The Couch 150: Ceci n'est pas un couch

I did exactly this only once in my life-- it brought me immense relief (I was too upset in the moment to adequately express or stand up for myself) and I happen to know that it really got under their skin.

I hope it brings you some peace

Now that I'm reasonably content in my attic hole- I have to move out tomorrow. Next up is a couch in a two bedroom apartment with two couples. And there are a few days after that where I have nothing lined up yet. Or, I have an offer but it's from that idiot who can't comprehend that I do not want to be in a relationship with him. All of this is less good.

But I'm out of my place safely at least, that was the hardest part by far.

What ever

I say send it and yeah, say you don't want a reply.

But, I'd email it. That way you can get a read receipt (which to my creepy controlling brain would be crucial in such circumstances).

I would not email but then I'm not a big believer in email for more formal things in general. If I emailed someone something like this I would then block their address to make sure they could not reply

I would actually probably mail it certified with signature confirmation. No. 2 has a very odd relationship with email (she loathes it and avoids it as much as possible, and any email she writes is like one of Hemingway's very short stories), plus I find mail more satisfying.

I can never guarantee she actually reads it, just that she receives it.

And yes, I did imply I did not want a response but I will make that much more explicit if I send it.

Are you ok?

No

........

I'm already nervous about seeing t on Wednesday. Nervous because I don't yet know what I'm going to do. Am I going to share my recent insights, review the really good bulk of our relationship, then hug her and say a heartfelt goodbye? Am I going to ask to continue until November to work on the insights? Are we going to fight again? Where is my magic 8 ball when I need it?! I want to go see her - that's as much as I know right now - so I guess that is enough...

Morning couchies!

I almost fainted in the store today. I want to stay in my bed forever

anything we can do to help?

((DNA))
I hope that seeing T today will help. Is it the paranoia still?

Capt, please stay safe.

What happened?

My eyes went blank and I felt that I was going to faint.
People were very nice to me, offered me a chair and a water and asked if I need a doctor

When my bank balance fell into the single digits 4 days after payday, and I was wondering just wth I was going to feed us for the next 10 days, my former boarders showed up with two boxes of nonperishables. I'm thankful and ashamed at the same time. I'm so f'ed in the head!

Walking home just now, I went past a gang of foreign students, and one of them was laughing so loudly, so joyfully, and in that moment I was so desperate to be her instead of me that I immediately started crying.

So that's where I'm at today I guess.

Anyway, I need to shut up and write this f***ing essay...

This quote just showed up in my facebook feed. I don't know who said it, there was no one attributed. But it spoke to me. "What you can't say owns you. What you hide controls you."

Hugs to those who want/need.

Oh, Luco.
You don't have to shut up, but you do need to write that essay. You can do it!

My head/eyes are still bothering me today. I'm still not convinced that I'm not having a negative reaction to this medication, but tonight is the last dose, and the ER doctor said that if it were the medication I'd be having other symptoms as well.

I'm just praying that I get pregnant this cycle. I don't know if I want to do this again.

You know... It could have happened that she walked past you while you were talking with a friend... She could have caught you laughing - and started crying because she so desperatly wanted to be you.

daisy: I hope you feel better soon - Weird doc.

Do you know why that happened? Did you eat enough? Hope you're feeling a bit better...

It spoke to me too.

a giggle for this afternoon.

(((Artie))) you ARE the magic 8 ball today! You speak the truth!

I feel a lot better after having a thread about coincidence/synchronicity. I felt a bit lost with the notion and the simple consensus of "this is okay" was enough to settle that.

I know you were really nervous about posting that thread, Spoon. I'm really glad that you were able to get what you needed from the people who posted.

I'm starting to feel better. Apparently a lot of what I'm feeling is sinus pressure. It's time for me to schedule an appointment with an ENT.