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ScarletPimpernel · Jan 14, 2018, 09:14 PM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

Does anyyone else envision the worst in the hope that you you will surprised that things arent as bad as you imagined and you are prepared for the worst if it happens. Its terribly exhausting and i wonder why i put myself through it

I do this too. I consider it being pessimistic to be optimistic. If you think the worst, things usually turn out for the better. It's not the best way to think, but at least I'm not 100% pessimistic.

unaluna · Jan 14, 2018, 09:18 PM

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Originally Posted by BlessedCheeseMaker

I have 2 litter trays for my 2 kittens and have discovered that thye mainly poo in one and pee inthe other? Does anyone elses cats do that?

I do that when im living in a place with two bathrooms...

Jan 14, 2018, 09:20 PM

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Originally Posted by WarmFuzzySocks

BCM, I hope they do the right thing and repair it.

So do i. I was. Talking to people on facebook last night and more than a few have threatened legal action so maybe they are being more cautiuos. This group owns the majority of the xar yards in my otwn.

Jan 14, 2018, 09:35 PM

Now i want to curl up and have someone take care of me. It is also seriuosly hot here and i forgot my BP pills this morning no wonder i have a head ache

stopdog · Jan 14, 2018, 09:41 PM

I am trying new thing with the second one. We shall see.

Elio · Jan 14, 2018, 09:49 PM

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Originally Posted by stopdog

I am trying new thing with the second one. We shall see.

I hope you are able to get out of it what you are looking for, or at least close to what you are looking for. (forgive me if I am misunderstanding your statement).

ruh roh · Jan 14, 2018, 09:55 PM

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Originally Posted by kecanoe

Ah. Well in my experience (FWIW) as a person diagnosed with DID, it is definitely part of the process to simply not believe that I actually have DID. I mean, c'mon, it's like in the movies, right? And then there are so many people who don't believe it is a valid diagnosis at all. And I could go on.

Now that I think I understand your question a little better, it seems like it would be fine to have a conversation with current T and ask what she thinks about doing a consultation. My only reservation would be that I doubt that a T who doesn't know you would be able to confirm a diagnosis of DID in just an hour. The Ts I have seen have been willing to use that as a working diagnosis until they see it for themselves, which has taken a while.

If you feel like the treatment you have been doing has been helpful, then would it be possible to ignore the fact that it is for DID and just think of it as helpful for whatever it is that ails you?

Do you believe that your T is right that you have spiraled downward without the current treatment?

Thanks. I think I don't even really want a consultation to confirm the diagnosis, so much as another person to say that it is not unusual to have this crisis of questioning, which seems different than early on when I was sorting through the initial stages. The treatment had been working, but then something just happened and all of that seems more like a memory of something I watched. I told my therapist I would be lying to act as if I have that condition...I would literally have to make things up and I won't do that. She agrees that I can't lie. But she believes it to be true. So we are stuck. And yes, she is right that I did better with that treatment. I am just stuck and questioning and not going to make things up that I'm not aware are happening. This is helping though, just writing this out and reading the other comments, and your comment... so thank you.

CantExplain · Jan 14, 2018, 10:01 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

I do that when im living in a place with two bathrooms...

Wow! You Italians really know how to live!

awkwardlyyours · Jan 14, 2018, 10:24 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

I do that when im living in a place with two bathrooms...

But, exclusively?

Strict separation?

That calls for.....an iron will

atisketatasket · Jan 14, 2018, 10:35 PM

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But, exclusively?

Strict separation?

That calls for.....an iron will

Yeah, I mean, remembering which is which in the middle of the night is probably even worse than managing a onesie in the bathroom.

unaluna · Jan 14, 2018, 10:46 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Yeah, I mean, remembering which is which in the middle of the night is probably even worse than managing a onesie in the bathroom.

Who poops in the middle of the night?! There is NO provision for that in the Roommate Agreement!

Boy, the show i want to see is OLD Sheldon!

Eta - i caught part of a rerun i think where he said, "i cant have dinner two hours later, that would mean going to the bathroom at school and thats not an option." So i presume...

stopdog · Jan 14, 2018, 11:10 PM

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Originally Posted by Elio

I hope you are able to get out of it what you are looking for, or at least close to what you are looking for. (forgive me if I am misunderstanding your statement).

Thanks. It is still about grief. But with writing.

LostOnTheTrail · Jan 15, 2018, 03:49 AM

*flops onto couch*

Nope, not moving. Today can sod off as soon as it likes.

Jan 15, 2018, 06:17 AM

Hey ruh roh,

Have you heard of the Structural Dissociation model? In it, "parts" are a spectrum from ptsd to DID. Jana Fisher(?) conceptualises all trauma folks as fragmented to some degree or other.

A lot of treatment geared towards DID helps non DID folks too.

Would make sense that with DID, the system tries it's best to stay hidden, pass for non DID.

DID or not, you still deserve treatment which works for you. I'm in schema therapy myself though I don't have BPD or OS DD or DID.

Jan 15, 2018, 06:24 AM

Speaking of charming abusers. My dad's charming. Well liked. Mother too. We were always praised as a good family. I got praised a lot for having good parents. They told me they're good parents too. My sister remembers way more bad crap that she witnessed them do to me and tells me they're a good father and a good mother.

ruh roh · Jan 15, 2018, 08:51 AM

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Originally Posted by QuietMind

Hey ruh roh,

Have you heard of the Structural Dissociation model? In it, "parts" are a spectrum from ptsd to DID. Jana Fisher(?) conceptualises all trauma folks as fragmented to some degree or other.

A lot of treatment geared towards DID helps non DID folks too.

Would make sense that with DID, the system tries it's best to stay hidden, pass for non DID.

DID or not, you still deserve treatment which works for you. I'm in schema therapy myself though I don't have BPD or OS DD or DID.

Thanks. There's someone on here who talks about parts in ways that I cannot relate to (in IFS treatment) and that bother me a lot--it's like some kind of weird role play or indulgence in being childlike. I don't get it. I have no idea what they are engaged in with their therapy. It's so different from what I am familiar with in DID treatment and it disturbs me. I think I will just leave this alone and hope that my therapist is still okay with dropping what we had been doing.

Jan 15, 2018, 11:17 AM

Hey couch. Today's a holiday MLK day I think and we only have to work 4 hours of it yay. I'm too old for all this overtime. But I like the paychecks...

I might go out in the desert this afternoon. Looks like a nice day outside for losing and thereby finding myself among the cacti.

I'm in a quiet, reflective, pondering kind of place right now. Ever since the kinda weird stuff t was talking about earlier this month. It's really been working on me.

stopdog · Jan 15, 2018, 11:22 AM

It is snowing here and temps expected to plummet down to the single digits

unaluna · Jan 15, 2018, 11:28 AM

We are at least staying in the double digits. Looks like i cancelled t for no really good reason. Except that oh god i love it.

stopdog · Jan 15, 2018, 11:34 AM

I found cancelling to be good as well.

ruh roh · Jan 15, 2018, 11:59 AM

Art, sorry if I'm overstepping, but have you considered other ways to earn extra money, something that brings you joy to do? For example, reiki?

StressedMess · Jan 15, 2018, 12:44 PM

SD I hope you and the pets don't suffer too much in the cold.

Una have fun and you stay warm too!

Art, mandatory OT month is half over, hang in there! Have fun on your desert trek, be safe.

Hey RR!

My kids are sick, fevers and body aches and cold symptoms. I am NOT catching the flu this year. It's off to the doctor for them tomorrow if they aren't significantly better, ugh.

junkDNA · Jan 15, 2018, 01:05 PM

T wrote back this morning
I'm sorry for my drama on here...

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Hi (junkDNA)

I'm sorry you've been struggling. I'm also sorry I haven't been able to get back to you. Things have been very busy and I have like fifteen people I haven't even called back yet.
Unfortunately, I don't have any time for additional sessions this week. You are of course welcome to come hang out at (office). Hang in there. I care about you,

(T)

Jan 15, 2018, 01:09 PM

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Originally Posted by ruh roh

Art, sorry if I'm overstepping, but have you considered other ways to earn extra money, something that brings you joy to do? For example, reiki?

Well this is mandatory overtime.... But thanks for the thought anyway!

NP_Complete · Jan 15, 2018, 02:23 PM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

T wrote back this morning
I'm sorry for my drama on here...

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Hi (junkDNA)

I'm sorry you've been struggling. I'm also sorry I haven't been able to get back to you. Things have been very busy and I have like fifteen people I haven't even called back yet.
Unfortunately, I don't have any time for additional sessions this week. You are of course welcome to come hang out at (office). Hang in there. I care about you,

(T)

If you can't drama here, where can you drama?

I'm glad he responded. I'm sorry he doesn't have any extra sessions for you.

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