[emeraldheart]

I am always a ball of anxiety and nerves the night before a session. I sometimes have to bribe myself and convince myself to go to a session. I get along well with my therapist and therapy is definitely working for me, but the things we discuss are very difficult topics so I'm usually very nervous the night before.

I'm curious how it is for others. How is it for you?

[ElectricManatee]

The night before I am usually looking forward to my session, but the day of I sometimes get really anxious. It comes and goes, depending on how I'm feeling about my T and what I'm planning to talk about that day. I have found that morning sessions can be helpful sometimes so I don't walk around feeling anxious anticipation all day.

[downandlonely]

I don't usually get nervous.

[lucozader]

I'm usually okay the night before... It's only just before the session that I often start to get a really intense mixture of anxiety and excitement. It was worse with T1, sometimes I felt like I could hardly walk because of it.

[emeraldheart]

Originally Posted by lucozader

I'm usually okay the night before... It's only just before the session that I often start to get a really intense mixture of anxiety and excitement. It was worse with T1, sometimes I felt like I could hardly walk because of it.

is it better now with a new T?

[DP_2017]

I love my T and therapy is my favorite part of my week but EVERY session, even after nearly a year, I get very anxious before hand, a few hrs before, I can't even eat

[growlycat]

I’m nervous the hour before therapy. At least an anticipatory anxiety. I get along well with t too.

[ruh roh]

I don't feel anything.

[lucozader]

Originally Posted by emeraldheart

is it better now with a new T?

Yes. I still get nervous and excited, but it tends not to be so extreme unless I'm particularly worried about something (like when we had a rupture recently).

I think partly because we have a better relationship and partly because I don't have the same sorts of intense romantic/sexual feelings that I had for my previous T.

[Merope]

I'm usually excited the night before a session. For me though, I have my appointments in the evening so I still have to go through a whole day of work and waiting around in a cafe (not much point going home). I usually have a couple of hours of "me time" before sessions so I spend them working out how I'm going to say what I want to say to my T. Sometimes, if I feel particularly nervous about a session, I go to the pub beforehand (I hardly ever drink but sometimes a small glass of wine helps ease down the nervousness).

The night before is usually spent working out what I'm going to wear. I don't know why this is important to me (I have no erotic transference, just paternal), but I like the idea of associating certain clothes with therapy (probably because I feel safest during sessions and somehow the clothes carry on that feeling afterwards--weird, I know).

ANYWAY.

Sorry, this is long. It's a good question--I never thought about what my pre-therapy habits are, but it turns out I have a hoard of them. My relationship with my T is a good one but when I press that buzzer and the door unlocks, I get pretty nervous. I once described vulnerability as feeling like you're naked before a fully clothed person--I guess some of my anxiety about how I'll be perceived/how T will react to what I have to say, stems from that.

[WarmFuzzySocks]

I usually thumb through my journal the night before to refresh my thoughts on what I might want to focus on, and try to get extra sleep because often I'm exhausted after a therapy session. I also try to get away early from work or whatever and take half an hour at the coffee shop nearby to transition and slow down from going-doing to reflecting.

Merope-I tend to choose particular clothes for therapy. There's something comforting about a soft sweater or a soothing gentle color that seems to help. So either it's not weird, or we're both weird together.

[imnotbroken]

Originally Posted by DP_2017

I love my T and therapy is my favorite part of my week but EVERY session, even after nearly a year, I get very anxious before hand, a few hrs before, I can't even eat

I can relate to that. My session starts at 3pm, so I can rarely have a decent lunch every Tuesday.

[TrailRunner14]

I feel happy that the week is over and I’m headed for a safe place to share my thoughts.

I also bo back and read through my journal and try to get some idea how it’s going to “come out”. When I have a hard time containing things it feels like I verbally throw up on my counselor.

I also try and pick out what I’m going to wear. Sometimes that turns into a battle right before I go because my outfit doesn’t “feel” right. I can’t really explain that.

Usually it’s jeans and a neutral colored shirt that feels like “me”.

It would be awesome to have some time to really sit with my thoughts right before I met with him. After I get off, I go straight there.

Eating is difficult on the days that I meet with him.

I feel a nervous/excited the night before. I always worry that I won't know what to talk about or that she isnt going to be there for some reason or that she is going to decide not to work with me anymore when I finally see her. I also never eat on therapy days until after I'm done because I am so anxious. 2 years and these are issues I can't seem to get past. :P

[ChickenNoodleSoup]

The evening before I usually read notes from during the week to get an idea about what I'd like to talk. Then, I'm almost never nervous, except that I usually worry that he might for some reason cancle suddenly, so I always keep my phone turned on during that night (all other nights I turn it off). But with that I'm pretty relaxed.

The day of therapy, I get whatever I like for lunch, eat on the way there, while constantly worrying that some part of my public transport chain will fail. But I don't worry about any part of therapy at that time either.

[junkDNA]

I don't get nervous at all anymore. I usually close at work the night before. I always feel glad to see t. After meeting with him a lot over the past 7 years I've become comfortable enough to be myself.... Weird quirks n all

[fille_folle]

Sometimes, I feel apprehensive. Particularly if I know I acted strange in the previous session, or if we are going to talk about something painful. I also get nervous if my behavior between sessions has been particularly poor. Mostly, though, I feel slight relief knowing that I will have a session the next day. That way, if something horrible happens in the meantime, or I have a bad night, I won't have to deal with it all by myself.

Don't think about it much until I'm going. Use to. But thats past.

I'm usually okay until an hour or two before session. That's when I get the overwhelming feeling that I don't want to go and that I'm incredibly anxious.