Couch 177: I Get a Strange Magic - ELO

I finally got off the couch after I took a nap with my baby. Got up and cleaned and did more laundry. Went for a walk around the block when H got home.

I made spaghetti, and hard boiled eggs, and did a load of laundry. Now I'm kicking back on my couch watching That 70's Show.

Perhaps in preparation for starting first grade tomorrow, D has taken to calling me "Mom" instead of "Mommy" the past couple days (though still mixing in a "Mommy" here or there). It makes me a little sad. Also pretty sure she grew 2 inches last night...

I just came home from camping. Everyone helped clean up, so coolers are emptied and cleaned, cars went through the cheapo car wash, and I'm on my third load of laundry. Tomorrow, the boys will clean and store the tents and tarps for winter and I will clean and repack the camping box. Now I'm catching up on the adventures of the couch. et cetera

Last night, dear friend and I went stargazing in the campground field with a couple of our boys. We could hear an owl calling and the water but everything else was quiet. From the mountains with no city light, the stars are breathtaking. We could see the Milky Way and almost to forever, and we saw a brilliant shooting star. I was so depleted, and now I feel filled up. I think I'll tuck that shooting star in my pocket for the days when I really need it.

Sharing some peace and nature for those that need it.





(So different from your gorgeous pics, Art. I want to hike in your neck of the woods someday.)

Oh WFS those pics are so beautiful!! Yes so different from my desert but equally gorgeous!

Just in my situation, looking back, I see I have not understood what they (he) T was trying to do. It never occurred to me he would not have my best interest at heart. It didn’t occur to me he was a liar and thief and that he was exploiting me.

I should have known better. The things he proposed seemed illogical and silly, looking back. I couldn’t see around the blind corners to forecast how my reactions and decisions would hurt me and my family. I wasn’t trying to hurt myself or my family, but I did.

You seem to be well educated and yet you say you don’t quite understand the process in your own therapies. If educated experienced people like yourself .....or people (or other clients, not you), who are in the psychology field, even..if you guys don’t kinda know what T’s are doing and how it’s supposed to help...what chance do plain, not-highly-educated people like me have to know when we come across one or several T’s who are out to exploit the client..or, maybe, the T is out of their mind???

If we don’t know what to expect we have no gauge to know when therapy is starting to go awry.

Of course, I know more, now, learning from this board and googling articles, etc. But the average client likely has not done that...and doesn’t know TO do that.

My conclusion is therapy is not safe!

I will never be able to make it up to my daughter and family.

Hey, i just saw my first "Shadow" movie! The last ten minutes of it anyway. The invisible avenger, 1958. Pretty cool.

self-hatred can be a good motivator. it made me go for a run tonight.

I am so very beyond happy that my sister is choosing to raise her daughter differently than we were raised, like I chose to raise my son differently than I was raised. She just posted a picture on instagram of her daughter's Barbie doll "rocking a sporty new 'do" (my niece, age 11 had cut off most of Barbie's hair). She didn't get angry with her daughter, My niece is growing up to be a beautiful, strong and self-confident young lady. So she interrupts adults when they're talking sometimes and my sister doesn't do much about it... y'know, I can live with that. I understand where my sister is coming from. We weren't allowed to have our own opinions or thoughts or even allowed to speak when adults were talking... maybe she's over-compensating a little with her daughter because of that. But she's a great kid.

I'm jealous of people who have good relationships with their parents.

Me too.

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Im just suspicious! Im like, this is all an act, right? C'mon, tell me how you REALLY feel!

Im not happy about that, btw.

What would a good relationship with one’s parents look like? Besides not abusive.

I had/have good parents. I’m not sure whether we had/have a good relationship though. Yet it’s also not a bad relationship.

I had good enough parents. Not perfect - and my mother in particular thought I was quite odd, but they would be there for me even if they did not understand me, they did not kick me out or abandon me for being lesbian, and so on.
Frankly I am horrified at how so many of my students are still dealing with parents who can't let them grow up.

Watched a show called Supersize vs Superskinny, went to read about other episodes, and landed on the wrong side of the internet. I didn't know people were so vile, and I didn't need to know. I'm going to say don't ever visit voat.co because they don't deserve ad revenue. And people should not refer to other people as hams. Blergh.

My parents weren't abusive. I love them very much. But I also think they failed me on some fundamental emotional level through no fault of their own. I have mother issues definitely. I was adopted at one week old. I don't think I was the daughter that my mother wanted. I wasn't girly enough for her and I felt that growing up. I wonder if she thought her biological child would have been better suited to her. I know she loves me, but still...

The rampant civility of the internet gives me hope for the future.

I wasn't the daughter my mother wanted. My brother was. I perplexed her. But I did not feel not loved. I would not say we were close in a lot of ways. I would not talk to her about a lot of things, but outside of my person when she was alive, I really don't talk to anyone about a lot of things. And even with my person there were some things I didn't. People have different strengths and purposes.

Sorry to jump in here with my pain problem. I was doing better but CBD oil doesn't seem to help and I can't fall asleep! Got 4 hrs last night, 5 night before. I've been sitting more so maybe aggravated the sciatica. Seeing pain Dr. tomorrow. I just took 2 extra strength Tylenol. I'm still not allowed NSAIDS. Just wanted some sympathy I guess.

No PT since Thursday, and not til Wednesday. Lidocaine kind of burns but if I take a shower I can't use anymore because I used too much today. Maybe I need to be on that awful Gabbapentin if CBD oil doesn't work. My doctor said Medical marijuana but would take a few months to get it, and would cost very much. I'd probably have side effects. I never smoked it. I'm so miserable!!!!!

About parents. Mine were good, and showed their love for me but I still have attachment problems.

Thanks for the hug, WarmFuzzySocks! And Can't Explain.

My daughter, at the moment wants to be a boy (she's 10). Her hair is cut short and if you didn't know her you would think she were a boy. It's another bone of contention between myself and my husband at the moment. I took her to the barber's yesterday and now it's the shortest it's been. She is over the moon but H isn't happy. He said "this is the last short haircut. You can grow it back after this". My response to which was "er no. It's her hair". I'll be damned if she's going to feel unaccepted by me. I hate that I have to defy my husband over this but I'm not going to sit around while he acts like he gets to dictate her expression of who she is.

Ive watched that! Interesting concept - they match pairs, and each agrees to eat the other's diet for a week, sitting face to face. One is going, "Two cups of tea, is that all you have for brekkies?!" And the other is moaning, "Bangers and mash and eggs and pancakes at sun up, are you completely mad?!"

The British fat shows IMO are much better than the American ones. American shows tend to be same shyte, different day - very repetitive format, just different people, like My 600 lb life. British shows over a 10 episode series will present a different side of an issue in each episode.

I think there's a difference between wanting to be a boy and feeling like she is a boy. It's just hair but at the same time it's so much more- I think it's good she has you solidly supporting her.

We have "Inside Britain's Fattest Man" where Richard hammond pretends to be in a submarine and in the body of someone and "Weight Loss Ward ".

Una you might also like embarrassing bodies. You have people too ashamed to go to their doctor with everyday conditions, but decide to open up to the nation with their problem. My ex best best friend was on it ( but only as a kid when they came to her school).

Did you manage to get any sleep?