The Couch 150: Ceci n'est pas un couch

I absolutely agree 101% with what stopdog has said. Take control. (I just love you calling your t 'the woman' it makes me crack up every time!)

Okay I was reading an article about depression... Here is a quote: "I used to take care of myself, but now I wash my hair only once a week".

I can say: "I used to take care of myself...and washed my hair once a week"
:/

Just managed to lose 50% of the only pair of earrings I brought

Well, they were cheap...

My mom called me yesterday. I think it was the first time we've spoken directly since... maybe November. I was going to let it go to voicemail but at the last moment I answered.

She sounded normal. She sounded like my mom. I know she's married to my dad, who i think of more as "her husband," and maybe if I talked to him he'd sound normal too. We didn't talk about anything important. I told her where I was and she told me about a concert they went to and the ducks that keep invading the yard. Now I'm stuck wondering again if I'm making up all this stuff they did and depriving myself of a family for no reason.

Yes, and just when you let your guard down and think it's all in your head and you really do have a good family and kinda start to feel some warm fuzzy stuff.......they strike again. When you least expect it. And, at your most vulnerable spots.

I hope that's not your experience but I've been through this cycle endlessly.

I got this last night on my kindle. I couldnt put it down. I am not a cryer, but i can really relate to her.

I haven't washed my hair in a while. You're not the only one.

I love that. So ironic. It's very like the tv show Two Broke Girls, where one was always poor, and the other used to be very rich. Now they are both poor and living and working together, so they look at the same circumstance from completely different perspectives.

Sorry, sometimes i just like to practice talking!

Endlessly. Then they die, and still you dream about them.

I hope I can keep working through it without losing my mind any more than I already have. Really wanting M and L to come back right now. I am feeling so bearingless.

Some woman just asked me where I got my eyebrows tattooed
.... I'm hoping that means they look ok?

I'm glad big eyebrows are in vogue. I used to get taunted about mine big time.

Uhh - I guess they have to look great then. I never got why people would tattoo their eyebrows so far....

And you can do it - Ts on vacation are awful. Really. Why do they even get vacations?

this is my great grandfather, I think he takes the cake in terms of eyebrows

don't think too hard about eyebrow cake

Very handsome!

Well, had the meeting w my boss today about next "year." (2 weeks). I waffled on about how I just wasn't sure if I wanted lead teacher position, so yep-failed at adulthood. Yet again.

I had to take a break after chapter 72, where she described from a relationship of hers pretty much exactly and word-perfectly what being married to future ex was like.

I think being cautious about taking a big step career wise isn't failing. Maybe you can work with your boss to find a way to give you additional responsibilities at work that will help you feel more prepared to take a lead position when another one comes up.

Oh boy have I felt this way, too. There are layers to all people, and just because they are sometimes okay to interact with doesn't mean they are someone with whom it is safe to be vulnerable.

And, even if people seem totally normal now, if you are not very comfortable being close to them because of how they betrayed your trust in the past, that's entirely okay, too.

Thanks for the reminder. I needed this.

I think im around 60.

Correction - i just restarted chapter 70, and just HAD to stop and come back here to report: omg. I wasnt hearing her voice, i was reading it completely in my own.

It sounds like I can't handle that book right now but maybe.... una... could you come read me the dictionary instead? Bob Ross isn't answering my emails.

That's not failing at adulthood--that's realizing what you want and don't want, instead of blindly going for what's expected of you.

Hold the phone, everyone.

Today in the grocery store I saw PBJ Oreos. The world is complete. This is the moment when it is at its acme.

And you wouldn't even have to worry about cutting them in half or diagonally.

I could read you the vocabulary words and definitions I'm studying for the GRE. And maybe some math, too! (If you fall asleep, I'll understand.)

But atat, is there pb on both sides?

That sounds lovely