd twist to this is that if I chose not to continue after a session or two, I would be glad I took the opportunity to spill it all to another person; every time I do that I seem to learn something.

I really wish I had worded it differently; totally 100% open or not is what I meant, so that there is no gray area, although there is the secondary issue of whether or not you bring things up or wait until the T goes there. I have one major issue that I will discuss but did not bring up in the first session.

I used to be cautious with therapist, but no longer. I've learned to say what I want to say and what I need to say. It did take many years to get here.

With Disasters 1 & 2 I was soooooooo cautious. I didn't reveal much at all and considering I was with 1 for 3 years, that says a lot. I didn't tell 2 much because she's bat **** crazy. But with T C, I'm trying to do everything differently. I've told him more in 5 months than either of my previous Ts combined. I'm comfortable with him and that makes all the difference. It will be a long, long time before I get into the really deep stuff but I don't feel afraid to just dive in with certain topics.

I am extremely cautious. IF I decide to see new T it will take some time before I am able to reveal anything to her. Although IF I decide to see her I know she will literally have all of current Ts notes and they have been meeting, emailing and sharing information about me anyway. So she will know all of the big stuff Ive shared with current t anyway.
But it will still take me a long time to open up to her. Even longer to feel in any way safe.

I tend to throw all my junk at them,demand results, reduce them to tears then fire them for incompetence.

The one pdoc who kept his sht together and didn't take my crp, is the pdoc I have now a year on.
It took 17 attempts but I got there in the end.

*places blanket*
*puts all problems on it*
"Here they are, now what do we do?"