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stopdog · Oct 11, 2018, 04:06 PM

So one of those needing hand holding constant reassurance anxiety students. ugh

Argonautomobile · Oct 11, 2018, 04:27 PM

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So one of those needing hand holding constant reassurance anxiety students. ugh

I was this student. Now I feel destined to have this student over, and over, and over again. It's like a hellish Groundhog Day of karmic retribution.

WarmFuzzySocks · Oct 11, 2018, 04:35 PM

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My therapist asked if we could move our session today to a later time, said it was okay if I didn't want to, then mumbled something about he'd have more time in the office. At first I thought it was so he wouldn't have to rush me out the door at exactly the end, and that made me feel good, but now I'm wondering if it's more for his convenience. I wish I hadn't thought about this more. He did tell me to reach out when I get the dreaded phone call telling me my dad has died, so I know he does care.

We had a funny moment yesterday in session when we were discussing what should I do when I got that phone call. I thought for a moment and said "close the window so the neighbors don't think I'm a banshee". He laughed at that and said "you should be a banshee here" and I told him he'd need more tissues for that to happen. He responded that he had a whole cabinet of tissues. It felt nice that he would be accepting of me outright sobbing, but I'm not sure I could allow that without feeling embarrassed afterwards. Has anyone really let go when you're crying in therapy?

Yes. I remember my t warning me afterward that I might feel awkward or embarrassed later but to remember that it was okay to have shared what I shared and cried about it.

I don't know if this is true for you, but crying in front of another person was hard partly because crying had become an unsafe thing for me to do at home. It always had to be hidden, until I'd stopped altogether. The first "homework" my therapist gave me was to go home and cry in the shower. I nodded and said I'd try, but I was thinking, "Yeah, I don't cry."

((NP)) I am so sorry about your dad. It can't be easy waiting for that phone call. I wish I had some magic words that could help.

WarmFuzzySocks · Oct 11, 2018, 04:41 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

I thought nothing could top pumpkin spice cat litter.

But I was wrong.

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I had to Hug your post only because there's no "This cannot possibly be a real thing" button. Which we totally need. I could've used it for that site someone posted that was selling those giant face lollipops.

Oct 11, 2018, 05:34 PM

Yahoo! I am waiting for our tech guy to bring down my computer then I am outta here no more office for me!!

SlumberKitty · Oct 11, 2018, 05:36 PM

Dealing with bankers, and loan documentation, and loan requests for the owner of the company I work for is really stressing me out. I'm trying to not let it get to me, but ITS WINNING.

Possible trigger:

it makes me want to SH

. I hope I did the trigger warnings right. Kit

88Butterfly88 · Oct 11, 2018, 05:52 PM

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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Dealing with bankers, and loan documentation, and loan requests for the owner of the company I work for is really stressing me out. I'm trying to not let it get to me, but ITS WINNING.

Possible trigger:

it makes me want to SH

. I hope I did the trigger warnings right. Kit

LonesomeTonight · Oct 11, 2018, 06:16 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

My therapist asked if we could move our session today to a later time, said it was okay if I didn't want to, then mumbled something about he'd have more time in the office. At first I thought it was so he wouldn't have to rush me out the door at exactly the end, and that made me feel good, but now I'm wondering if it's more for his convenience. I wish I hadn't thought about this more. He did tell me to reach out when I get the dreaded phone call telling me my dad has died, so I know he does care.

We had a funny moment yesterday in session when we were discussing what should I do when I got that phone call. I thought for a moment and said "close the window so the neighbors don't think I'm a banshee". He laughed at that and said "you should be a banshee here" and I told him he'd need more tissues for that to happen. He responded that he had a whole cabinet of tissues. It felt nice that he would be accepting of me outright sobbing, but I'm not sure I could allow that without feeling embarrassed afterwards. Has anyone really let go when you're crying in therapy?

I think I've let go in the way you're saying. Where I'm just totally sobbing and can't talk. It's happened a couple times now with current T. No screaming like a banshee though--I tend to be a more quiet crier. I suspect that goes back to childhood, trying to keep it secret?

unaluna · Oct 11, 2018, 06:42 PM

Banshee is the 2nd word of the day.

Dr Phil sent another bigmouth teenage girl to the horse ranch today.

NP_Complete · Oct 11, 2018, 06:57 PM

I cry in therapy all the time. Sometimes I have to hide my face because my husband told me I was ugly when I cried and I can't quite get past that. But it's mostly quiet crying. When I'm alone sometimes it's another story. Sometimes it's sobbing out loud. I guess I was thinking more of a wailing banshee rather than a screaming one. Aren't banshees supposed to be sad or something? I guess he was just letting me know that it was okay to feel what I'm feeling in there and I don't have to hold back.

88Butterfly88 · Oct 11, 2018, 07:44 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

I cry in therapy all the time. Sometimes I have to hide my face because my husband told me I was ugly when I cried and I can't quite get past that. But it's mostly quiet crying. When I'm alone sometimes it's another story. Sometimes it's sobbing out loud. I guess I was thinking more of a wailing banshee rather than a screaming one. Aren't banshees supposed to be sad or something? I guess he was just letting me know that it was okay to feel what I'm feeling in there and I don't have to hold back.

I've been crying in therapy lately too. You're not ugly.

atisketatasket · Oct 11, 2018, 10:10 PM

So on my Netflix show, River is following his psychiatrist around on her dates.

She seems pretty chill about it.

Oct 11, 2018, 11:01 PM

Happy Friday! yay weekend.

It just seemed like it was Monday. Where does all the time go?

11:27 PM

So my work router is faulty. Back to the office tomorrow to get a different one hoping I can get a replacement that quick.

AND trying to hook it all up fried my home internet modem!! So now I have no internet at all except my phone. grr.

But I had a quite lovely session w t.
Damn but I love that woman.

Oct 11, 2018, 11:28 PM

I have also had 2.5 margaritas by now so ignore half of what I say

StressedMess · Oct 12, 2018, 01:17 AM

I have to work tomorrow. It's 2:19 am. The 3 hour nap I took today is not doing me any favors right now. Hope you're all having a restful night!

StressedMess · Oct 12, 2018, 02:08 AM

3:10 am, for the love of money!

unaluna · Oct 12, 2018, 07:09 AM

I farted like every ten minutes last night, waking myself up. I need a CPAP for my butt!

atisketatasket · Oct 12, 2018, 07:57 AM

Okay...no more Couch sleepovers at una’s.

Oct 12, 2018, 09:14 AM

I woke up at 3:30am and couldn't go back to sleep so I got up, got ready and came into work at 5am. We have been doing overtime all week anyway what's a little bit more.... lol

I feel such a warm sense of contentment today after my session last evening. It's a little odd but I'll enjoy it anyway.

stopdog · Oct 12, 2018, 09:27 AM

I finally went to see a chiropractor about some issues I have been having for the past 6 years but just kept putting off because of my person's illness. In some ways I just could not bear another medical sort of person intruding on my consciousness during that time. While trying to relate events of my own spine misaligning/bone crunching activities, I realized how much I measure time/events in terms of before she got sick/while she was sick/ and her death.